Chapter 15


Sam went and grabbed a cup of decaf. She was exhausted from all the moving around and the baby woke up a couple of times last night. The nursery was right next door to Sam's bedroom so she had no need of a monitor. Abigail was sleeping soundly when the phone rang. It was Jax inviting her out to lunch at Kelly's around noon on the beautiful Sunny day. She minded drifted off to the last time she was there with him. That seemed like an eternity.

Looking over at the clock it said it said 10:30 a.m. Sam decided to jump into the shower quickly. Even if the baby woke up she would be okay for a few minutes without mommy. Stepping inside the warmth she just let the water run over her body. Closing her eyes her first thoughts went to Jason and her. The way his touch felt upon her skin. His lips on hers. His eyes penetrating deeply into her soul. Leaning back into the water she allowed it to run over her. She wanted him. And she knew in her heart that she wasn't the only one who had these feelings. She remembered telling him it was going to be a cold day in hell when she would allow him to prove his love to her. But it was her that needed that love to live. "Forgive me Jason for not giving you a chance to let me know your side of the story." She whispered out loud.

Turning off the water she stepped out and got a towel around her. Walking over to her closet she opened it up. Grabbing a pair of white Capri's and a pink shirt, and a pair of cute sandals she got dressed. Brushing out her hair she decided to wear it down. Jason had loved her hair that way. Putting on some lipstick and mascara she finalized her outfit. How much she wanted that ring on her finger. How much she wanted to be his wife again in every sense of the word. There was just one thing holding her back. Fear.


Jason had agreed to meet Earl across the street from Kelly's at noon for a bite to eat and a beer or two. He went there often hoping to catch a glimpse of her possibly having lunch. He could have kicked himself for last year's antics with Courtney over at the house. She had always been so obsessive with Jason. He should have seen the trouble coming on the horizon when he invited her in that night. She had been out drinking and he had come home to clear his head and think straight after hurting Sam's feelings. Her drunkenness and his confusion collided head on bringing a death to the one thing in this life he treasured above all things. Sam and their relationship. She had every right to not want to talk with him nor even see him. Thinking back he would have done the same thing only he might have left and never come back ever. Since her disappearance there had been a hole in his heart that hadn't healed yet and the only thing that could make it whole again was Sam. He would do anything he had to win her heart again.


Securing Abby in her car seat she gathered the diaper bag and her purse. Looking in the rear view mirror before backing out she checked her lipstick and put on her black framed shades. Then pulled out of the driveway and started downtown. She was about five minutes away.

Jason parked his bike along the street. Walking through the gate of the outside bar he sat down and waited for Earl to get there. The waitress came up and smiled at him.

"Having the usual today?" She asked winking at him.

"Yeah."

" Will be right back with that."


Jax was sitting at the table when Sam pulled up her car alongside the curb and parked. He got up and walked over to help her get the baby out as well as herself. Walking to the car he just happened to glance up and noticed Jason sitting at a table across the way and smiled at himself.

Opening the door he helped Sam out of the car. Giving her a kiss.

"You want to help me with the baby?" She asked.

"Of course." Jax said.

Reaching into the back seat he unbuckled Abby's car seat and pulled the carrier out.

Standing up to extract the cash from his pocket he paid the waitress for the beers and sat down. Taking a sip he put the bottle down and happened to glance up when he saw Jax giving Sam a kiss. She looked more beautiful than he remembered. Standing up from where he was sitting he couldn't believe he was seeing her after all this time. On the other side of the car where the two of them were he shut the door and was holding a baby carrier. Putting his arm around her the three of them walked onto Kelly's patio and sat down. Jason couldn't believe his eyes. Sitting back down he took another sip of his beer. He was envious of Jax and their baby. He had been putting off the divorce all this time simply holding out for a miracle that she would come back to him. It is clear that she had moved on. And now it was time for him to let go also. He knowingly couldn't pursue her knowing she had a baby with Jax.

The waitress came and took their order. Abigail was beginning to get fussy and was ready for her noon feeding.

"If you'll excuse me Jax I need to feed Abby. I will be back in about ten minutes." She said.

Getting up with her she left and went inside away from the crowd and fed her.

Jason saw her get up and leave. Watching her the whole time. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. And when she returned to the table with Jax his heart melted. She was a beautiful mommy just as he imagined she would be.

Jason's phone rang. It was Earl saying that he was running late and that he would be there in about 10 minutes.

"So, have you thought any more about what we talked about last night?" Jax asked Sam.

"And that would be?" Sam inquired.

" To let Jason know about her." He asked.

" I will in time Jax. I need to know it is going to be alright. I don't want to be hurt allover again." She said.

Jason watched as Sam wiped the tear from her eyes. He looked away because even after all this time he couldn't stand to see her in pain. He knew it was because of him still. Sam had always been so full of life and love until that day. He had seen Jax come and go on several occasions around town. The truth was that he was afraid of how far she had gone away from him. Also, he didn't know how Jax would react if he started questioning him about her whereabouts. So he decided to wait it out but the waiting almost killed him. He could hear the baby crying even from where he was across the street. And had that fatherly instinct to run over and pick it up. He saw Sam leaning down and doing just that. Finally Earl walked up and sat down.

"Sorry I am late." He said looking at Jason.

"No problem." Jason said.

"What is going on?" He asked Jason as his eyes were intently fixed on something.

Jason told Earl to turn around and look across the street. Earl noticed Sam and the baby. Turning back around he looked at Jason.

"Well I'll be damned. Is that your baby?" He asked.

Sam felt a strong presence as if someone was watching her. Glancing around her noticed Jason sitting across the street in the bar with his boss.

"Jax, I need to get out of here." She said with tears in her eyes.

"Why, what's wrong?" He asked.

"Jason. He's over there. Please help me get her together in the car, please. I don't want to deal with this right now." She pleaded.

"Okay Sam just stay calm we'll get her and you out to the car. Let's not draw any needless attention to us okay? He said.

"Okay." She said.

Bending over she got Abby buckled up for her car seat. Standing up she gathered her purse and walked with Jax to the car. Getting her into the car seat and Sam walked around to her side of the car and got in. Glancing briefly she saw Jason watching her. Turning her car away from the curb she pulled out and started down the street. Jax was left standing in the middle of the street. Turning around he looked at Jason who saw him shaking his head and walking away.

"Hang on Earl, I will be right back." He said.

Walking across the street he walked over to Jax.


"Before you say anything to me Jason please hear me out. I am not going to stand here and pretend that I like you because I don't. I was so in love with Sam at one time I couldn't see straight. I still love her and care for her deeply. I don't know what happened between the two of you but she is so messed up. She wants you Jason but she is afraid of putting her heart on the line again only to get it stomped on." He said.

" So the baby isn't yours?" Jason asked.

" No Jason. Abigail's yours." He said.