Hey all, I decided to start this story since the show hasn't been that great for John and Nat lately. This idea came to me so I decide to write. This is my first One Life To Live fic. Feedback is appreciated so tell me if I should continue. This story picks up pretty much where the show is now. The last thing to happen was Natalie and Cristian's fight over her reading his notebook. That's all, now that I've written you all a novel. LOL okay here is the story.
Cristian stood in the living room at Llanfair recalling what Natalie's mother had said to him earlier. She had told him that she knew what it was like to have demons, and he had to fight them. What he was going through was different, he thought. He never wanted to hurt anyone he loved, especially Natalie, but he had no control over it.
He suddenly grabbed his head in pain and began to lean forward. All he could hear was the voice inside his head.
"You must complete your mission in Llanview. You must kill; someone who is hated and, someone who is loved. You must let nothing get in your way, nothing."
Cristian pulled his head up and began to regain his composure. He couldn't let this happen. He couldn't take the risk of hurting Natalie. He grabbed his coat and headed out the front door. He needed to think.
Natalie stood in Angle Square looking up at the statue. The statue always made her think of Cristian. He designed it; he put his passion into it like he did with all of his art. That was the Cristian that she knew, the one she loved. She wanted to help him through what he was going through now matter what it was, why couldn't he see that? She thought to herself.
It was cold outside, and the blowing wind was an indication of the dropping temperature as day turned to night. Natalie crossed her arms across her chest to try to keep her body heat in. She had gone to the Angel square hotel hoping to talk to Roxanne, but she wasn't there. She needed to talk to someone, anyone besides her mom and Jess. She had unloaded her problems on them too much in the past few weeks, besides Jessica had her own problems right now; she didn't need her to add to them. Natalie sighed in exasperation. She was so confused by everything. She just wanted to be there for Cristian, for him to open up to her; instead he was pushing her away. She never felt this distant from him. She had never seen the side of him that she saw tonight. He was angry like never before. She saw so much anger in his eyes. She needed to eventually go back to Llanfair and face Cris. She turned to walk away and as she did so she heard a familiar voice call her name. She turned to see John staring her way.
"What do you want?" She snapped staring right back at him.
"To see how you're doing, Is that a problem?"
"No, but you accusing my husband of terrible things, things I know he would never do, that is a problem. So why don't you just go back to Evangeline and leave me and my husband alone." She started to turn to walk away but turned back at his response.
"I'm sorry Natalie, but you know as well as I do, that I can't do that.
"And why not?" She asked looking straight into his eyes. "Tell me something John, is this really about the fact that you think Cristian is dangerous, or is it about something else?
Cristian came through Angel Square. As he was about to cross through the square he saw Natalie standing in front of the statue. Apparently she didn't see him. She looked angry and seemed to be arguing with someone. Cristian stepped closer, but still remained unseen. He then caught sight of who she was arguing with; John McBain. He was about to breakup the argument but stopped as he heard John proceed to speak.
"I think you could be in danger, and I'm telling you this as a friend, someone who's concerned about you. What else do you think it would be about?"
Natalie glared at him. "Well maybe you just can't deal with the fact that my husband is back. Maybe it bothers you to see me happy with him."
John let out a small sarcastic laugh "You…you think I'm jealous?"
"Are you?"
"What…what would make you even ask that?"
"I don't know John, every time I turn around you're trying to turn me against my own husband. You're trying to get me to believe that he's this terrible person who could hurt me when I know that he never would. It sounds to me like you want my marriage to fail. Now why would a concerned friend want that unless there was jealously involved?"
"Natalie that's the furthest thing from the truth and you know it. I want you to be happy…with Cris. And as far as the jealousy thing goes maybe you're projecting your feelings on to me, maybe you're the one who's jealous."
"I am not jealous. What would I possibly be jealous of, you and Evangeline? Don't flatter yourself John. I have my husband, a husband who loves me more then anything else in the world, and I love him. So jealousy is the furthest thing in my mind." She said turning away, clearly upset by what he had said.
John sighed. "Hey look, I'm…I'm sorry for saying that. It was out of line."
She turned back around to face him. "I'm not jealous John." She repeated looking up into his eyes. "It's just…everything we've been through, I just, I don't want you to think that there's still…that I still." She trailed off not knowing how to finish what she had started to say. She sighed.
"Look I know you love Cris, and whatever happened between us, it was in the past I know that. That's why I'm sorry for saying what I did. I shouldn't have… considering what happened between us." He shifted uncomfortably and brushed his hair back with his hand.
She looked up at him. "John nothing ever really happened between us. All that ever really happened were a few shared kisses and some unrequited feeling on my part, and none of that matters any more because were both in different places now. My husband is back, and you're with Evangeline. It doesn't matter now, it was in the past."
She looked away uncomfortably "I…I should go. Cristian is waiting for me." Although the words came out of her mouth she didn't move.
Meanwhile, a now enraged Cristian looked on at the scene which had just unfolded in front of him. He wanted to kill McBain, rip him limb from limb. The thought of him kissing his wife infuriated him. And what did Natalie mean by 'unrequited feelings on her part'? He didn't care; all he cared about was getting her the hell away from him.
Natalie began to walk away and as she did so she saw Cristian coming towards her. She smiled at him even though her mind was still on the conversation she had just had with John. "Cris, what are you doing out here?" She asked.
Cristian tried to conceal his anger. "I needed to get some fresh air." He tried to remain calm. "Natalie, I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier, I want to open up to you. You mean everything to me."
"I'm sorry too Cristian. I couldn't possibly imagine what you went through on that ship; I'll try to be more patient with you."
"Thank you... for understanding. Let's go home." He began to walk away and she stood behind for a brief minute.
"You alright?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." She lied. "Let's go home." She said as she began to walk with him.
So what do you all think? Should I continue? Let me know.
Robin
