Robbie couldn't speak. He hoped that this was
just some sick joke. But it wasn't.
"Robbie, let me explain." Lily reached for his
hand. He pulled it away.
"I think you've said enough."
"No Robbie I haven't finished yet."
"There's more? I think I've heard enough. My
god Lily why do you think that you can just toy with peoples emotions
this way. I mean first Ray. You strung him along for weeks. And now
me. But I can't believe that you actually let us go that far when
your heart wasn't actually in it. How could you do this?" Robbie
couldn't even look at her.
"Robbie I'm sorry. My heart was in it. It just
felt so right. But now it feels wrong. Something missing here and I
can't seem to find it. I don't feel like myself anymore. And I
wish that I could take the whole thing back. I wish that I could just
go back, and fix everything that happened with Ray and Travis because
then none of this would ever have happened. Ray and I would still be
friends, and you and I would never have done this." Tears started
rolling down her cheeks.
"Well you can't. You can never take this
back." Robbie was starting to cry too. "So, so where does this
leave us?"
"Nowhere for now. I think I just need some-"
"Time? That's great Lily. Make me fall in love
with you, and have us make love, and then go ahead and want some
time.
"I'm so-so-so sorry." Lily could barely get
the words out.
"Lily it's fine. Take all of the time you
need. All of the time in the world, but just remember this, when you
decide your ready for this and me I might not still be here waiting."
Robbie got up and walked away.
"Robbie! No wait! Please come back." Lily
shouted down the hallway. Robbie turned the corner then was gone.
Lily slumped down and cried. Ray noticed, but he actually didn't
care. He felt no need to go over to her. It saddened him. He felt no
connection to this girl. Everything they had been through as children
had been swept away. There were no memories of fun times left; all he
felt was pain, and betrayal.
Lily woke up three days later and felt sick to her
stomach, literally. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. She
concluded that she must have the flu that was going around. She had
probably picked it up from Parker who had just gotten better the day
before.. After a few hours Lily felt better, and she decided to
invite Parker over. She needed to talk to someone. And she thought
Parker would be the best.
"Ok Lily, what did you need to talk about?"
Parker flopped onto Lily's bed.
"Well I really need to talk to someone, and tell
someone what's been going on, and I think you're the only person
I can talk to about this."
"Lily, you're sort of scaring me, what's
wrong?""Ok, here goes." Lily could barely speak. "I slept
with Robbie." The words came out in a whisper, but Parker got the
gist of it.
"O...k. That's... interesting." Parker
didn't know what to say.
"But that's not all." Lily sat down beside
her.
"What. Randy come one tell me. What else could
there be?"
" Parker. I'm late."
"Late for what?" Parker didn't understand.
"No Parker, I'm "late"." Lily looked
away. She couldn't stare her friend in the eye.
"Ok. It's ok" Parker sat up. "We need to
go and get you a test, and I'm sure it will be fine." Parker sat
up and grabbed Lilys hand. "Come on. Let's go and get one right
now." They left.
"Oh my god."
"No Lily it's ok."
"No it's not."
"Yes it is. It's all ok."
"Parker! Look at it."
"Ok I know what it says, but it will be ok."
"Life will never be ok again."
" Maybe it's a false positive.""Maybe, but this is said to be the most
accurate."
"Ok, but you can make it work. It will all work
out in the end."
"Maybe..."
"You need to talk to Robbie."
"I know, but maybe I should go to the doctor
first."
"Yeah that's a good idea."
Lily was waiting in the doctors office. She was
freaking out. She didn't want to be pregnant. She couldn't be.
"Oh hello Dr. Wilson." Lily sat up when the
doctor entered the office.
"Lily. I have some good news and some bad news."
"Ok..."
"The good news is that you're not regnant."
Lily felt as if a weight had been lifted off her
shoulders. She was thrilled. Then she remembered what he had said
about bad news. "and the bad news?"
"I found what appears to be a
tumor."...
