Robbie couldn't speak. He hoped that this was just some sick joke. But it wasn't.
"Robbie, let me explain." Lily reached for his hand. He pulled it away.
"I think you've said enough."
"No Robbie I haven't finished yet."
"There's more? I think I've heard enough. My god Lily why do you think that you can just toy with peoples emotions this way. I mean first Ray. You strung him along for weeks. And now me. But I can't believe that you actually let us go that far when your heart wasn't actually in it. How could you do this?" Robbie couldn't even look at her.
"Robbie I'm sorry. My heart was in it. It just felt so right. But now it feels wrong. Something missing here and I can't seem to find it. I don't feel like myself anymore. And I wish that I could take the whole thing back. I wish that I could just go back, and fix everything that happened with Ray and Travis because then none of this would ever have happened. Ray and I would still be friends, and you and I would never have done this." Tears started rolling down her cheeks.
"Well you can't. You can never take this back." Robbie was starting to cry too. "So, so where does this leave us?"
"Nowhere for now. I think I just need some-"
"Time? That's great Lily. Make me fall in love with you, and have us make love, and then go ahead and want some time.
"I'm so-so-so sorry." Lily could barely get the words out.
"Lily it's fine. Take all of the time you need. All of the time in the world, but just remember this, when you decide your ready for this and me I might not still be here waiting." Robbie got up and walked away.
"Robbie! No wait! Please come back." Lily shouted down the hallway. Robbie turned the corner then was gone. Lily slumped down and cried. Ray noticed, but he actually didn't care. He felt no need to go over to her. It saddened him. He felt no connection to this girl. Everything they had been through as children had been swept away. There were no memories of fun times left; all he felt was pain, and betrayal.
Lily woke up three days later and felt sick to her stomach, literally. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. She concluded that she must have the flu that was going around. She had probably picked it up from Parker who had just gotten better the day before.. After a few hours Lily felt better, and she decided to invite Parker over. She needed to talk to someone. And she thought Parker would be the best.
"Ok Lily, what did you need to talk about?" Parker flopped onto Lily's bed.
"Well I really need to talk to someone, and tell someone what's been going on, and I think you're the only person I can talk to about this."
"Lily, you're sort of scaring me, what's wrong?""Ok, here goes." Lily could barely speak. "I slept with Robbie." The words came out in a whisper, but Parker got the gist of it.
"O...k. That's... interesting." Parker didn't know what to say.
"But that's not all." Lily sat down beside her.
"What. Randy come one tell me. What else could there be?"
" Parker. I'm late."
"Late for what?" Parker didn't understand.
"No Parker, I'm "late"." Lily looked away. She couldn't stare her friend in the eye.
"Ok. It's ok" Parker sat up. "We need to go and get you a test, and I'm sure it will be fine." Parker sat up and grabbed Lilys hand. "Come on. Let's go and get one right now." They left.
"Oh my god."
"No Lily it's ok."
"No it's not."
"Yes it is. It's all ok."
"Parker! Look at it."
"Ok I know what it says, but it will be ok."
"Life will never be ok again."
" Maybe it's a false positive.""Maybe, but this is said to be the most accurate."
"Ok, but you can make it work. It will all work out in the end."
"Maybe..."
"You need to talk to Robbie."
"I know, but maybe I should go to the doctor first."
"Yeah that's a good idea."
Lily was waiting in the doctors office. She was freaking out. She didn't want to be pregnant. She couldn't be.
"Oh hello Dr. Wilson." Lily sat up when the doctor entered the office.
"Lily. I have some good news and some bad news."
"Ok..."
"The good news is that you're not regnant."
Lily felt as if a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. She was thrilled. Then she remembered what he had said about bad news. "and the bad news?"
"I found what appears to be a tumor."...