"W-w-w-what?" Ray was completely taken by surprise.
"Ray, make love to me."
"You can't be serious."
"I've never been more serious in my life." Lily kissed him. He immediately pulled away and started walking towards the door
"Ray!"
"Look Lily, you're really distraught right now, you don't know what you're saying."
"Yes I do. Make love to me." Lily stood up and walked towards him.
"Lily, you're entirely to young to be saying things like this. We're only just sixteen."
"So? It's not like itwould be that big of a deal for you."
"What are you talking about?" Ray was confused.
"How would it be a big deal, if it's not your first time?"
"What?" Ray started feeling really nervous. His stomach was in knots.
"I know what you did with Grace."
"W-what are you... WHAT?"
"That's right. I heard all about it. Grace was telling her little circle of friends one day, and I over heard. That's part of the reason I was so hurt before."
"What exactly did you hear?" Ray was sweating.
"I heard the WHOLE story. About how you guys got drunk, and then you were dropping her off at her house, and her parents weren't home, and what you did when you guys got up to her room..." ( I know this wasn't really in RFR, but it's an important plot line so bear with me)
"Lily, I," Ray couldn't speak, he was so ashamed.
"See RAy, if it's not a big deal to do it with someone you don't love, why would it be a big deal with me? I mean don't you want to?"
"Well, I... I guess I sorta do kinda-ish, but we can't just do... it Lily."
"Why not?" Lily was getting annoyed.
"Ok, we can't do this because A) you're upset B) we're really young C) you don't love me so it wouldn't be fair, and it just wouldn't be right."
"But I'm giving you the green light Ray. Take this opportunity."
"Lily you're not sounding like yourself. You wouldn't be saying this if you were completely right in the head."
"Are you calling me insane?"
"No! I just think that you're upset about losing your dad, and everything that's happened lately."
"You're right I am upset. That's why I want someone to hold me, and make me feel protected and loved."
"I can do that! Ill stay with you, and talk to you, and keep you company."
"But Ray! Can't you just do this for me? One favor. Please Ray."
Ray couldn't believe what he was hearing. Lily really wasn'y sounding like herself. "Lily, you can't have seriously just said that. I can't just consider this a favor to you. No matter what you say this is a big deal. S...s... Se... It's always a big deal!" Ray reached for the doorknob.
"Ray, wait." Lily stood up and looked at him. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't be saying things like this. I'm not sounding by myself. You're completely right. It is a big deal... I guess." Lily started to cry.
"Lily it's ok. I... guess I understand. A lot has been happening lately. Your dad. Your cancer, and not to mention whatever happened with you and Robbie."
Lily sat back down. She clutched her stomache. All of this crying had made her feel sick. She started crying harder. "Thank you Ray. Thank you for bringing that up." Lily buried her face in her hands.
"What? What's wrong?" Ray sat beside her.
"Why, why did you have to bring Robbie into this?" Lily was crying really hard now.
"I thought it was a relevant point. Why? What really happened with you two."
"I broke up with him."
"I knew that already, but why?" Ray didn't understand.
"Because, because after it happened all I felt was sadness, and regret, and so much pain. All I could do was wish that it would all go away, and that it could be right again, but it wasn't. I couldn't take it back. I felt so awfull. I had betrayed you. And I had given my whole self to someone who I thought I loved, but... I don't know what happened. I mean I knew that it would be hard becuase of you, but I never expected that I would regret it that much. I regreted it so much that it hurt. And I just couldn't take any of it. I had to get away from him, so I ended it, before it even had a chance to begin." Lily rolled herself up in a ball and cried really hard. All of her emotions that she had been holding in came flooding out, and she couldn't control it.
"Lily, I," Ray didn't know what to say.
"Don't Ray. Anything you say at this point would just be awkward between us, so don't say anything." Lily was completely red in the face and she had a tear stained face. And she was still crying. All Ray could do was hug her, so he did. He held her, and she cied on his shoulder for what seemed like hours. After a while longer Lily looked up, she had stopped crying. She leaned in and kissed him. He kissed back. He knew that he should pull away, but he couldn't. He thought that she must like him somewhat if she wanted to kiss him. She pulled away after a minute, and looked deep into his eyes. He looked back. They shared a very romantic moment, then RAy got up and started to walk toward the door. He stopped before going through the door and turned to face Lily. He put his hand on the doorknob. As he started to walk back to Lily he pulled the door closed...
Robbie and Kim spent the next half-hour making out. She stopped.
"Robbie, I'm not exactly sure if this is the right thing to do."
"Why?"
"Well,
you dumped me because you "loved" someone else, and because you
were restless. A few minutes ago you basically told me that you
didn't really love her, and it was just a crush, so thus you just
got tired of me, and abandoned me for a crush, and now that we've
had a break you want me back. That's not exactly fair to
me."
"That's not it. I was just so confused then. I didn't
know what I wanted, but I miss you so much, I can barely explain it.
I was an ass, and I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so stupid, and
I shouldn't have taken you for granted. Please forgive me."
Robbie pleaded.
Kim wanted to yell and say no to him, but she loved him just too much. She leaned in and kissed him, and they made out some more.
