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CHAPTER SIX: IF I AM
BY: KLMITTON
Phil's POV…
I've been stalking Keely all day. She's looking really fragile, and if she faints I want to be there to help her.
So
your standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall.
So
far down,
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping.
I'm standing next to the water fountain across from her locker. She's taking out all of the books she needs for homework. She puts her history book on top of her binders and Math book. I guess it was too heavy to hold in her weak arm because she winced and dropped the whole pile. "Ugh!" she yelled. Everyone looked at her. "What?" she yelled again.
Now
you could have it all,
If you learned a little patience!
For
though I cannot fly,
I'm not content to crawl!...
She bends over to pick up her books. I can't stand it anymore. I hate not talking to Keel. I hate seeing her in pain. And I hate the fear of her getting hurt because I said she eats a lot. I walked up to her. "Keel, let me help you with that. I'll carry them home for you." I could read her thoughts. She wanted to say no, but she knew she couldn't carry them.
So
give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith!
She sighs. "I drove my car today. You can take them there. Look, Phil. I don't want to talk about 'it'." I knew exactly what 'it' is.
"Fine, we won't talk about 'it'."
"Like heck you won't," she mumbled under her breath. She doesn't trust me! I trust her with my secret about being from 2121 and she won't even trust me about talking about bulimia. Okay, I really did want to talk about it, but if she didn't want to, I wasn't going to.
"Don't you trust me, Keel?" I asked feeling hurt.
"Let's recap, shall we? You promised you wouldn't tell anyone, but then you go telling Owen, Via, and Tia. Why?" A tear fell down her cheek.
"I never told Owen. And I told Via and Tia because," I paused. Should I tell her? Yes, I should. I wiped a tear off her face. "Well, because I love you, Keels."
I
want to be with you forever,
If tomorrow's not too late!...
But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you
say!...
But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
Before
the sun rises today...
"And I can't stand to see you hurt."
IF
I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let
you down...
IF I AM!
Only here to watch as you suffer,
I
will let you down...
"I- I have to go," Keely stuttered. She turned and ran, leaving me with her books.
So
your walking on the edge,
And you wait your turn to fall.
But
you're so far gone,
That you don't see the hands upheld to catch
you.
And you could find the fault,
In the heart that you've
been handed!
For though you cannot fly,
You're not content to
crawl!...
I leaned against her locker and closed my eyes. I felt like someone ripped my chest, took out me heart and crushed it in a food processor.
"Phil?" said a familiar voice. I opened my eyes to see Tia. "What wrong?"
"Keely. I told her I love her, and she just ran off," I knew I was going to regret telling this to Tia. In less than five minutes the whole school would know.
"You finally told her! Wait, she just runs off? Weird. Well, I'm sorry Phil." Tia, feeling sorry for me? Now that's weird.
"Tia, don't tell anyone. Promise?"
"Well, I dunno, Phil…"
"Tia! Please! I'm begging you!" Geez, I'm pathetic.
"Wow, Phil begging me for something. All right, fine. But only because if anyone finds out that Keely just ran off after you told her you love her, they're going to think she's a coward. This is not a favor for you, got it?" she demanded.
"Sure, whatever. C'mon. I'm helping my dad at the hardware store today so I gotta hurry up and drive you to the Dragonfly."
Keely's POV…
I'm an idiot! Phil finally says he loves me. I've been waiting ever since 9th grade to hear him say that. And what do I do when he finally does? I run away like a baby! Why didn't I tell him that I love him, too? Now it's too late!
But
it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say!...
But
you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
Before the sun
rises today...
Phil probably thinks I hate him! Great. I get in my car with tears streaming down my face. "Scraps. I forgot my books." Now I can't do my homework. I'm going to be in so much trouble. I'm already failing history and now I can't study for the test tomorrow. Ugh! Nothing's going right at all! Instead of going home I decided to drive to blow off steam. I got off Elm Avenue and got on an empty road. I put the top down and let the crisp air blow on my hair. My tears dried as new ones fell. I can't help but think about Phil. How can he love me? I'm a waste of time.
IF
I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let
you down...
IF I AM!
Only here to watch as you suffer,
I
will let you down...
Think about it. I get dumped and he stops whatever he's doing just to comfort me. Why? He could be out there having fun, but he just explains to me stuff I'll never get until I finally do get it an hour later. Example algebra.
Whoa! Out of nowhere a drunk driver comes towards me. He must be going at least 100 mph. And he's heading straight for me! I try to move, but it's not fast enough. Everything goes black. Where am I? I feel as if I'm on the line between life and death.
So
you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall...
(No longer Keely's POV…)
And then, nothing.
HAHA! A cliffhanger! Is she dead or what? I guess you'll just have to wait until next chapter. Don't forget what I said about reviews. Flames welcome, as long as it's constructive.
And thank you to NINE DAYS for the song, If I Am.
