*~*~A/N: Srry for all the suffering of not updating this fic but rite now…I don't know what to really do with this fic cuz I seem to drift away from this…T.T It's sad but I know how I'm gonna end it and exactly what to put for the middle of it, but it's not coming together so far and I'm suffering for that. I think I'm entering a phase of critical writer's block when it comes to this fic. I rily need a muse. Can you be my muse? Do I even have one? Anyone? And yeah, Lemon overrules! 5-3 plus 2 from e-mail.
So be expecting one soon…I think…I think this fic is too innocent for one? Yeah, keep voting for those who didn't vote yet.
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^*^*^*^Wish Upon A Falling Star^*^*^*^
by: maixwolfblossom
Beta Reader: anjuliet
(^)*(^)Disclaimer(^)*(^): CCS (crazy corny sayings) belongs to me, not Card Captor Sakura! LOL CLAMP OWNS IT NOT MEEH!
-- Chappie Sixteen--
--Be My Lights--
~Recap:
"Syaoran? What are you still doing here?"
He looked up and stood up to hug Sakura.
"Sakura, we've got to tell Rioka."
Sakura just stood shocked at his sudden command.
Syaoran, on the other hand, was feeling the most unpopular thing in the world…guilt.
~End~
Could she do it?
Could Sakura break her friend's heart and trust, so she can be with her love?
Seven days…four days past…Syaoran gave her seven days to break the news to Rioka. He wouldn't touch her until she confessed, he wouldn't talk to her for another four days, he wouldn't even glance at her…not until he was a free man out of his engagement.
Great, she thought. She should rampage into Rioka's room and cruelly tell her friend that she was in love with the same guy.
Then why was she not doing exactly that?
Damn my kind heart it holds me back too much.
Sakura stared out of her window not really paying attention to the glistening sun, the heat that warmly caressed her skin. She couldn't believe the intensity of Syaoran's words that echoed painfully in her ears.
The wedding was in less than 8 months and Syaoran wanted to get out of it so badly, but the only thing holding him back were the elders. Though it was unclear why they wouldn't let Syaoran break the engagement, they weren't so keen to explain their actions. If only the rule of letting Syaoran choose anyone for his bride was still an option then he wouldn't have to go through this masquerade of 'love' with Rioka.
~*~Sakura's PoV~*~
A thought crossed my mind…Rioka…
I closed my eyes as her sweet voice filled my head.
Such pain had been inflicted on her for a very long time. How can Ling just use her like a piece of meat and leave her to fend for herself?
Why do some men have to be such cowards…why must bad things happen to good people?
Though I'm still thinking this out…Rioka deserves to be happy and Syaoran's right…
A loveless marriage is more dreadful than being single. Maybe I'll be saving Rioka from more heartbreak and one day she'll thank me…hopefully.
I haven't really decided what I wanted to do. How can I break a sweet person's heart without using brutal words?
But whatever happens, happens and I'll be ready to face her…
Rioka…I'm sorry…I didn't mean to hurt you…I love you, my friend…Hopefully you love me enough to let Syaoran go…He's my friend, my stars, my shining nights that fill up the heights…the person I want to see from morning til night…I want his love…His sweet gentle hugs…I want you to be there for me even if things start to get rough…Rioka please…please understand…I'm saving you from a far worse fate…Someday, Somehow I hope you'll forgive me…Cuz I still want to be your friend…Will you let me?
A tear slid down my cheek. Rioka deserves to be happy, nothing like this, which were built on lies.
Someday somehow…I hope and wonder
Pray and plead until I go under…
Cry a tear it's just for you
Hope I keep you, a friend that's true…
True? Am I a true friend?
A knock on my bedroom door disturbed my thoughts. For now…I wanted to be alone. I stayed quiet hoping the sound would stop and when it did…I found peace once again on my abyss world.
~*~Syaoran's PoV~*~
Sakura's awfully quiet this week…
I want to be with her, comfort her…have her in my arms, but that's impossible, not when I feel guilt in breaking Rioka's spirit
Even though Rioka was my first love, I know from the depths of my soul I can't find the magic of love between us. I feel no spark, not like the one I feel with Sakura.
Sakura…my Sakura
I love her sooo much…
Man, I need to stop talking poetically about love. I'm starting to sound like a lovesick fool.
Four days…I'll have to do it if Sakura say anything about us. I'll have to bring this whole cliché down so I can be happy and Rioka can meet her soul mate.
Gah! Feelings! I need to stop! How can a woman go through these emotional states?
~*~Normal PoV~*~
Rioka smiled as she got up that morning, after her little speech to Syaoran. He'd been staying quiet she hadn't heard anything from him for three days.
Strangely, Sakura has been the same. Every time they're at the dinner hall, Sakura would look pitifully with a glow of guilt at Rioka and critically look at Syaoran, while he doesn't bother to look at Sakura.
A seeping suspicion started to ascend inside Rioka's mind…
Could Sakura be in love with Syaoran?
Fat chance…he's mine, Rioka's mind greedily thought, I know she's my friend but how can I be sure she's being true when she acts like a person who looks guilty.
Sighing, Rioka brushed her doubts aside. She'd been like this since Ling. She became a person who couldn't trust anyone.
That one night had awoken her senses. Trust was one word off her vocabulary. She couldn't build her faith in people anymore especially men.
Every say was a step in building that trust for mankind again. She felt dirty sometimes just to be touched on the arm by a man, even if it was a mistake.
But with Syaoran…he's so kind. He even spent time with Rei Lang. How her baby loved him, like as if Syaoran was his father.
She loved the way he caressed her child's face. It was the first time she saw the real Syaoran in months. He was finally coming to his senses.
A smile graced her lips as she reminisced the scene where Syaoran whispered softly to her baby.
Syaoran, you'll fall in love Rei Lang the same way you're going to fall in love me again. And you'll forget that 'Ying Fa', I promise you.
Rioka hugged Rei Lang to her in comfort.
My jewel of hope…my baby…
~*~Tomoyo's PoV~*~
What's wrong with the people here these days?
I thought this was the home of fun fun fun!!!!
Sakura hasn't really spoken to Syaoran. What's going on?
Geez, when I saw that display on television about those rampaging girls going around the world with Li Syaoran t-shirts I would've thought Syaoran would at least give a smile or two out!
The last time I heard about those girls, they were heading north to Africa.
(A/N: The girls last chappie made it to Africa! LOL!)
But, why is that not so amusing to those two lovebirds?
I mean I haven't been up on cloud nine to notice anything have I?
Eriol and I go out to town but most of the time when we're home for dinner it's only Eriol and I who actually talk during those times.
He and I are becoming the best of friends… sometimes I wish he was more…
I'm not afraid to admit it.
I like him very very much.
Maybe I've been focusing too much on school and Eriol to be focusing on my first priority…Sakura.
*knock*
Why won't she answer the door? She can't go back to her depressed condition she first was in before coming here!
I mean she can't when Touya is still in a coma and unwavering from his health. Touya's very healthy even with he is unconscious, as far as my mother told me.
I spoke softly through the door, hoping she could hear me.
~*~Normal PoV~*~
"Sakura, please answer the door. It's me, Tomoyo, your best friend."
Sakura didn't bother to open the door. She wanted to save her strength for her confession to Rioka.
Again, Tomoyo's voice trailed into her room.
"Sakura, I know something's up. Tell me, I'm your best friend…Let me be there."
Sakura bit her lip…she needed someone to lean on, but she didn't want to be gazed upon as weak.
"Open the door, Saku. Remember our little poem when we were little. It was a promise. You don't want to break it now, do you?"
A vague memory brought a smile to Sakura's lips.
*~*Flashback*~*
Tomoyo patted Sakura comfortingly on the arm as they hugged themselves closely together.
Fujitaka's death hit Sakura pretty hard. It was a time where she found no love in the world…Sakura was an orphan…a girl with no parents to help her get through life.
Another set of tears made their way to the already soaked ground. It mixed with Sakura's, as the clouds grew gray telling that there was going to be a storm.
But, Sakura did not care. Nothing can compare with rage in her heart, the anger of being left alone. Her father's suicidal attempt to end his life just made things heavier and it was taking a toll on eleven year old Sakura.
Sakura looked around, her sobbing had stopped and she saw that rain had made its way to Earth, but she realized it wasn't the clouds that shared her pain, it was her one and only best friend…Tomoyo.
"W-why a-are y-y-you c-c-c-crying, Tomoyo?"
Tomoyo kissed Sakura's forehead softly, "Because if you weep, I'll weep with you. If you're happy I'll also be happy. That's what friends are for, someone who'll be there 'til the end of time. Friends are people who will feel the same feelings their friends will feel."
Sakura slowly smiled at Tomoyo, " Tomo, We'll be there for each other, forever, right?"
Tomoyo nodded her eyes still shining with unshed tears, "Of course."
*~*End*~*
Yes…Tomoyo I remember…Sakura smiled faintly.
Tomoyo's voice filled with compassion, spoke the lines of the poem they made so long ago.
~Let me be the one to talk to
~When you don't know what to do
~If you need a little comfort
~Need a shoulder?
~Lean on me
Sakura got off her bed and slowly made her way to her bedroom door, her sobbing had stopped, but tears still spilled profusely on the carpet as she mouthed some of the lines.
~A little laugh, a simple smile
~Gives you strength from what is vile
~I'll be there
~Through thick and thin
~Hopefully it will never end
She opened the door to see a tearing Tomoyo as they said the last four lines together.
~Cry a few
~You'll make it through
~If you're down, and no one cares
~Don't worry, just let me be there
Sakura hugged Tomoyo snuggly.
"Arigatou gozaimazu (Thank you very much), Tomoyo-chan."
Tomoyo held Sakura against her, letting Sakura let out her feelings but murmured softly, "No. Thank you for letting me be here for you."
They stood there crying on each other's shoulder for a while not knowing that two pairs of watery orbs were watching them from behind the door, creeping quietly as if they didn't want to be heard.
A soft sob escaped the person's lips and immediately Tomoyo and Sakura were both engulfed in a great big hug.
"Oh! Tomoyo! Sakura! I'm sooo sorry for not being there for you guys…I've b-been sooo busy with wedding arrangements and school. I should've w-w-watched over you t-two. My be-s-st fri-e-e-ends!" Meiling stamped her foot, sobbing out of control.
"Meiling!" Tomoyo and Sakura let go of each other and made room for Meiling. All girls were sniffling in the middle of Sakura's room, holding to the only comfort they had left…each other.
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"Syaoran you are 19 going on 20 in 2 months. What did Li Hynh say? You have until you are 20 and six months? Great another 8 months!" Yelan clapped her hands together, rather snappish.
Syaoran sat in the solarium listening to his mother babble about the marriage being held in less than eight months. He spotted a little disappointment flicker in his mother's eyes but dismissed it as soon as he blinked.
Yelan sat down immediately and put her hands together and smiled rather warmly, "So…how's Sakura?"
He blinked once again and smiled slightly confused, "Um, I don't know?"
Yelan raised a brow, "I thought you two were in a relationship?"
Syaoran opened his mouth and closed it. How did she know?
"I mean as friends."
His face didn't contort to any reaction of relief as she searched his face.
"Oh, Xiao Lang, I'm not that dumb. So stop playing it. Tell me and admit it. Are you having an affair behind a woman you don't seem to love?"
Syaoran got off his chair and started pacing, not really in the mood to talk about his 'affair' with Sakura. SO he did the best thing he could think of…the power of the three D's (deny deny deny!)
"I don't know what you're talking about."
So now, Syaoran wanted to play some games now, did he?
"Oh really…Little Wolf."
Syaoran looked straight into his mother's eyes and said softly, but fiercely, "Really."
Yelan got up and walked to the door, "Okay. See you at dinner, Syaoran."
He looked at his mother's retreating back in deep thought. His mother never called him by his Japanese name or even the meaning of it.
Something was going to happen and Syaoran didn't know if it was for the good or for the bad.
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Meiling took one strand of Sakura's silky auburn hair and twirled it around her finger as they all were lying down on her bed.
"So, Sakura, why are you not happy? I've never seen you in this emotional stage since in forever."
Sakura sighed and leaned against Tomoyo, snuggling closer to them.
"It's really nothing. I just have to do something that I don't really want to do to get what I want."
Sakura stared up into the high ceiling, "It's not like I don't want to tell you what my problem is…it's just that I have to figure some things out on my own. I know you'll always be there for me, but what if rely on you forever then how I'm I supposed to live?"
Tomoyo smiled and whispered reassuringly, "Don't worry, whatever decision you make, we'll always be here for you."
A moment of silence passed between the three, but the silence was all they needed to be in each other's comfort.
Meiling gently squealed and shifted her weight to her side, "You know what? I've been thinking and decided to make you guys my maids of honor since I can't decide between you two."
Sakura and Tomoyo beamed at Meiling and once again they hugged.
As a few minutes passed, Sakura took hold of her two friends and spoke calmly, "Thank you Meiling, Tomoyo. You guys are my light, the ones who always lead me to the right direction."
Sakura's skies seemed brighter that moment. She knew that she'll always have someone to turn to and here they were…her best friends and her lights.
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*~*~A/N: Srry peepz, it a shortie chappie! Aw well, I hope I get more inspiration on this fic soon cuz I'm leading nowhere as of now. But WAIT!!! I know what going to happen but do your really want this fic to go on longer? Give me an idea on how it should go longer cuz I'm stuck on that. AND YEAH…KEEP VOTING!!!!
Ja,
maixwolblossom =^.^=
