"An Auror in Love: The Diary of Nymphadora Tonks"

Disclaimer: do not own Tonks or the person she's in love with or Sirius or any of the Order. And I must give credit to the authors of Stuck (PhoebeDreams) and Gash or Gold (mercutio-rane) as well as It All Comes From Being a Chronic Chocoholic (mrscribble) because that's basically where I got the idea for this story, from reading those stories all in one week. And you really should go read those too, they're fabulous! Oh yeah, this takes place in the summer before fifth year. And the song Remus is playing? More credits to Billy Joel!

Chapter one: birthdays and realizations

June 22

Grimmauld Place

11:30 PM

Happy Birthday to me! I am now 24 years old. Twenty-three was quite a good age and I hate to see it go but there you have it. I think the best way to celebrate a birthday is the way I just have, around the people you love. Oh, it was great! And I got lots of presents! Heeheehee. From Molly I got a Weasley sweater, from Emmeline I got this diary, from Kingsley a statue of Fudge himself that Sirius said to, "Drop it out a window, cousin!" Speaking of Sirius, he gave me an Auror training book. Hestia gave me a Weird Sisters T-shirt and Remus gave me a block of Honeyduke's best chocolate.

Today has been a great birthday but now I really must go to sleep, I have work tomorrow.

June 23

Auror cubicle

12:00 PM

Lunch break. Fudge has been awful today. All he's done is walk around the office, warning people about Dumbledore with Percy at his heels. I can't believe what Percy's become, really. It's strange. Oh well, people change. Ha, speaking of strange people, Sirius fed me a little alcohol last night before I went to bed and he caught my drunken self staring at Remus! So this morning he looks at me with that marauder grin and goes, "Do you fancy Remus?"

Well, I was taken aback and said, "No! Of course not!" he stared at me and then just sidled out of the room singing "I'm in the Mood for Love". Oh brother.

But now that I think about it, with my peanut butter and jelly sandwich in one hand and my pen in the other, maybe I do. Maybe I do…………….here comes Kingsley.

Grimmauld Place

4:00 PM

I'm in love with Remus Lupin. Don't look at me like that, I am! That's ok; I don't think he likes me very much. Look, at about 2:00, when I walked in the door of Grimmauld, I was so tired I could have dropped down in the foyer and slept my life away. But instead I trudged toward the library; I don't know why I went in there. No, I do know. It was my Lupin instincts telling me he was in there. So I walked in there and there he is, sitting at the piano! I didn't know he could play. But there he is playing that wonderful song by that Muggle American, um…Billy Joel? I think. Oh well, he's playing it and I walked in and he didn't even notice me, he was so into his playing. And then he started singing too! I almost fell over in delight.

"A bottle of red

a bottle of white

whatever kind of mood you're in tonight"

I walked up behind him as he sang the last part.

"I'll meet you anytime you want

in our Italian Restaurant."

I touched his shoulders lightly and he jumped, looking around at me.

"I didn't see you come in, Tonks."

"Yeah, I'm not always clumsy." I think I was flirting with him, I'm not sure but I did bat my eyelashes a little.

"I didn't think so. A woman like you has to have some grace in her."

"Well, thank you."

"How long were you there?"

"Long enough to know that you're a wonderful piano player! Remus, why didn't you ever tell me? Or play for us?"

"Well, I don't like to show off."

"Oh, don't be so bashful all the time!"

He sighed and ran a hand through his brownish-gray hair. It was at that time that I knew my answer to Sirius question should have been yes. His hands are soooooooo beautiful! I don't know why I never noticed them before.

"Tonks, you should have told me you had come in."

"Why? You would have stopped playing!"

"Exactly."

"What's wrong with you? Shouldn't you be proud of your talent?"

"I'm just a little…embarrassed about this sort of thing. Ok?" and he walked out.

I wonder what's up with that?

June 24

Grimmauld Place

8:00 AM

It's the weekend! Woohoo! But of course that's the bad thing about being on both sides, I have Ministry work during the week and then Order work on the weekend so I have virtually no free time. Except for now. Heehee. I was just talking to Sirius, that nosey little cousin of mine. He said that he was standing right there when Remus came out of the library and he made him tell everything. Well, he did because of course, Remus tells Sirius everything and everyone else nothing. Urgh. So I asked Sirius what was with Remus, being all mad like that because I had heard him. And Sirius told me that in their days at Hogwarts, one year, this bully Slytherin found out that Remus could play and spread the rumor that just because he was musically inclined, he was also…gay! How mean is that? Slytherin jerks. So now he says Remus had always been afraid to let people know his talents and even afraid to open up about things because they'll judge him. Poor thing! Oh, Order meeting starting now. Will write more later!

A/N: how am I doing so far? I don't know, what do you think? Keep in mind that I have never written Tonks before. Please review!