Author's Note: Really unsure about the song, so let me know whatcha think. Also this is the un-edited chapter so all mistakes are mine, and mine alone.


Chapter Four: Journey to the Past

When Jason awoke, he noticedthree things first, the crick in his neck, the feeling of something sticky on his forehead, and lastly, he noticed a plush and warm body that was not unfamiliar in his arms. Looking down, he saw the red swollen eyes of his wife….ex-wife, he head was buried in his chest and she looked so peaceful. Trying to limit his movements the best he could so he wouldn't wake her up, he rotated his neck to try and get the crick at it and than removing the yellow sticky that had been stuck to his head.

He noticed Carly's handwriting and let a slight grin spread on his lips as he read it. 'Kept Sam away, took me a while, but finally did it….came close to knocking her out but Sonny stopped me. Lucky her, you and Courtney are so cute! Sleep and keep he okay….she's hurting,' was what the yellow sticky said. Yeah, Sam was lucky Sonny did stop Carly, or should have done it.

Looking back down at Courtney, he couldn't help but let a full fledge smile break out on his face. Letting his hand stroke down the long blonde hair that felt like corn silk, he remembered all the times it had brushed his chest as she straddled his waist and took him deep into her core and back out again. Over and over again until the both reached the peak and came with deafening screams.

Sighing, he removed his hand from the tresses and patted her shoulder gently. "Courtney," he whispered.

Heart, don't fail me now!
Courage, don't desert me!
Don't turn back
Now that we're here
People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear!
Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past

Michael and Morgan were waiting to him to save them. He needed to get going, needed to think of someway to save them. Courtney would help him…they would do this together. One last time they would work together and than they would par ways again. He needed to be with her one more time.

"Courtney, wake up," he shook her again and watched her slowly come awake. Opening her sea blue eyes that were so deep, turning then to his and he felt the spark. The spark wasn't dead. Probably would never be.

"Jason…where…what is going on?" she asked, confused and dazed. Looking at their tangled bodies. Then he watches her eyes fill with tears and he knew she was remembering the night's events.

"Shhh, we're going to find them. Me and you okay?" he told her and helped up. Letting her smooth out he wrinkled clothes.

"What do you mean me and you?" she asked, brushing the hair from her face and brushed it back with her palm. Tying it back into a messy bun. Little tendrial caressing down her face. So much like the time he had married her. Her hair like this. Her body covered in a vanilla colored silk dress. Her smile radiant as they said the "I do's".

Somewhere down this road
I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams
Just can't be wrong
Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Finally home where I belong

But he shook himself from those thoughts. We're going to go now……we are going to find the boys ourselves. No Sonny, no Carly, no Sam, us okay. We can do this. Please say yes Courtney," he told her, pleading with her. He needed this, the boys needed this, and somewhere deep down inside of him, and he knew she needed it too.

"I…Jax…my clothes," she said in a rush, moving her hand to massage her shoulder, an unconscious movement that was so Courtney.

"don't worry about him and we'll get what we need while we're there. You're the only one I trust enough for this Courtney, say yes!" He told her, his frustration rising. They needed to leave now. They had to do this before anyone woke up.

Well, starting here, my life begins
starting now, I'm learning fast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past

"O…okay, let me say goodbye to Carly," she said, moving to go into the room but his hand stopped her.

"No…we can't let them know. We have to go now," and he watched her nod, understanding his point.

If they let the other's know, then they would follow and get in the way, grabbing her hand, the moved to outside and got into the SUV, Jason had arrived in. Watching her move to the passenger side and climb in.

"Do..do you know where the might be," she asked. Her confidence growing, knowing she was doing the right thing,

"No, but we're going to find out and we're going to bring our nephews home," he told he and put the car into to motion. Driving.


Heart don't fail me now!
Courage don't desert me!

Home, Love, Family
There was once a time
I must have had them too
Home, Love, Family
I will never be complete
Until I find you...

The have been driving all day, finally ending up in North Carolina before knowing it was time to stop for sleep. Not much had been said. A few pleasantries and a couple of watch want as they went through drive through. The air was a buzz with electricity, the tension thick.

As Jason turned into a motel, a run down trashy looking one, she grimaced but she knew it would be worth it if this led them anywhere near the boys. Jason parked in the parking lot and got out. Motioning for her to follow him. She crawled out of the seat and did so. Making their way for the entrance and than the front desk. The grubby looking old man looked over Courtney with interested eyes.

Feeling something prickle over her, something that wasn't at all unlike disgust, she moved closer to Jason. Feeling safe when he softly moved his arm around he waist.
"Can we have a double," he asked quietly. Looking at the old man with cold eyes that held no fear.

"Sorry, all we got in an single….there's a chili cook off in town so every where is booked up. Take it or leave it," the man said in a deadpan tone and Jason tore his eyes away and moved them to Courtney's.

Feeling the electricity passed through them, he was tempted to say leave it, he knew he could never keep his hands off of her. He wasn't strong enough to do that but she nodded her head. God….didn't she know what could happen but when he looked deep into her eyes one more time he knew she knew and he looked back at the aging man.

"We'll take it."

One step at a time
One hope, then another
Who knows where
This road may go-
Back to who i was
On to find my future
Things my heart still
Needs to know
Yes, let this be a sign!
Let, this road be mine!
Let it lead me to my past
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
To bring me home...
At last!
At Last!


Author's Note Two: The song, Journey to the Past is owned by Aaliyah. Just love her!