A/n: Okay, I said I wouldn't come back...but...I um...lied? Anyhoo. Thank you all for reviewing! You guys really make my day. Uh, school is up and running, but don't fear, I know I have atleast 12 more chapters for you all. Look for updates every monday and friday. Yes, Kagome did die last chapter...but seeing as none of these are related...HEY SHE'S ALIVE AGAIN! Don't worry about Kagome, she's not gone for good, and hopefully I won't kill her off again. And for those who are missing InuYasha and fluff, look forward to thatthis monday.
Disclaimer: If I owned InuYasha, he would be in my closet. But seeing as I don't own him...
There comes a point in every girl's life when they are completely enthralled by princesses. This, of course means owning all of the Disney movies that has a princess in it, and throwing princess birthday parties. Though even if you live in Tokyo, I don't think it grasps many girls that they will not grow up and meet aPrince Charming who would sweep them off their feet and take them to a palace. Its simply not that simple, not to mention that many Disney movies are based off of Europe stories, very rarely from Asia, and never ever from Japan. The closet thing we ever got to it was Mulan, and she was Chinese.
At the age of fifteen, it was safe to say I had grown out of this phase. My Grandpa's tales of times past where simply an intrusion on my normal teenaged life. But at the tender age of five his stories captivated me. Stories of mikos, who in my opinion at the time might as well have been princesses, and youkai, who where the bad guys, and other such things entertained me as a child. Upon finding out that I might hold the power of a miko excited me. Me, a princess? I knew I deserved it, as did every five-year-old, but it actually being in reach and not just in dreams was amazing.
I remember going to school the next day and telling all my friends, who seemed to just blow it off. How could I be a princess if they where not? Some of them even called me a liar, and that's when I became best friends with Eri, Yuka, and Ayumi. They believed me, and I had told them that they could help me be a princess, and that they could have a crown too.
But, time passed and I slowly forgot about me being a princess. Becoming fifteen was a big deal in our household. I could now learn how to drive, I could go ondates without it seeming that I was to young. I would be entering high school soon. I wasn't a little girl anymore, but a young woman. I remember having this conversation before I fell down that well.
Falling down the well was like waking up my inner child. Here I was in a world of princesses and such, and there I was being called a miko, as good as being called a princess. I had met a devilishly handsome boy who had saved my life. But it all went down hill from there. My prince tired to kill me, I broke a mythical jewel and suddenly I couldn't go home as often as I needed to. My test scores and mental state where dropping all the time as my responsibilities grew.
Naraku, Kikyou and other youkai plagued my path. And then I realized that being a miko wasn't like being a princess. A miko had to work, she needed to, if not just save a village, but save the world. Princesses barely ever lifted a finger. It was hard, and even harder to see my childhood dream crash and burn.
InuYasha continued to save me, to help me, to possibly even love me, but then he broke me into so many pieces that it became hard to pick them up again. But I couldn't leave him, he needed me just as much as I needed him. And if that meant I had to bare him breaking me over and over again, then I would do so.
When Sango joined our group I was more then a little ecstatic about the thought of having a female companion. She was like the big sister I never had, she stood up for me, and I knew, if needed, she would break InuYasha just as many times as he broke me.
Then we met him a Lord, a prince, who was head over heals in love with Sango. And I felt something inside of me snap out of place. How did Sango get a prince? How did she get a prince, something I had always wanted, but not love him? I was only shocked for a few moments before I realized that she didn't love him, couldn't love him because she already had feelings for somebody else. I had known of course, but my brief moment of shock had made me forget that she loved Miroku.
After that experience I think I finally realized that though there where talking animals, and even if there where princesses who where beautiful and who had Prince Charmings, that life wasn't a fairy tale.
I accepted it, and moved on. I don't know yet if this story will have a "Happily Ever After", and I'm not sure if we'll get the bad guy in the end. But I do know that I won't stop trying. And I'll even try harder now. I will get the boy, I will kill Naraku, and I will restore the Shikon no Tama. Because hell will be paid if I don't.
