Chapter three
When I woke up I was still in the woods, and it was dark. "Killer?" I called worried. I got up, and looked around for him. "Killer! Where are you!" I called out. I walked back wards and stumbled over something landing on the ground. I looked at what it was, and screamed out by what it was! Hiei appeared be side me as I pulled Killer to my lap. "Killer...please don't be...Killer talk to me!" I said as tears ran down my face, and landed on him. "What happened here?" Hiei asked me coldly. "Go fuck off Hunter! I didn't do this; I was out cold!" I screamed hissing at him. I turned back down to Killer, "Please don't be." I whispered hugging him to me. He made a coughing noise. "Dawn, good they didn't get you." I looked down at him, happy he was a live. "What happened Lupercus?" I asked him. "The vamps came after you...I tried to fight them off. Pretty much killin' most of them, but a couple got me from behind." I hugged him to me. "You're goin' to be okay right?" He didn't answer. "Killer?" I was scared now. I looked back down at him to find him dead. I could feel things inside me screaming out to kill all of them, but then again my insides were screaming to kill the hunters! "If you wouldn't have come after me this wouldn't have happened!" I said picking up my mate's body, and carrying it back to the palace with Hiei close behind me.
I opened the door, and walked in not paying any one any attention. I took Killer to the hospital wing, and laid him on a bed. "It's goin' to be okay, Killer." A nurse came in, "Stitch him up now!" I screamed at her. She did as she was told, and I ran to Koenma's office. I flung the doors open, and walked over to him. "What's goin' on?" He asked me scared. "I want my mate back!" I screamed at him. "I can't just put him back in his body." Koenma said as I glared at him. "And I can't just be nice for no reason! He's the reason I came here, and now his gone!" I screamed at him. I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. I turned around to see Killer. "It's okay; you know you'll see me one day." Tears flowed from my eyes. "But Killer..." He put a finger to my lip. "It's okay, I love you." He gave me a kiss, and looked at Koenma. Koenma nodded, and let Killer leave. "Fine...If he can't be with me here...I'll be with him there!" I said running out of the room as tears flowed from my eyes. I ran to my room, and grabbed a blade.
I was about to cut my wrist when Hiei appeared in front of me, and took it. "Do you really think Killer would want you to do this?" I hissed at him. "I don't know; tell me do you think Koenma would let me drain you first?" I asked lounging at him. I had him on the ground, and grabbed my blade from him. "Don't fuck around with me!" I screamed getting off him, and goin into a dark corner of my room. I cut both my wrist before Hiei could do any thing. "You stupid onna; no man is worth killing yourself for!" I glared at him, "One is when he's the first to love you or treat you right! One that doesn't hurt you, or doesn't make you run from him!" I said as blood flowed from my wounds. "He protected me, and loved me. And now he's gone!" I said as tears fell from my eyes.
(Hiei's pov)
The stupid onna in front of me had gone mad. So I ran to Kurama and told him what had just happened. He ran off to help her as I sat down on the window sill.
(Kurama's pov)
Hiei had just told me what was goin on, and when he said she was trying to kill her self I ran to her room. I may not have liked the girl, but I wouldn't let her kill herself. "Dawn, its okay." I saw her glowing eyes shift from her wounds to me. "No it's not, and if you don't mind disliking boy I would like to die in peace." She said calmly. "No, come on let's get that stitched up, and well find away to get you feeling better." She shook her head, "It will never be okay, and I don't want my wounds stitched up! I'm goin' to give those bastrads and you want...My life." She said grinning. "Dawn Josephine Bloodworth! I will kick your ass if you do this!" Her eyes went wide. I turned to see a woman standing behind me. She was in a ghost form. "Who are you?" Dawn asked confused.
"I'm your Mother! Why don't you remember? Never mind! Killer is pissed, as well as me and your Father!" Dawn looked down, "I don't want to be left alone, not again!" Dawn said as she began to cry. The woman went over to her, and held her. "It's okay. We all don't want you to be, but you really aren't. Anyway it breaks our hearts to see you like this surrounded by enemies, but sometimes even though out numbered 10-1 you have to fight." Dawn seemed to calm down a little bit. "So stay in that fight; don't give up ever!" Dawn nodded wiping away tears. "Use this feeling against something you have to fight, and never back down."
"Okay...would you tell Killer I said I love him?" Dawn asked the woman. "Yeah, oh he also said to move on, don't forget him, but move on in your life." Dawn started to nod, but then stopped, "Meaning what?" She asked giving a nervous giggle. "TO find another." She nodded then but seemed a little up set. The woman got up, and then left. "The wounds were healing anyway." Dawn stated looking down at her arms. Dawn stood up, and had the blade she used in her hand. "Life sucks! But hey who said it would be easy." She said looking at the floor. "Yo, Kurama you just goin' to stare at me, or are you goin' to pass me a bag." I shook my head, and walked over to the fridge of blood bags. I grabbed one, and passed it to her. "You okay now?" She bit into the bag, and looked at me. Her eyes glowed a deep red, and then went to there normal color as she finished drinking. "You lose a lover, a mate, after being together a hundred years, and then tell me." She said coldly as she walked past me.
(My pov)
"So you've were together that long?" I was ready to rip his head off, "Look you ask me another question, and Koenma will have my head...I'm not in the mood!" He shut-up and left me alone as we walked into the living room. My wounds had fully healed by now, and my hunger was sated. I sat down at a window sill, and looked out. The woman wasn't kiddin' when she said I was surrounded by enemies. I felt eyes on me so I looked the way they were coming from. I found a woman with blue hair pink eyes, who was wearing a yellow shirt, and blue jean. I then looked over, and found two other girls. One with brown hair, and brown eyes; the other with baby blue hair, and crimson eyes. "I'm guessing you are Botan." I said pointing to the one with pink eyes. She nodded. "And you two are the human's girlfriends." They shrugged. "Names please." I said coldly. Yusuke stood up from where he had been sitting on the floor, "Watch it!" I looked at him confused. "What you think I want to feed off them?" He's face went white as if I had read his mind.
"I wouldn't even if you paid me. Please, I try not to look weird." I said turning back to the window. "Never mind the names...it doesn't matter to..." "My names Yukina." I looked over to the girls. The girl with crimson eyes looked at me like I was her best friend. "You...did you say that?" She nodded smiling. "Brave, I'll say that." I said smirking. She got a look at my fangs a turned pale. "God what is up with this crowd! Can you not sustain color in you're faces? I'm not goin' to drain you, or even try to!" I said getting up, and walking over to a wall. "It's just I've heard stories..." I cut her off by walking up the wall. "Yeah, everyone has...any way I'm not like them! I don't feed off human's everyday. And now I don't have to thanks to Koenma." I said reaching my place on the roof.
"I'm not human either." I shrugged, "So, I fed off demons in Makia too. Some of them nastier then others, but some tasted just like wine. Would you believe that?" She shrugged regaining color in her face. "Let me guess ice maiden?" She nodded. "I heard my Mother was half that and half vampire. But then again the only thing I remember about my parents is the day they were killed." I crossed my arms and sat down.
"Are you hungry?" Kurama asked me. "A little, but I'm not coming down." I said looking at the ones who were afraid of me, but Hiei and Yukina weren't. "Why is it you two are not afraid of me?" I asked them. "You said you wouldn't drain us, and besides you are nice as far as I can see." Hiei grunted, "As nice as a werewolf on the full moon." I growled at him. "Shut up about werewolves! Try not to provoke my anger!" I screamed standing up. "What's the matter?" Yukina asked starting to show a little fear. "My dead lover was one...and he knows it." I said jumping down to the ground. "Hard to believe someone like me could be loved I know, but if you don't mind I think this half breed abomination will go to her room and stay there for the rest of the night, and all of tomorrow morning." I said walking back towards the rooms when I heard something. "Did you hear that?" I asked Kurama. There was a crashing sound of windows shattering towards the rooms. "I'm glad you guys are in here...I think Martha and her mate just found you." I said looking at them, and then running towards the rooms.
I was right. "What are you doin' here Forbidden one?" I looked at Martha weird as I pulled out one of my blades. "Is that what you guys are calling me?" I asked her. "You don't remember; oh well! It's time to die!" I smirked at that. "Just try to kill me." She lounged at me and I knocked her on her ass. Her mate came at me and I swung my blade, and cut him through the middle. He turned to ash. "You bitch!" I shrugged as I stepped over her, and plunged my sword into her heart. "I might be one, but you are ash." I said smirking. Kurama and the others came a little late for the death show, but they didn't like the smell they left behind. "Your friends?" I nodded. "No, really they were a couple of assholes tryin' to kill me, who would've guessed." I said walking to my room, and putting my blade away. They all came towards my door and looked around. "So many blades, but what for?" Botan asked. "For saving my ass from you people, and the vampires that want me dead because they didn't want a day walker to take their cattle." I said putting my blade on the wall. "Cattle?" I nodded, "It's what they consider their preys to be." I said taking the chains off the wall. "Tell me were there others here?" I looked at Kurama. "Now you're acting the idiots; if there were there would be more ash on the floor." I stated.
I finished taking the chains down, and handed them to Kurama, "Dispose of these." I then shut my door in all their faces, and went to the bed. I laid down on it, and didn't like it because of how I had wanted things. I jumped to the ceiling and slept in the air.
The next morning I woke up, and stayed in the room on the ceiling to meditate. I had to forget what happened so to speak. There was a knock on the door, "Dawn if you're hungry breakfast is ready." I didn't answer. "Dawn you up?" Still I didn't answer. The door then opened to reveal it had been Kurama. I opened my eyes and shocked him. "What are you doin'?" I asked him rudely. "Telling you breakfast is done...what are you doin'" I glared at him. "I was meditating! But if breakfast is more important to you, then get out!" I screamed causing him to stumble back in confusion and fear. "No! You heard what the woman said yesterday, move on!" I jumped down and walked over to him getting into his face, "I am...I'm meditating...But I don't eat a stranger's food! He might hate me enough to try and poison me. And anyway who told you, you could come in my room?" He gave a look that said I was trying to be nice.
"I am being nice...I'm territorially, but if you want me to I could always be meaner." He shook his head, "Then get out." I said rudely. He turned and walked towards the kitchen. I shut my door softly, and went to the window, and looked out it. "Maybe if I just stay in here I'll feel better then to never have to feel bad again." I whispered to myself.
At noon I finally left my room with a blade by my side. I walked out the back door with out saying a word to anyone. I walked into the woods, and began to train. I shoved my blade into a tree. "Ice fire." I whispered and just like that the tree bursted into a fire that looked like ice. "So, the ice dragon blade is with you." I turned to find Hiei behind me. I turned back, and took my blade out of the tree. "I train alone." I stated. Though I use to train with a partner, he was my lover, and my lover was dead so...a whole chain. "Or are you scared I'll when?" Hiei was a little too cocky. "Yeah, well the way I took out Martha, and her lover; not to mention your friends I'm not scared of any thing hunter." I said cruelly. "Fear is for the weak anyway." I nodded in agreement. "I fear no man...and I don't mind killing if I have to." I stated. "That's makes two of us." I smirked, "Now if you don't mind I would like to train." I turned from Hiei, but as soon as I did I felt a blade at my neck. "I win anyways." I stayed still as he thought that over, but I pulled out a dagger and put it at his stomach. "In your dreams hunter." He noticed, "Good job." I didn't say anything but put it closer to him so that I could pierce the skin in a second flat. "Let me go, or die standing here!" I threatened. He took the blade from my neck, and I turned to face him. "Stay way from me." I said pointing my blade at him as I backed away from him. He gave me a hn, and walked on. "Bastrad." I whispered as I swung my blade at a tree again.
I trained till it got dark. I then went in because of the appearance of Martha, and Ryun yesterday; I didn't need another killing session right now. I walked in getting everyone's attention. "You must be hungry..." I looked at Kurama. "I'm fine thank you." I said coldly before heading off to my room. I walked in to my room, and grabbed me some clothes. I took them into the bathroom with me seeing how people would walk in any given moment. I took me a shower like I always did after training.
I wished everything would just stop, but I knew it wouldn't. After living for three centuries I should know by now; time doesn't stop for no one. I got out hesitantly, and dried off. Memories lost from me danced around trying to form the full memory in the order it happened in, but it didn't help me.
I show things I would have wanted to know and remember, and things I didn't want to know. Just little images dancing around in my head; that's all they were to me. I didn't need memories to tell me my life was a living hell. I got dressed in a black tank top that had a red rose on it that looked like it was bleeding. On the back of the shirt it said "We all bleed sometime." I put on a pair of tan shorts, and was pleased with how I felt. For some reason I started to feel a little happier, but for what reason I didn't know. I thought about it for a couple of minutes. "...Damn! Not today...it can't be. Shit!" I said opening the bathroom door, and walking into my room.
I looked at my room to find no one there...good thing to. I would've been pissed if someone was in there. But just when I thought I was going to be left alone there was a knock on the door. "Who is it?" I asked putting my shoulder length hair up. "It's me Botan, can I come in?" I rolled my eyes, "No what do you want?" I heard her sigh, "I wanted to know if you wanted to play a game with us." I didn't really want to, but I need something to do besides meditate. "Sure why not." I sighed walking over and opening the door. "Great, come on!" She said grabbing hold of my hand, and jerking me into a ran towards the living room. "I can walk you know!" I said as she finished her little mission to get there fast. "Well, saying hurry up with you isn't the best thing to do." I glared at her.
I sat down beside of Kurama, and Yukina. "Glad to see you join us." I shrugged, "What else can a girl do on her..." I stopped myself there, but they all were looking at me; their eyes asking the same thing. "Finish what you were goin' to say." Kurama said really wanting to know. I put my hand over my mouth. "Come on damn it!" Yusuke hollered. I glared at him. Yukina looked at me with begging eyes. I then uncovered my mouth, "No! I'm not goin' to tell you guys about it." Botan sighed, "And I thought it would be something important like a birthday." My eyes went wide as she said that. Botan saw this, "That's it isn't it?" She was smiling happy with this expression on my face. I looked away from her. "Dawn..." I heard Koenma voice coming from the hallway. "God no." I whispered. He then came in to the living room. "Dawn, Killer says happy birthday." I closed my eyes, and left my head hanging. "What's wrong?" I shook my head, "Nothings wrong just that my birthday gets me a step closer to being as old as dirt!" I said with a rude tone. I heard a snicker coming from in front of me. I looked up to find Yusuke and his idiot friend laughing. "What's so funny?" They looked at me like holy shit. "The way ya said it." I shook my head. "Great, another year of running to add to the calendar. Three hundred and ten years to this day." I whispered to my self. Koenma just backed out of the room, and returned to his office.
"So Dawn we're playing truth or dare; would you like to go first?" I shook my head, "No thanks." But I had a feeling who was ever first was goin' to pick on me anyways. "Fine I'll go...I still pick you Dawn...truth or dare?" My head hung low again, "Truth." I said lowly. "Okay, where were you born, and what is the first thing you remember." I looked up, "I don't know where I was born...I don't even remember most my past. And the first thing that I can remember is my parent's death." I said calmly. I got wide eyes. "And how old were you then?" I tsked the carrot topped idiot, "Sorry hunter I only answer to the truth I was asked to tell...not random questions." I said to calmly. I was creeping out a few people, and enjoying it. "Now, Hiei, truth or dare?" I asked him. "Truth." I nodded. "Why are you so cold?" I asked him curiously. "Because I don't care." I shrugged. "Whatever, there's more to it I can sense it." I stated.
"Hiei you have to tell the truth." He gave a hn, and didn't say another thing. "But you know something I like that excuse. I don't care...I'll say that next time." I said smirking. "Hn, Kurama?" Kurama nodded, "Dare." I liked how calm he could be. "Tell the truth do you hate Dawn, like a deep down in your soul hate, or a pity type of hate?" I liked this one. "Um...I would say a mix; I don't like the fact that she has hurt or killed that many people, but I pity her for having to do it to survive." I didn't like the sound of pity...I didn't even like the word, but I wasn't goin' to go all out on someone's ass right now. I just shrugged it off. "Kuwabara truth or dare?" The carrot top smiled. So that's his name...Good I'll tell them to carve it on his tomb stone. "Dare." I didn't see what was coming, but the way Kurama looked it seemed it would be fun for us, and horrible for him. "Tell me would you fight Dawn if we let you?" I looked at the fool beside of Yusuke. "I would, and I would win!" I gave him a look like just bring it. "Do you want to test that theory?" I asked giving him an evil look. "I'm not really supposed to fight girls, but you yeah tell me when and where!" I smirked and looked at Kurama, "Is this cocky hunter for real?" Kurama nodded, "So is that one right beside of him." I tried to hold in a laugh. "Okay, tomorrow morning just before you enter the woods, early about six thirty?" He nodded. "Anyone else while were at it?" I asked him. All the guys raised their hands. "I guess it will be a training session then." Kuwabara then went on with his thing, and asked me his question since I picked truth again. "How old were you when your parents died, and how did they die?" I ran the memory through my mind. "Kuwabara...would you like it if your sister died, and we bothered you with what happened?" Botan said in my defense. "Don't worry about it Botan...I barely knew them." I said looking up softly as the memory replayed itself over and over again.
"It was 1695, and we were celebrating my birthday at midnight, that ever hour I was born. I was off in a corner shy of all the people of the brethren. I had no friends...no one to talk to. All of a sudden I hear my Mother talking with a man. He said, I should die that I might cause trouble to the brethren. Mother was protesting saying, they should be happy for her and Father. He said, if she was pure then we wouldn't have to fear what could happen to us. She will never fit in with any kind no matter how hard you try to make her feel like she could. Why not just try to put her out of her misery? My mother started to get pissed in ways, but back then woman weren't allowed to curse, and men never cursed in a woman's presence so she tried to stand her ground with out doin' so. Her words were pure simple, and to the point, she is my daughter, and I love her that's why!" By this time they were entranced by what I was saying. "That led up to a fight where my Father's spirit energy even though powerful enough to kill hundreds, didn't help them." I pressed my lips as I saw what part of the memory came to my mind, the one that would piece it all together in a way; I saw their death. I hadn't seen this before, but it made since to me telling me why I was kicked out of the brethren.
"I saw them die. The life drained from them as if they were just another human off the streets. Three feeding off one arm, one on each side of the neck. Murdered by the ones they so trusted. Leaving me for them to kill, but they didn't. They just threw me out thinking I would go hungry out on the streets, but I found my ways of surviving at all costs." I said showing them the scar on my right arm.
It was an ugly fire looking scar that went from my shoulder to the back of my hand. "And I do mean at all costs. I fed off demons, and humans to live. Alone for two centuries, I got this scar when I was twenty while feeding off a fire demon like Hiei." Every one looked down at Hiei then up at me. "He didn't go down with out a fight, but it was while worth it. Every human and demon's blood taste different. This one's blood tasted of white wine, but I guess evil tastes worse then innocence." I said getting a cringe from Kieko, and Kuwabara. "What don't like the memories I do have in control?" They shook their heads. "Oh well, maybe I should tell you the story that was told to me by a homeless woman before I killed her. It goes like this...life sucks, and hurts us all; so deal with it, the end!" I said smiling.
I scratched the back of my head looking towards a window. "Okay, Hiei truth or dare?" I didn't look at any one of them as I saw a pair of red eyes at the window. "Dare." I looked from the eyes to him. "I dare you to try and kick an ambush of vampires with me, because we got some more company." He smirked, "That I can do!" I jumped up. And ran for the door.
I opened it and looked around to find them running towards the woods. "Come on!" I said sprinting for them. I got to them I lounged at one. I bit into that ones neck to stop it. I looked up at Hiei, "Get the others!" I screamed. "No they're gone." He looked away from me. "Fuck you! This world is nasty; I'm just one part of it." I said picking the one I caught up off the ground. "Come on punk!" I said walking back towards the palace with blood dripping down my chin.
When we got back the blood on my face had already dried. I walked on a got faces of sickened disgust. "Yeah, well at least I caught one of them!" I said knowing what they were thinking. Kuwabara looked sick. I looked away from them pissed, and walked to Koenma's office with the prisoner. The punk fought with me on the way down saying I was a traitor. About mid way to Koenma's office I got sick of hearing it.
I slammed the pure bloodied vampire into a wall and held on to the collar of his shirt. "Look here no good punk ass brat! What have they told you? That I killed my parents for some odd reason, and running from the brethren?" I asked him. He nodded, "Yeah well I didn't! You and your pure blooded friends killed my parents, and threw me out on to the streets! Now shut the fuck up, and watch how pissed you make me, or I'll kill you slowly." He gulped as I hissed at him. "Okay!" I jerked him from the wall, and walked on with him. I slung the door open, and shut it behind us. "We had company!" I said looking at Koenma. He didn't look at me like I was nasty, or gross in any way. He didn't like it, but he understood. "He had three friends with him, but they got away only because Hiei wouldn't go on, and kill them! I thought you would like to know what was goin' on before I killed this one like they did my parents." I said hissing at the boy. "I'll tell you what you want to know..."
"Whatever we want?" He nodded. "Who's in charge of you?" Koenma asked. "A man named Ryan! He is the twin brother of Ryun." I looked at Koenma. "Practically the same name but different vowels." I stated as if no one knew, but the name sounded familiar. I shook it off. "That's all I need to know from him...um, torture him some where..." I decided to pass this meal. I just broke his neck killing him.
"Ryan, why does that name sound familiar?" I asked myself. "I'll tell you once I find his paper work." I nodded, and walked out of his office. I walked into my bath room and washed the blood from my face. I then went back towards the kitchen, and got me a cup of water to wash down the punk's blood. It tasted nasty. It tasted of liquor, and I didn't really like that. I sat back down around with the guys, but it didn't feel right now. They kept giving me glances of disgust, and I didn't like it. "Can we just get on with the game, or would you like me to leave?" I asked them. They sat there silent. "Fine! I'll go." I said standing up. "But to tell you the truth I didn't have anything to kill him with, or to even stop him. And we got something out of him...like who's in charge." I said walking away.
I went to my room, and curled up on my bed. "I don't want it now!" I said softly as tears ran down my face. I fell asleep crying as someone entered my room.
