:Simulated Guilt: Questions Unanswered
Disclaimer: If I owned Saiyuki, I would actually be able to finish my work by the end of this one-week holiday. Which has never happened.
Warnings: The regular shounen-ai and the use of language. And slight OOCness for Sanzo. But if I don't make Sanzo slightly OOC, there will be no shounen-ai. Please bear with me. Slight lime in the beginning of this chapter.
His breath was warm all over his body. In fact all of him was warm, though with a touch of ice. His beautiful freezing sun gave light and warmth only to him and nobody else. Though he knew he was being selfish, he was extremely pleased that he was the only person that his sun felt worthy to give warmth to. Fingers traveled all over him, while he felt something wet travel into his mouth, and he happily accepted it, licking his sun's face after breaking away from the kiss. He wrapped his arms around his sun, doing his best to try to draw more warmth from him, while the sun enveloped his long arms around the Earth's child body, providing each other satisfaction.
Goku did not even have time to think when his head hit the floor. The only last lingering thought in his mind was whether Sanzo was alright.
Sanzo was confused when he woke up. All he remembered was blood, brown hair and guilt. Then everything came back in a rush, and all the guilt came back to him. But all of a sudden, he saw the spitting image of Goku, the exact impersonation of the Earth Child. Sanzo was not going to be fooled by it. He was not. He knew he had killed his lover, and that he was completely guilty for it. He believed it was his mind that played tricks on him. He had to get rid of this impersonation. Nobody could ever replace Goku. But when he looked into the eyes of the impersonation, he felt those golden, innocent eyes boring through his soul. He had to get rid of it, before his mind was taken in by it. Get away!
Hakkai and Gojyo stared at Sanzo hurling Goku to the floor. The monk had hit the monkey down with a fair number of smacks from the infamous fan, but this ram into the head had been so full of malice and anger. They stared at the scene for a good few seconds, not knowing how to respond. It never happened before.
Gojyo gained his head back together faster than Hakkai, his instinct to send the monk to hell overpowering his senses. Goku was his friend, his one-way trip out of boredom, and Sanzo just casually woke up from his beautiful sleep and happily rammed Goku's head into the floor. Well, it wasn't really like that, but the damage was done.
"What the fuck are you doing, you stupid monk? When the heck did you turn into a sadist? Was your brain knocked out of its usual shitty place into an even shittier one? That was Goku, for goodness sake!"
Hakkai stared at the chaotic scene of Gojyo yelling and the blood seeping out of Goku's head. He picked Goku up and looked at the wound carefully. It was much worse than it looked, with blood slowly covering the young Earth's Child face, with its frozen facial expressions of worry just a few minutes ago. He had to get Goku's head bandaged quickly. Meanwhile, he would let Gojyo do the yelling.
"Hey! What has gotten into you? You can be charged for animal abuse, you know! Even I think Goku has not done anything stupid enough to get a head inju"
"He's not Goku."
Gojyo froze in mid-sentence. "…wassat?" His thoughts were completely incoherent, let alone his spoken words.
Sanzo raised his voice angrily. "He. Is. Not. GOKU."
His ears were in proper working condition, though.
Hakkai froze too. It was strange Sanzo should make such a statement, but it was the monk's eyes that made him go on high alert. Sanzo's normally deep, sharp violet eyes suddenly were dulled, and purple was mingled with red, black and grey. As if he was in the middle of a dream.
"Hey, Hakkai… Is Goku gonna be fine?" Stupid question.
"Yeah, he'll be alright. The wound will heal pretty quickly. He is Goku after all." Uncertain answer.
"What will we tell Goku when he wakes up?" A question that can only be answered
"Maybe Sanzo will tell him the reason?"when everything is said.
"That stupid monk won't say anything else besides that the monkey is not the monkey. He's now just sulking at one corner."
Maybe the question can never be answered.
"We'll see what happens."
A/N: That was tough. I didn't even think of an idea before writing it out. It just came when I typed. Let's see how Goku will react when he does wake up, hmm? If you're lucky, my brain might think of something better than this.
