A/N Sorry this took so long guys! My broadband was over it's download limit so I couldn't update! Sooooooooooo thank you for your reviews I'm so pleased and her is a chapter I think you will all like!
That night at dinner Lily played with her food watching as James joked with the Marauders and Hannah like nothing had happened between the two of them. He didn't look at her or acknowledge her stare in any way. Depressed she shoved a hunk of potato her mouth and chewed thoughtfully.
James watched Lily out of the corner of his eye shoveling her food into her mouth absentmindedly. Why hadn't he been able to tell her then that he loved her? He could tell she was wishing him to. Why had he stupidly stood there, but then again why hadn't she said the same thing? Angered at her cowardice her ignored her. It wasn't like she didn't know his feelings towards her.
When dinner was over there was a large crowd in the Entrance Hall swarmed around the notice board.
"What is it?" Hannah asked as Sirius ducked up to the board pushing first and second years.
"Sirius apologize!" Lily growled helping the students off the floor.
"Sorry twerps," he apologized casually over his shoulder.
"Sirius!" Lily bellowed.
"Oh give it a rest Lils." James said coldly, standing next to Sirius and looking over his shoulder at the notice. Lily stood there stunned taken back by the cold and flat tone of his words.
"Hogsmeade next weekend!" Sirius exclaimed turning to James excitedly, "I've got all that money from my Uncle to spend at Zonko's!"
"I thought you were buying a house with that." Remus said coming over to them.
"He's going to buy a house worth of Zonko's." Hannah joked and James looked at her and laughed. He noticed Lily was still staring at him, a hurt look on her face. He also noticed every line of her perfect body trembling in his wake. He made to move to her but saw a Ravenclaw come up beside her.
"Hey Lily," a soft voice said. Lily pried her eyes off James to see Chad Gehrig standing beside her.
"Hey Chad!" Lily forced a smile; she could feel Felicity stiffen from even a foot away. "How are things?"
"Good, listen I was wondering if you might-I mean you don't have to if you don't want-it's just that I thought, well…"
"Yes?" Lily asked expectedly.
"Would you like to come to Hogsmeade with me?" Lily opened her eyes in surprise.
"You're asking me to Hogsmeade?" she asked stunned.
"Yeah," he said smiling, "Are you saying yes?" he asked shyly as Lily looked to James remembering his outburst before.
"Yeah I am." She answered returning his smile. Chad then bade her goodnight.
"Lily!" Felicity screeched once they were in the confines of the common room, "I cannot possibly believe that Chad Gehrig asked you to Hogsmeade!"
"I can't believe she said yes," Sirius sneered as the seven of them found seats around the fire. James was nowhere to be seen. Lily rolled her eyes at him.
"He is kind of cute," she admitted blushing.
"He's also a Ravenclaw." Sirius interjected.
"What is your problem?" Lily rounded on Sirius angrily.
"James!" Sirius explained, "You kissed him this afternoon and now you're going out with Chad!"
"I-I," Lily gaped like a goldfish, "I'm not going out with Chad we're going to Hogsmeade! And James is the one who ignored me all evening and then gave me a blasting. So don't try and make me out to be the culprit here Sirius!"
"You're toying with him!" Sirius bellowed standing up. Lily stood up, drawing herself to her full height.
"Sirius Black I am not toying with James Potter! He's the one who has followed me relentlessly for seven years always asking me out and creating this infatuation because I've always said no!" Lily scolded.
"James loves you Lily!" Sirius blurted out, "He told us!" Then suddenly he covered his hands as if he had let a huge secret slip, "Oh no," he said slowly,
"H-he to-l-d you!" Lily stammered shocked. Remus hit Sirius with a menacing look. Lily looked to the two of them knowing they had not meant to tell her. Suddenly she turned on her heel and stormed out of the Common Room.
She stopped at the Portrait Hole and leant up against it trying to gather her thoughts. James had told Sirius he was in love with her! Something about the thought of James telling Sirius made it real made her heart leap to her throat and her stomach twirl in anticipation of stepping through the hole to where she knew he would be.
Suddenly without warning Lily fell through the portrait hole and fell backwards with a thud.
"Lily!" James exclaimed as she saw his concerned face looking at her upside down.
"James!" she said equally surprised scrambling to her feet, with his help.
"What were you doing?" he asked dusting off her robes.
"Thinking about-" but then Lily stopped herself. Sitting lazily in one of the arm chairs by the fire was Emily Johansson, a Gryffindor sixth year, "Emily!" Lily masked a smile.
"Oh hi Lily," Emily said turning back to the fire. Lily looked to James.
"What is she doing here?" she asked crossing her arms at him.
"Nothing, asked me to Hogsmeade so I let her come in by the fire and-"
"And what?" Lily asked as James ran a hand through his hair. Lily's jaw dropped as she noticed a purple bruise on his neck, "And what is that?" she hissed pushing it with her finger.
"Well that would be-"
But just what it would be Lily didn't find out as she walked straight to her room and slammed the door. James looked shocked and stared at her door for a few moments before shaking his head confused and returning to Emily.
That night on patrol the two barely spoke each fuming about the other's actions that day. As Lily looked out the window towards the lake she could not believe that it had been the same day that she had kissed James. So much had happened and that morning by the lake seemed a lifetime away.
James too stared at lake. He fingered his lips coherently deciding that Lily was a much better kisser than Emily, and relishing in the memory of the flutter he had felt in his stomach as she had pressed his soft lips to his.
"What are you doing?" Lily flatly interrupted his thought process. She was standing hands on hips looking at him staring out at the lake and fingering his lips. Embarrassed he put his hands in his pockets.
"N-nothing," he replied slipping on his words.
The following week flew past in a series of arguments between Lily and James who were still not talking to each other. Every time one of them tried to fill the void the other retaliated by not giving an inch to which point by the morning of Hogsmeade it was almost boiling over.
"Hannah could you ask James to pass the salt." Lily muttered at breakfast on Saturday morning.
"Sirius could you tell Lily to get it herself and stop being immature." James ripped back. Lily glared at him and he gave her a steely glance in return.
"I am not immature," she said through gritted teeth.
"Oh really,"
"Yes really."
"I'd beg to differ," James breathed and Lily rose out of her chair.
"I'm not the one who has tried to start a fight every day this week."
"Oh why don't you just kiss me and run off again," James goaded. Lily fumed,
"Why don't you go kiss someone else!" James now rose out of his chair.
"Lily that was-"
What it was no one found out as Chad Gehrig came up behind Lily and slipped an arm around her waist.
"Ready?" he whispered into her ear. Lily turned to him.
"Yeah let's go," she left with him letting Chad leave his arm around her waist. James sat down again his temper boiling.
"I don't know what she sees in him," he snapped.
"Well, he's good looking, smart, Captain of the Ravenclaw Quidditch team and his parents are high up in the ministry. What's not to like?" Felicity dreamily watched Chad walk off with Lily.
"I'm good looking, smart, Captain of the Gryffindor Quidditch team and my parents are head of the Auror office, what's not to like about me!" James exclaimed.
"You forgot modest!" Hannah mumbled.
"Prongs let it be." Sirius interjected before James could retaliate, "It's simple-she's not worth it!" Hannah slapped him over the back of the head.
"Well if James hadn't of kissed that horrible Emily girl-oh hi Emily!" Hannah sing-songed as Emily Johansson appeared wrapping her arms around James neck.
"Shall we go?" she asked smiling.
"Sure." James shrugged her off and led the way out of the Hall.
"This is a bit of a mess!" Carol simpered.
"What do you mean?" Remus asked.
"Oh c'mon we all know Lily and James are meant for each other. The passion between the two had this morning."
"They were fighting!" Sirius exclaimed.
"Yes, but there was so much passion for each other rippling underneath the surface. They're just as annoyed with their situation as we are." Felicity explained.
"How do you know?" Peter queried thoughtfully.
"Because we know Lily," Hannah rolled her eyes, "We've never seen her this angry at James. She's fallen for him-bad."
"What! You mean to say Lily loves James?" Sirius spat.
"Not just loves James, she's in love with James."
"There's a difference?"
"Oh my naïve Sirius Black, there's a huge difference! Love is affection for another; in love is when you breathe for that person." Said Hannah tiredly as the six of them rose ready to travel to Hogsmeade.
"So where do you want to go today?" Chad asked Lily once they'd reached the pretty town of Hogsmeade.
Lily shrugged, "I don't know, how about Honeydukes?" she suggested. Chad grinned.
"Bit of a sweet tooth?" he asked and she smiled as he put his arm around her.
"Maybe just a little," she answered as they strode into the already packed store. Lily's mind was elsewhere as they strode through the aisles of Acid Pops and Exploding Fancies. She looked to Chad as he was buying sweets at the counter. Sure he was cute and charming, but he wasn't the man she wanted to be spending her Hogsmeade trip with.
"James are you okay?" Emily asked concerned. James was in a similar situation in The Three Broomsticks with Emily. All day he had been looking for Lily and her flaming red hair. He had spotted her once coming out of Honeydukes happily opening a chocolate rose Chad had bought her.
He looked to Emily, "Sure." He said not too convincingly.
"Are you positive? You just seem distant."
"What are you talking about I'm right here," he joked lamely. Emily laughed a little too enthusiastically. James rolled his eyes; truth be told Emily was fun at times but he missed Lily. He missed his serious talks with her and their conversations.
I wonder if she misses me? He thought to himself. After seeing her coming out of Honeydukes he decided, probably not.
That night James sat by himself in the Head's Common Room reading the latest book about Quidditch. Lily was not yet back from dinner. He had seen her sitting at the Ravenclaw table joking with Chad and his friends and had felt an anger surge up inside of him. To add to that Emily was not talking to him. At the end of the day he had walked her to Gryffindor Tower.
"Thanks for today, I had a great time," James said breaking the silence that had prevailed for the better part of the day.
"Oh don't lie James, it was a rotten day." She snapped at him. "You didn't want to be with me."
James was taken back, "Yes I did." He defended and Emily had rolled her eyes.
"Don't take me for a fool!" she had erupted, "You wanted to spend the day with perfect Lily Evans! Not me! I'm wasting my time with you!" Emily had then turned and stormed through the portrait hole and the Fat Lady had turned to him.
"She's got a point you know,"
"Oh just shut up!" James had spat stalking off.
Now that he had time he knew Emily was right. He has wanted to spend the day with Emily and had regretted yelling at her before Chad has asked her to Hogsmeade. He knew in his heart they would have made up and may even have gone on a date. Instead he had been a bullying toe rag and she had gone with Chad.
His thoughts were interrupted as Lily came through the portrait hole calling over her shoulder, "Good night Chad!" She turned to see him sitting there, and then without so much as a word walked straight into her room and shut the door. She returned a moment later with her bathrobe and towel and went to enter their bathroom.
"Don't forget we have patrol," James reminded.
"Whatever," Lily said through gritted teeth.
"Oh don't be like that Lils," he said getting out of his chair. He was tired of fighting with her. Her open hostility was draining and he wanted the Lily he loved back.
"Like what Potter?" she emphasized his last name.
"All angry at me," he shrugged simply.
"Excuse me? You're the one who started this! Biting me head off and then kissing Emily!"
"What about you running away and then pretending nothing had happened! That hurt!" he exploded.
"I didn't know how to react!" she yelled rounding on him. "Just when I start to think there's something between us you kiss someone else!"
"Well you said yes to Chad!"
"Only because you were angry with me!" she defended.
"Yeah right I saw you today. You were all over him giggling. Don't play with me Lily," he said going onto the offensive.
"Play with you! You play with me! Always asking me out and teasing me! How the hell am I supposed to know it was the real thing!"
They were inches apart and suddenly without knowing what he was doing James pulled her face to him and embraced her passionately. He felt Lily hesitate but then she dropped her bag and he dropped his book and he felt her hands run up his back and to his neck where her fingers entwined themselves in his hair. He brought her body tightly up against his responding to the passionate urgency he felt in her. When they parted he again felt her trembling in his wake.
"Try and tell me you didn't feel that," he whispered, "try and tell me that wasn't real." Lily shook her head.
"I'm so sorry James," she apologized tears welling up in her eyes. He put a finger to her lips.
"Don't ever be sorry, nothing you could do or say would ever stop me from loving you." Lily nodded and he leaned forward and planted a reassuring kiss on her lips and held her. When she had stopped trembling he pulled away from her a bit and grinned, "So how about that shower?"
A/N Ahahahha! Hope you guys liked it! I personally love this chapter cos it sort of brings out that passion that Lily and James have for each other, I mean it's a fighting passion but I love it!
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