Sara point of view. First 4 lines is My sundown- a song from Jimmy Eat World. Review if you like.


Isaid my goodbyes / this is my sundown

I'm going to be so much more than this

With one hand high / you'll show them your progress

You'll take your time / but no one cares.

No one cares. The thought had crossed my mind on more than one occasion but was always dismissed. Of course they care, I told myself. They are my friends. I thought of them more as family, but they didn't return the thought. Well I couldn't expect the same could I? They have their own families, I don't. I just needed someone to love my like a daughter, or a sister, or anything. But I was just a friend. There was no way I could be more than that.

It was a rough case. Everyone was a little short-tempered. I don't blame them for that. I blame them for the way the treated me. Catherine messed up a key piece of evidence. Could have cost us the whole case- and she let me take the blame! I couldn't believe her! This was her payback for Eddie. I know she was angry at me about him but she still shouldn't have done that. I know she didn't mean to mess up the evidence but she sure as hell meant for me to save her skin.

Obviously everyone blamed me. It was like 'Oh Catherine, we know you. Of course you wouldn't lie about this. But hey! How really knows Sara? Lets all blame her.' So I got suspended.. again. This time it was completely not my fault. I don't think I could ever forget the little 'chat' Grissom and I had after the meeting with Cavello.

'Sara, I am very disappointed..' (That hurt a lot when he said that) '.. I can't believe you of all people would pull such a stupid mistake. Look Sara. I have covered for you before, its 3 strikes and your out. Understand?' I looked at him foolishly; maybe I should play stupid I thought. I just nodded my head. WHY DID I DO THAT? I should have told him everything. I should have said how it was Catherine. Like he would believe me.

I ended up paying a visit to Catherine.

I knocked on her office door. She told me to come in, so in I went.

'Ah Sara. What do I owe the pleasure?' I could have hit her. I took the blame for her mistake while she sat behind her desk with a smug grin on her face. How could she be such a bitch?

'I'm suspended because of you! I took the blame for a mistake you made!'

'Look. That was a rookie mistake. I couldn't take the blame for that and well.. who would have believed you if I shifted the blame to you? Least you didn't get fired.' She replied confidently.

'You bitch!' I screamed. I stormed out, livid! How the hell could I work here again!

It was a short argument. I would have loved just to stay and enjoy a little shouting match with her, but things would have led to another and I know I would be facing an assault charge on top of my suspension. There was no way I would be able to forgive her. No way I would be able to work with the people who turned against me for something I didn't do.

I phoned Grissom when I got home. With a little Dutch courage I dialled his cell phone number and listened to the rings. On the third he picked up.

'Grissom.' He said into his phone.

'Grissom- it's Sara.' I slurred into my phone. God, he would think I was drunk!

'Sara, have you been drinking? Actually don't answer that okay? I know you have. God Sara. Just stop making everything difficult for me. What the hell should I do about this?' He was angry. Very angry.

'Well Grissom. I need a little confidence to do what I am about to do,' I was shouting so loud into the phone. Tears had formed in my eyes, 'I'm not going to be your problem anymore okay? I quit!' I listened to the silence on the other end of the phone. What was he thinking? I wondered if he was sad I was leaving, maybe he was thankful that I didn't need to be anymore trouble.

'Sara. I wish you all the luck in the future.' He spoke quietly now. It was hard to tell the emotion in his voice.

'You too, Grissom. And for the record, what happened today wasn't my fault. I think you should talk to Catherine about that.' I spoke coolly too. I had calmed down a bit. I guess I was sad Grissom didn't put up more of a fight for me to stay.

And then I hung up.

Now without Grissom I could concentrate on my life. I had always wanted to work for the FBI. Now I had the chance.

The next day I started packing up my apartment. There was no way I would stay in Vegas. What was the point? I had found a small apartment in New York. I'm sure there would be job opportunities there. I had been to New York before, and I loved it. New York wasn't Vegas, that's what I love the most. My apartment in New York wasn't to be ready for another month. So that meant I was to remain in Vegas till then. I didn't really have a choice. I knew fine well Catherine would never admit what she did, so I knew fine well everyone would still hate me. So I concluded no one would want me to stay, no one would come say goodbye.


That was just the 1st chapter. I am hoping to continue but only ifI get a positive responce via reviews. So review :)