What happened next…
Disclaimer: J.K Rowling wrote the books not me. I don't own anything. Except the characters I made up.
Summary: James likes Lily but are his feelings returned? Will Lily ever give in and go out with the marauder or is them even being friends asking too much? These two questions can only lead to confusion, fun, and much more. Rated m for later chapters. R and R.
Author's Notes: Thanks for all the review. I think I must be the worst author ever as I post so irregularly but its all about timing and I really don't mean to keep you waiting. I hope you like the new chapter and here are the replies to my reviews.
Slytherin Rogue thanks for the review. I would appreciate your thoughts on my story. Hope you like the new chapter.
Dracosgirl2515 I am glad there was a little James and Lily for you. I know I sometimes go off a bit on the other characters but this story is mainly based around Lily and James later on it gets to more Lily and James but their main plot line might not come for a while. But I will make sure it's a good one don't worry. Hope you keep reading. Thanks for the review.
Cora-leanna I am glad you like the James bit. I like mushy bits too. Lol. About the Amaryllis thing, its kind of a formality that I said she was going shopping. It was just an excuse and didn't really need to be that realistic just not too out there. So I hope that explains it.
Floro13 Thanks for another super review. I like them so much. Though you chose a mushy quote this time. Lol. I kind of want the pity thing for Cressida. She's been through a lot. But don't worry maybe later on I will pick her story up, though knowing me I will probably change my mind. Lol. Anyway, read on…
Fairy-GYAKUTENNO-MEGAMI Thanks for the review. I haven't seen sixteen candles. I haven't even heard of it. I must not get out enough. Lol. I don't know about getting Sirius a new woman though or wo-man as you call it. I think he needs a bit of time. Though knowing Sirius and his womanising character it won't be long.
Bloomsgrl Don't worry, Remus gets better. It was nothing too serious. As it said he'd been through worse. Well I think it said that. I can't remember. Lol. Hope you like the new chapter. Sorry for the time it took to post.
OTHCharmedHPFreak What would my story be without a bit of drama? Lol. I have to warn there is drama ahead but don't worry there is no doubt to be a bit of love and romance as well. But I hope you keep reading anyway. You suggested a lot of things to do in my story and all of them would make them a very clean cut story and though they were good ideas I will probably drag it out for a bit for effect or I might not ever have them find out about the animagus' and Remus' little furry problem. I like suspense in a story and I want to try and bring some into mine. Hope you like the new chapter.
Chapter 14
Amaryllis sat with Remus all night hoping he was okay. He seemed to be sleeping okay, quietly breathing. But she worried anyway. She sat in a chair by his bed finally falling asleep and waking up the next morning to see Remus stirring.
"Remus," she said gently rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
"Mmmm," Remus grumbled, he slowly opened his eyes. He stretched his arms out and sat up slowly.
"You shouldn't move much, James said you were hurt bad, you need rest." Amaryllis said resting on the bed beside him and placing her hand on his forehead to check his temperature. He leaned into her soft hand.
"I'm sorry," he said quietly.
"It's forgotten," she said lying down next to him and resting her head on his chest.
"I love you, you know," Remus said.
"I know," she replied snuggling closer to him and closing her eyes. She was tired after waiting up for him.
"You lay here, I need a shower," Remus said getting up gently so not to disturb her as she was already practically asleep. He walked carefully into the bathroom, he was still sore from the full moon.
Amaryllis was dreaming, but she began to wake up and she peaked her eyes open a bit unsure of where she was. She opened her eyes and saw the naked back of Remus facing her. He was completely naked and drying himself with a towel. Her cheeks immediately went red. Her and Remus' relationship had never gone as far as sex and seeing him like this made Amaryllis feel embarrassed. She rolled over so she wasn't facing him and sat up and even though she couldn't see him any longer she put her hand over her eyes.
"Um… Remus?" she said timidly. Remus jumped a mile in the air.
"I thought you were asleep. I'm sorry." He drew a towel around his waist.
"Its okay, I'm decent," he said and she turned around. Remus noticed her red cheeks and smiled.
"You don't have to be embarrassed, I'm not," Remus said smiling. Amaryllis was slightly staring a bit too much at his half-naked form. He wasn't exactly hard on the eyes.
"I'm sorry, its just I have never seen a… you know," Amaryllis couldn't finish because she shoved her red head in the pillow on the bed.
"Am' don't be embarrassed. There's no need. I always thought you weren't a virgin but it doesn't matter that you are, I like it better that you are," Remus said, he was smiling as he walked over to his bed and stroked Amaryllis' hair. She brought her face out of the pillow and smiled at him.
"Thanks, I just feel like a baby. Going all red." She said.
"There's no need," Remus replied lying on the bed next to her, she cuddled up to him.
"Remus?" she asked. "Are you a virgin?" Remus looked uncomfortable.
"No… I'm not." He said. "I'm sorry, I wish I was it was a total mistake."
"Its okay, I don't want to know anymore. I love you Remus, you need to learn that that means no matter what," Amaryllis said kissing him on the lips. He pulled her close kissing her deeply as she ran her hands through her hair. He ran his tongue over her lip and she moaned. Remus made her legs feel like jelly. He rolled half on top of her and started playing with her top. He put his hand up the back of it and ran his fingers over her bra strap then pulled away suddenly.
"Amaryllis I'm still feeling a bit rough so maybe we could do this another time." He said sitting up. She looked at him strangely but got up.
"I think I had better be getting home anyway. They'll be wondering where I am," Amaryllis said getting up trying not to show the hurt in her eyes. Remus seemed preoccupied with something else and didn't notice. He simply kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye. She left feeling lonely and rejected.
Once she had left Remus lay back on his bed and put his hand over his face and sighed. He knew she felt hurt, but he couldn't risk hurting her. He didn't want her to get hurt if they broke up and they would. Remus had been in relationships before and they just didn't last. He now knew she was a virgin and he didn't deserve to take that from her. He had to end it with her, before it went to far and he hurt her. He couldn't believe he had told her about being a werewolf. How could he be so stupid to tell her? He had to end it before she acted weird around her. He would do it tomorrow. By letter. He couldn't do it by person, it would kill him to see her sweet face sad. Tomorrow.
Amaryllis made her way home and arrived about a half-hour after lily arrived.
"Hey we weren't expecting you to come home so early," Lily said smiling.
"Yeah me neither," she mumbled before going to bed early. The other girls noticed her mood but said nothing. They just gave a knowing look to each other and went back to watching television.
The next day Lily received a owl letter from James.
Dear Lily,
Would you like to come over to the house? Remus and Sirius are moping about and I would love to see you. Write back and let me know.
Love James
Lily read the note and smiled. There was nothing more she would want than to see James today. She quickly wrote back that she would be there as soon as she can. She quickly showered and got dressed then went downstairs to where her friends were eating breakfast.
"I'm going out today, there's something I have to do, I'll see you guys later okay," Lily said quickly then she rushed out the door to get the bus down the street. Her friends sat there baffled. Cressida especially.
"What do you think she was up to?" Cressida asked.
"I don't know, she was weird last night at James' house as well." Amaryllis said taking a large bite of toast and flicking through a magazine. Cressida wasn't as offhand with it though. Something was up with Lily and she was going to find out. She had a feeling Lily had gone to James' house so she decided to go over there, she prayed that she wouldn't bump into Sirius. She wasn't able to even think about seeing him.
She got to the house fairly quickly hoping to maybe catch Lily going inside. When she got there and there was no sign she went in without knocking. Quietly she crept through the house into the basement to see if they were there. She thought it was empty until she heard a murmur in the corner of the room where a sofa was. She looked over and Lily was snuggled up to James kissing him on the cheek and giggling. Cressida stood for a moment watching not believing it. Then she walked straight over and made Lily and James jump from the love hazed stupor.
"Cressida!" Lily exclaimed jumping up from her seat in James' lap.
"How could you be so stupid Lily?" Cressida said glaring angrily at her best friend.
"What?" Lily said shocked.
"You heard. How could you fall for any of the crap he gives you? They're just the same. Both of them. He'll do what he did." Cressida said her voice braking with a mixture of anger, disbelief and grief.
"What are you talking about Cressida? I'm sorry I didn't tell you about James and me but I didn't want to be hurt." Lily said sadly watching her friend.
"You didn't want to hurt me! I am the one not wanting you to get hurt. He will just leave you Lily, they all do. How could you be so stupid?" Cressida said running her hands roughly through her hair and shaking her head as though convincing herself of what she was saying.
"Cressida, calm down. Its fine, James won't hurt me," Lily said trying to calm her friend down. Cressida was obviously distressed. James all this time had remained sitting looking with concern at Cressida. He knew, she was meaning herself, she didn't think Lily was so stupid. She thought she, herself, was. James stood and came up behind Lily.
"Cressida I am not going to hurt Lily, I love her." Lily turned at this shocked. But this wasn't the time.
"Those are just words. Words mean shit when you can ignore them and go out and break her heart anyway." Cressida was rocking back and forward on her feet. As though trying to keep her balance. Her attention was suddenly distracted from Lily and James to a figure standing in the doorway. Obviously he had been standing there a while listening. Cressida looked sharply at her friend.
"Do what you want, just don't come running to me. They're the same Lily. Exactly the same. You'll see." Then she ran straight up the stairs and out the house.
"That was about more than just you and me I am thinking," James said quietly to Lily.
"Should I go after her?" Lily asked.
"No." Sirius' voice spoke up from his place by the stairs. "I think I need to face this one." Then he walked up the stairs with an exact idea of where Cressida would be. He knew he had done it this time.
Cressida ran as fast as she could to the first place she could think of. When she reached there she collapsed in the swing of the playground. She had been there a few times this summer. Tears were freely running down her face she wiped them away furious with herself. She was so stupid. She knew, every knew. She was stupid to think he would stay with her after he got what he wanted.
Her feet dragged helplessly in the sand under the swings. Her hair flying behind her as wind swept past her. She hung her head going off into a daze. She was only awoken by someone's feet appearing in front of hers.
"I don't need this right now Siri," The softness of her voice shocked him and the fact she used her pet name for him shocked him even more.
"We need to do this Cress'. It's gone too far. I hurt you so much. It kills me to see you like this." Sirius sat on the swing next to her and swung a bit before speaking.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I know its not much but I truly am. I did love you. Always will. But I know this will never happen. But just know. It wasn't you, you were perfect. It was always me. Always. There's something wrong with me. I'm broken. I always do the wrong thing, even if I know its wrong. I just wanted to say it." Sirius stopped and got up. He walked away from the park. But Cressida stood suddenly.
"Siri'" she said.
"Yeah," he said turning.
"Thanks," she said. He smiled slightly then he carried on walking.
