Don't own InuYasha, and it's not like I'll actually own him when all I want is Sesshomaru.
Through the Well
By Miztikal-Dragon
Chapter Thirty-four: A push in the right direction.
After Inuyasha left Sango he leaped into the sky. He didn't know where he was going, but he needed a place that he could sit down and think. The sun had set rather quickly this night, and the stars were covered by the thick fog like clouds that blocked the moon and everything in its atmosphere. It smelled like rain and a cold breeze blew through the trees.
He didn't know how long he was running for, until he came to a cliff that over looked the rivers. The same cliff that Kagome jumped off of to get away from the wolf youkai that was Koga. The Inu-hanyou sat on the edge of the cliff, his legs from the knees down dangling off the edge. His arms held him up in a sitting position, as his nail like claws dug into the hard ground.
Sighing heavily, he looked up into the clouds. They silently drifted following the north wind, it seemed so peaceful. Soon tiny sprinkles of rain dropped onto his face. It was warm and caused the hanyou to shiver slightly. As he sat there, the rain fell harder and in enormous droplets.
'How can I treat her like crap?' He asked himself, 'Has she not been through enough already? It wasn't her fault that Naraku used her as one of his puppets. Was it necessary to throw it back up in her face? Dammit! Why am I so fucking arrogant? I am the one who transformed into a full-blooded demon! I'm the one who attacked Miroku, then Sango, and went after Kagome's blood! I'm the one who tried to keep her here, even if it wasn't for the best!'
'This is all my fault, I shouldn't have let the monk and demon slayer sucker me into playing 'tag' with them the night before she showed up. No, I can't say that because then that snake youkai or something else may have killed her and then I may have never found happiness, even if only for a brief period of time.'
Minutes went by like seconds and the rain fell down onto the ground like sheets. Inuyasha still didn't move from his spot. His eyes drooped down as he gazed upon the river where he had thought he'd lost Kagome once.
His mother had told him once before she died, was to "Always keep an eye on the side of the river bend that seems the most calm. Because you may not see the strong current underneath it that will surely catch your body and steal your very soul." At first he thought that was nothing but nonsense, just a parental gibberish that adults say to keep their children cooped up and afraid, but boy was he wrong and his mother right.
Metaphorically, Inuyasha had jumped into the quiet and clear waters of what he thought was love. He had stepped directly into the current of mistrust and insecurity underneath the surface.
'I get so close to showing her how I care for her, so close to telling her,' He told himself, 'but then something happens! And it's always something so damn dramatic! Why can't people just wait! Just a few moments! Why does everything in this whole world have to be against the love that I want to show Kagome? It is so hard to make her understand how and why I act the way I do? This is nothing but a bunch of bullshit! The universe is nothing but my hell! Why can't I ever win the war?' "I just want to be happy! Dammit to hell! I just want to be loved!"
Inuyasha hadn't realized that he had said the last part out loud, but he could feel the tiny pea-sized hail the seemed to be hitting him on purpose, as if they had a mind a mind of their own. He grunted as they hit harder and harder each second, bruising the tough skin of his body.
Slowly he got up on his feet and ran back to the village, not noticing that it had suddenly stopped hailing, in fact, the clouds had instantly disappeared exposing the waning crescent of the moon and all the twinkling stars the glistened brightly in the inky blackness that was the night sky.
Out of the trees came a heavy sigh and a rather small creature crept out from the forest. He seated himself on the edge of the cliff, his bright green eyes could barely see the hanyou scurrying back to the village, but it made him smile as he gazed up into the cloudless sky.
"I may not have lived long enough to aide Inuyasha and the rest of them in the fight against Naraku, because he got me before anyone else could save me. But I can help the stupid jerk with Kagome. Father, thank you for help, I couldn't have made it seem anymore real and life like without your assistance." He said, "My spirit's at rest and I'm ready to join you and mom. Now we can be a happy family again, no set backs, no regrets..."
And with that, the tiny kitsune turned into bright blue flames and disappeared into the heavens. Shippo was getting what he wanted the most, to be with his family. No longer would his spirit wander, he tried giving Inuyasha a push in the right direction, and hopefully the ill-tempered and arrogant hanyou would catch the obvious hint and find the happy without messing it up one way or another on accident.
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Inuyasha slowed down to a dead walk as he entered the village, for some reason all of his energy was drained from his body and he was beyond tired. His feet dragged into the dirt and he could barely find the strength to keep his eyes open.
By the time he finally made it to Kaede's hut, it was almost dawn and the priestess would be waking up soon. He grunted as he stubbed his toes, he hadn't the mental capability to comprehend what he saw as he walked into the room which Kagome was. But to his left was a lecherous monk named Miroku wrapped up in a comfortable blanket with his arm lazily draped over a smiling and sleeping peacefully demon slayer named Sango. to his right there slept a de-transformed Kirara in one of Kaede's large soup bowls, the cat youkai was half in, half out of it and if you listened carefully, Kirara was snoring.
Inuyasha being the hanyou he is when he's been running on empty, dismissed the scene and went into the dark room. He could make out Kagome's sleeping figure, huddled up against the corner and he slowly inched closer to her. Unfortunately, before he could reach her, his legs gave out and he crashed onto the hard surface. He looked up at her and blinked, soon after that sleep claimed him.
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Kagome was scared awake by the thump sound that Inuyasha made when his body his the ground. She opened her eyes and glanced around the room. At first, she saw nothing until her eyes caught the flicker of silver in the morning sunlight. She could hear his deep and heavy breathing, the hanyou wasn't the far away from where she currently sat.
Her legs were numb and her body was hot from the blanket that somewhat covered her. Kagome's head hurt from being mad and upset, for crying for probably hours. She was still saddened that Inuyasha felt like he could barely trust her, but who could blame him?
Watching him, Kagome sat there still in the corner, her hands wrapped around her knees and her eyes fixated on the sleeping hanyou.
'I still think he looks absolutely gorgeous when he sleeps, and probably even a little innocent...just a little.' She thought.
Time seemed to have stopped and Inuyasha curled up into a ball, she had to admit it had eerily grown cold. She watched as he barely began to shiver and she felt bad for him. Kagome slowly crawled over to Inuyasha and covered him up with her blanket.
Looking at his face, she became lost in a trance, she couldn't be mad at him, couldn't hate him, the only thing she would be was longing for him to hold her once more as he slept. For the gentle caress of her arm or any other little show of affection from him.
She was about to go back to the corner, when she heard him groan in his sleep. 'He must be having a bad dream or something.' she thought as she sat Indian-style next to his head. Insecurely she touched his cheek and she listened to him whimper.
"Shhh," She coed caressing Inuyasha's cheek softly, "It's okay, shhh"
The hanyou instantly quieted down and she removed her hand only to have Inuyasha grab it. She gasped, but stared into his open and confused amber eyes.
"Ka-Kagome?" He breathed heavily, "Don't be mad at me, I didn't mean it."
She smiled, "It's okay, I forgive you."
Thinking about something, Kagome scooted herself closer to Inuyasha's head and placed it in her lap and began to rub his ears softly.
"...Kagommm..." He groaned drifting back off into a peaceful sleep while emitting off a purr like growl deep inside his chest.
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