Pan

DISCALIMER: I am not J.M.Barrie, I am not the guy who wrote the movie, and guess what – I'm not Peter Pan either!

SUMMARY: After she left Pan hated Wendy Darling most of all. The girl who had enchanted him, who had insulted him, the girl who had killed him. (Metaphorically of course!)


Chapter 3


"Some could not like nor change the young and mourn for

Some wounded myth that once made children good,

Some lost world they never understood.

Some saw too clearly all that man was born for." W.H. Auden


Pan reached out and embraced the memory of Hook, relishing the release, the ability to forget everything when he concentrated on hate. Hatred of everything; hatred of everyone; self hatred. He felt it all. When he was angry at the world he could no longer remember the personal injustices against him, everything became a big injustice, a giant immeasurable certain thing to hate and be hated by.

One day Pan stood on the deck of his ship, the pirates avoided him, focusing instead on a conversation about how their esteemed Captain had come back from the dead. Pan would have said that he neither noticed nor cared the pirates attitude to him but a small part of him twinges whenever one of the men look at him in hopeless fear.

A larger part of him ignored that the hope for friendship still existed.

He looked at the horizon, seeing the icy seas and grey sky. Nothing was colourful anymore, the world once again reflected Peter Pan's emotions. His cold blue eyes scanned the island of Neverland and widened slightly. Colour? Something stirred in Pan's chest as he spotted the pricks of red, the flashes of yellow, the waves of green. Even Neverland could cope without him, had forgotten him.

A little more of Pan died.

He saw a flash in the sky and drawing out his telescope he searched the mellowing grey. A small boy was soaring through the air, a little sparkling light bobbing next to him as the child laughed happily, something Pan hadn't done in a long time. Tink had found a new boy.

The boy flew over to the ship and Pan did not shout, did not tell the pirates, he simply watched the boy fly closer.

"Captain Hook!" He yelled, his voice high and fun-filled,

"Boy." Pan said loudly, attracting the attention of the pirates.

"Wonderful boy!" The boy laughed from the air, Peter remembered saying the same words. He looked at Tink beside the boy but she did not appear to recognise him. She no longer thought of the little boy she almost died for.

"Wonderful boy?" Panr queried, smirking slightly, "What is your name, wonderful boy?" he mimicked.

"Peter!" He shouted happily, do you not know me Captain Hook?" Peter hid his shock, Neverland hadn't just forgotten him, it'd replaced him.

"Aye, Peter Pan, I know you!"

"Shall we fire on him Captain?" Smee said quietly near Pan's ear. Pan barely even considered, instead his voice lost the curious tone and became rough and bloodthirsty.

"FIRE!" A cannonball rocketed towards the young boy who span out of the way, Pan did not long to fly anymore, but he resented the boy who still had happy thoughts enough to fly without effort, without thought. Peter knew what would happen to this boy, this boy would end up like him, forgotten, old and alone. He opened his mouth to shout this to the boy, wishing him to fall from the air and hit the sea, but he closed his mouth and remained silent. Maybe it would be different this time. Maybe Wendy would not leave, maybe this Peter would not be afraid to go with her. A small part of Pan did not want to destroy the spark of innocence which had brought Neverland back to life, that didn't mean he would let the boy know this though. "RELOAD!"

The boy span away laughing and sped back towards the island. Pan watched him go, caught for the first time in a long time in memories of the past. A girl, a girl with beautiful eyes and a rosebud mouth smiled at him, chasing the Lost Boys with medicine. Peter thought of Curly, Nibs, Slightly, the twins and all the Lost Boys who'd been there before and would apparently be there again. He alone remembered them. They too had been replaced, and realising this for a second Peter did not feel so alone.


A/N: I did say that Peter would return to Neverland, but I doubt many of you thought it would be like that! Well maybe you did…but still. Anyway I am completely overwhelmed by the reviews I've received, 14! 14! Wow, I'm feeling special now. Anyway, I did promise to read all your stories if you reviewed, and I am getting around to it. Unfortunately there were a few of you guys I couldn't review because I hadn't got a clue what it was you were writing about (that's my fault not yours!) However if you have written any HP fanfiction, Panfiction or possibly any other well known books or movie fanfictions please tell me: I'm desperate for something to read.

Right, now that's explained. Thank-you to everyone who reviewed, I will thank you individually at the end of this fic unless I think of something vitally important to tell you re your review!

Also I have come up with an interesting theory about the changes of weather on Neverland, however I have already written a very long authors note so if you want to hear it tell me in the review and I might put it at the bottom of the next chapter.

SO once again hit that little review button, you know you want to.

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