§The Cause Of My Sadness§
By Lil' Kitten
Sarias's PoV
Once I thought Link saw me as something more than a friend, but I realized it was my imagination making me see what my heart longed for. I realized I never was in his heart, at least not in the way I wanted to. It is clear to me now that I will never have him by my side, nor his heart.
It hurts a lot knowing this, but it's better, so much better, to know that now, before I looked at myself, my past, my present, just every thing about me and see nothing but a fading image of what I used to be, and realize that I was the one that caused all that in the first place because if I went on with how I was my depression would have grown because of a simple misapprehension.
Every thing that happens is for the best… I realized once more how truthful that statement is because if I didn't give all this a thought I could have got hurt all by myself.
It hurt a lot to realize that he didn't love me, but it also made me re-think how I feel about him and yes I love him but I'm not so selfish to want him to be by my side if he doesn't feels the same way and if it means that he wouldn't be happy with me.
I really want him to be happy even if it means my unhappiness. He's the most important person in my life and the way he feels is the only thing that matters to me… if he's happy then I'm happy… but if he's sad I'm the most sad person ever because I just can't stand to see him like that.
I also know that the pain I felt will be nothing compared to the one I'll feel if the one he loves is not the one for him and makes him suffer because that will make my heart break in a thousand pieces and even if she loves him back I'll feel pain because I know that I'll hope that he'll love me someday until the day she comes around is just that in this case I'll endure it because he's happy
