Disclaimer: I do not own any of the FAKE characters, but the plot is mine so don't steal it.
March 23, 2006
Ryo,
I really don't know how to start this letter, I mean it's not like your ever going to read it. I mean how could you, read it that is, there is no address to send it to. Bikky's doing well, he misses you but the worst of his grief has passed. He's been spending a lot of time with his friends and avoiding too much trouble. We still hassle each other, but not as much as we did before.
Ah hell, I know I'm not doing this right. This isn't what the Penguin meant for me to write about when she told me this might help. I just don't know what to say to you. I feel kind of stupid saying something like that, but its how I feel. You're just so far away and God I don't know. I just don't know anymore.
Since you've been gone things haven't been going so well for me. I have a new partner at work, but we're not working so well together. JJ and Drake both keep looking at me with pity in their eyes and I just can't stand it. Even the chief has been staying off my case. I'm thinking I might just quite the force, I just can't do it without you. You're what kept me sane.
Its just that every time I go into the precinct I see you there and its so hard. Its not like that at home. Here I can still feel your presence and its comforting. At the office its like I keep seeing your ghost. It also brings back that day.
I can't believe its been six months now. Six months to the day. I guess that's why I'm writing this, because this is an anniversary of the day it happened. Do you remember it? What am I saying of course you do, I wouldn't imagine it's easy to forget your own death.
I still think about it everyday. I still think that I could have prevented it from happening. God, it's all my fault.
Yours forever,
Dee
