Secrets
Seeing him still hurts, even though I've forgiven him. Maybe it's because I still have feelings for him. Maybe it's because he's always there for me when no one else is. Maybe it's because he's still desperately in love with me- yeah, that's it. It's hard, you know? I'm married to Gus, but Mallet's just there. Always. He looks out for me, makes sure I don't do anything stupid (although I always do).
I need security, and Gus gives me that- most of the time, at least. When he's not dealing with Spaulding business and such. But he'd never be unfaithful. NEVER. He loves me, truly and unconditionally, and that's the only thing that keeps me here. The only thing that keeps me from Mallet. You know what they say- "Once a cheater, always a cheater." I don't know if it's true, but I really don't wanna take any chances.
I have a life, here, with Gus. I'm not gonna do anything to jeopardize that. I've already come close, and I regret it, I think. No, of course I regret it. There I go again, second-guessing myself. It's just, well, I have two guys who love me, and would do anything for me. One is my husband, Gus, the other, my ex-husband, Mallet, who cheated on me, but is still in love with me. I really need some advice here, but I don't know where to turn. Blake? No- she can't keep a secret to save her life. Cassie? Nope- she's got too much of her own shit to deal with. The only person I can really confide in, and talk to, and absolutely know that my secret is safe is- no, stop. Don't even go there... Mallet.
