4. I just Don't Understand Man!
A/N I have fun naming my chappies…can you tell?
Now I can understand friends who wanna tell meThey think they're gonna help me, open up my eyes
But the play by play makes me wanna lose it
Everytime you do it man, it turns the knife
"Eva! Wait up!" Sirius called out to the short girl.
Eva stopped and waited for Sirius, "Hey Sirius."
Sirius caught up to Eva and they started to walk to class.
"How are you Sirius?"
"Yeah, I'm alright. What about you?"
"Yeah, okay," Eva half smiled up at the tall boy.
"You look drained," Sirius smiled down.
"Really blunt Black, really blunt," Eva half smiled.
Sirius flashed his trademark grin, "Of course."
Sirius was telling the truth the usual happy, bubbly girl looked tired and like she had stayed up at night's crying.
"It's just stress, with the exams and all, I'm fine really," Eva sounded like she was trying to convince herself more than Sirius.
"How about we skip class? We can get the notes off Remus," Sirius put his arm around the small girl.
"What about me?" Remus asked from behind the two.
"Remmy old pal! You wouldn't mind Eva and I copying down the notes that you'll take from today's lesson would you? We have er, better things to do," Sirius winked.
"Uh, no we don't. I don't mind going to class," Eva slipped out of Sirius' grasp and started off to class.
"She looks like shit," Remus muttered.
"Indeed she does, Moony, so how about those notes?" Sirius raised his eyebrows a few times.
"How about you take them and I go and see Eva?" Remus smiled.
"But, why me?"
"Because Flitwick isn't the happiest with you for destroying his feather pyramid and he loves me, so he won't mind if I don't go to class," Remus smirked at Sirius.
"Ahhh Minnie, how I love to wind her up. I'll take notes, but if I have to put up with Prongs sulking over that girl I will kill you! Deal?" Sirius put out his hand.
"Deal," Remus shook Sirius' outstretched hand.
"Don't hit on Eva," Sirius ordered.
"I'll try," Remus started to jog after Eva!
"I'm serious Lupin!" Sirius called after his friends retreating back.
"No! You're Sirius Black!"
"Oh, real mature," Sirius muttered to himself and headed to class.
"Hey Eva!" Remus called after the dark haired girl.
"Oh, hey Remus, what happened to Sirius?"
"I sent him to class," Remus slowed down to Eva's speed.
Eva laughed, "We better get there too."
"Yeah, let's not," Remus grabbed Eva's arm and led her towards the kitchens.
"Remus," Eva whined.
"Eva," Remus replied in the same tone, "We don't need to be in class, we aren't stupid."
"Really modest Lupin," Eva smiled.
"Come on," Remus let Eva go and the walked the rest of the way to the kitchen's in silence.
When they entered the kitchens the house elves swarmed Eva and Remus. They all started talking (and bowing) at once.
"Ooooh, Mr. Moony, hello, hello."
"Mr. Moony has a girl."
"A pretty girl too."
"She looks like crap."
The last comment was made by a rather ugly (even for the house elves) house elf. All the other house elves hissed at the rude house-elf.
"Kramer, shush," Remus snarled at the house-elf.
The house elf walked off, whispering 'Nasty dog, sordid.'
"Hey, can we please have some chocolate and ice-cream?" Remus asked the remaining house-elves.
"Yesh, yesh indeed you can!" a tubby elf squeaked.
"Come sit over here," Remus led Eva and they sat on the tiled floor.
"So you care to tell me why you look like, they way you do at the moment?" Remus asked politely.
"You are so polite, so unlike Sirius," Eva laughed.
"Yeah, we have our differences…and our similarities," Remus smiled, "But we aren't talking about me. You. What's been going on?"
"I'm not going to try and stop myself, so here I go. It's Lily, I can't concentrate. I can't sleep. She isn't being herself and I think, no I know she didn't want to have sex with Diggory," Eva took a deep breath and their ice-cream's arrived.
"Cheers," Remus nodded to the house-elves that brought it over.
Eva smiled and started to eat.
"How do you know that?" Remus asked after a moments silence.
"She told me before that party that she loved James and wanted to be with him forever, and that she was ready," Eva stared at her ice-cream.
"Then why? Why Diggory?" Remus asked.
"You know as much as me. What really gets me is that she hated Diggory, hated with a passion," Eva said astoundingly.
"Maybe he drugged her?" Remus suggested.
"She remembers and she isn't really hiding it," Eva sighed.
"Did she mean it when she said the things about James, did she really love him?" Remus questioned.
"Remus, you saw how she looked at him, how he looked at her, they were the golden couple," Eva clarified.
"I know, I'm just thinking here. Was Lily hiding something she didn't want James to know?"
'All these theories. I just can't believe that she would do that to James! He's just so devastated!" Eva cried.
"I know, I know, he's trying so hard to be strong, he wants her back more than anything, yet he thinks he can't forgive her," Remus finished off his ice-cream.
"And for good reason!" Eva cried and finished off her ice-cream.
The two sat in silence and thought about Lily and James.
"I know," Eva whispered.
"Know what?"
"I know why she had sex with Diggory," Eva glared at the ground.
"What? Why?"
"Blackmail."
Lily walked into The Common Room and saw James sitting on the scarlet couch ripping up photo's from their time together.
"Stop! James just stop!" Lily stormed over to the couch and picked up all the photo's, even the ripped ones, "What are you doing? Why are you doing this?" Lily asked with tears in her eyes.
"It's my way of getting over this. Us," James told the girl.
"By destroying perfectly fine pictures?" Lily shuffled through the pile.
There were pictures from the previous Christmas at James' house, in the snow, New Years, the Potter's Christmas Ball, at Hogwarts, in the Common Room with their friends and so many happy and not so happy memories.
"What did I do wrong Lily?" James spoke up, as Lily was flicking through the pictures, "Just tell me, I'll change. I thought you were happy," james rambled as tears silently made paths down James' cheeks.
"You're drunk!" Lily accused.
"No Lily, no I'm not, I shwear," James slurred.
"James, don't lie. You know you can't handle your alcohol," Lily soothed.
"Just shut up! You're the reason I'm like this! So just, just, deal it with!" James shakily stood up.
"Fine. You want to know why I wasn't happy? You made me feel like I was the only thing in the world, like everything around us, with You-Know-Who and everything. You're hiding me from the world James! And I hate it!" Lily sobbed.
"What did you want me to do?" James said exhaustedly, "I didn't want you to get hurt, Lily."
"I can look after myself James!" Lily hissed.
"So you wanted to have sex with him?" James asked with disgust.
"No James! That's not the point!" Lily cried back.
"Then what is the point Lily? I didn't want anything to happen to you Lily, I wanted you to be safe. I wouldn't be able to handle it if you died too," James half flopped, half fell down onto the couch.
Lily closed her eyes, forcing her tears to recede, "James you weren't going to lose me."
James gave Lily a floppy smile and looked Lily in the eye, "But I did Lily and that's all that matters now."
Lily stormed out of the Common Room, with tears streaming down her face and headed where she knew she could find peace- Charms class….or so she thought…
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A/N- Hey guys, this took longer than my other chapters (but faster than me usually). I don't know if I like it that much
But
Please please please (insert sexy James (Remus or Sirius…or Peter if you are that way inclined) grin here) Review
It would be muchly appreciated by….me
Lucy
