Hi there
Sorry for the long wait. I had to finish something with regards to our school project that is due this month. Being a college student is not easy you know. Anyways, here is the latest chapter and I hope you'll enjoy this one.
Sincerely,
Danielle Winters
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Sailor Moon.
Tinted with Blue
Danielle Winters
We regret something when it's already too late.
Melody of the Wind
Previously…
"I'll leave you for a moment ok? Dr. Chiba will talk to you regarding the tests. I'll be outside if you need me."
"All right." Sena said with a nod. Usagi smiled and walked across the room and pass Mamoru. Mamoru wanted to close his eyes, turn and pull Usagi for a tight embrace but his feet wouldn't obey his mind. He hear the soft "thud" of the door and he had to pull himself back to reality.
Mamoru sat in his office. He could not forget his encounter with Usagi that morning. Was the sailor scouts hiding this from him? He knows that Rei would've told him that Usagi had come back.
Of course…
Usagi won't be here for long. When Sena's operation is over, she'll go back to London and live there. The sailor scouts would've bothered to tell him this. He'll just hurt her again and hurt himself even more. He stood from his chair and decided to get some fresh air outside.
In the hospital's huge garden, Usagi is sitting while sewing a pink kimono for Sena. She promised the little girl that she'll give her a present that is related to the culture of his father (which is Shingo. Usagi's younger brother). She patiently sew the pink cloth when she heard that somebody had accidentally stepped on a small twig that snapped into pieces. The sound echoed through out the quiet garden.
She looked at the direction of the sound and saw Mamoru, standing and looking at her. She marveled at how he looks like especially when he is wearing the white coat of the doctors. Mamoru however stood there, startled and unable to move. He was not sure of what to say to her or what he should do next.
Usagi took the courage to break the awkward silence that is surrounding them. She greeted him sweetly and cheerfully but with air that she had already matured. She is no longer the loud and clumsy girl he knew, she is now a woman filled with courage and confidence.
"Konnichiwa Chiba-sensei."
"Konnichiwa. I didn't expect to see you here at the garden." Mamoru replied, trying to sound casual.
"My little niece had just fallen asleep and I thought I needed to leave her. Besides, I need some fresh air." She said back. Mamoru is already walking towards her.
"Would you mind if I sit here beside you?" Mamoru asked. He can feel his heart beating and his blood racing through his veins. His mind was not functioning well. Everything around them is blurred and only the image of the woman he loves all his life is present in his sight.
"Not at all. After all, this is a public place. Everybody should feel free to sit anywhere they want." She retorted while she diverted her attention back to her sewing.
"Makes sense…" Mamoru muttered as he sat down beside Usagi. Usagi just smiled for she had heard him.
Silence…
"I heard from the attending nurse that you are a Psychologist?" Mamoru said.
"Yes I am. I work as a Clinical Psychologist and I also teach part time in a University." Usagi replied, her eyes were focused on the pink cloth.
"That is a good profession."
"The mind of a human being is very complex and yet it is very beautiful." Usagi said while smiling at Mamoru.
"But not all people have the patience to listen to the problems of others." Mamoru retorted. "But you picked a good career. Your work fits your personality very well. You always have the patience and the heart to listen and comfort other people, even total strangers." He added while staring up at the sky.
"Thank you for the kind compliment sensei."
"I am not complementing you, I'm just stating facts here."
The breeze gently blew its way to the figure of two old lovers. Gently, the breeze brought back the melody of a forgotten song that stirred Mamoru's emotion. His heart longed to be with Usagi again but his mind wouldn't let him.
"I used to dream that when we get married, the world will crumble into pieces and that I shall die. It was really frightening especially because I dream of it every night…" Usagi said. Mamoru froze. Why does she need to tell him that story again. Again, the scene of that rainy night when he forced her out of his apartment played on his memory.
"…remember, I told you about it and I said that I don't care about those stupid dreams. I guess I was being selfish. You were right about that when you had said that." She continued. "I regretted leaving you that night. I regretted not staying outside your door. I know I could've convinced you to reconcile our relationship but I was too frail to do that. Now, we can never go back and turn the hands of time. All I can do is regret everything and try to move on. That I did.."
"You didn't do anything…" Mamoru thought. "It was all my fault and I've caused you pain. Don't say those things…Usako if only I could just embrace you right now and kiss you…you mean tha whole world to me…"
"Usa-"
"Oh look at the time, I should be going now. Nice talking to you Chiba-sensei but I have to go now."
"Tsukino-san." Mamoru called out. It pains him to call her like that.
"Hai?"
"If you were given a chance to bring back time, what particular time will you choose?" Mamoru asked. His eyes longing for an answer.
Usagi stared at Mamoru's eyes. She trying to search for answers in his eyes. She was trying to extract the feeling welling up in him. She wanted to embrace him, to lean her head on his shoulder and cry until to her heart's content.
But she can't…
She can never bring back the past.
"The time when we first met…it wasn't the ideal meeting but it felt right for me just to be with you, just to stand and argue with you. It felt so comfortable standing in front of you while I secretly gaze at your eyes. For me it was perfect."
FLASHBACK
"Hai! Ja mata ne!" Usagi replied while trying to raise her spirits up. She then walked towards the direction of the arcade and thought of a plan to discard her test paper. "Just throw it away!" her mind shouted. She crumpled her paper and threw it at her back.
Mamoru was walking just behind the blonde, he was thinking about his date with his blockmate Sauriwhen a test paper hit him straight on his face. He picked up the crumpled paper that had just fell and tried to clear the wrinkles out of it. "Tsukino Usagi! " his heart was beating so fast and his blood are rushing on his veins. It was a blessing in disguise; he'll have a chance to finally talk to her.
He walked and followed the blonde until they have reached the entrance of the arcade. Before the blond could enter, he called her attention.
"Thirty over one hundred. Tsukino Usagi." The blonde girl froze and she faced the young man reading her test paper.
"That's mine! How did you get that?" she asked while angrily
"It fell on my face Odango Atama! It hurts you know!" He retorted while removing his sunglasses.
"Odango atama!" she repeated angrily while crumpling her test paper in her hand.
"You should study hard odango!" he replied.
"Its none of your business!" She angrily snatched her test paper back, turned on her heels and headed straight for home.
Usagi bowed at him and started to walk away from him. Mamoru stood up and gatherd all the courage he has.
"Usako!" he called out. Usagi halted. Did she just heard Mamoru call her Usako? The nickname he usually uses to address her. The nickname that makes her feel special and one of a kind?
She turned and faced him.
"Did you just called me…" but before she could finish her sentence, she felt his hard yet warm body pressed againt her petite body. His arms longingly lock her in an embrace that she wanted to feel for the past 12 years. "Kami-sama if this is a dream, I don't want to wake up." She said against his chest. Tears were already flowing out of her eyes.
"I was selfish… I wanted to see you happy and safe that's why I broke up with you. I was selfish because I felt that you deserve someone much better than me. I could've stopped you at the airport but I was too stubborn. Usako, you mean the whole world to me, god I love you more than my life. If I could not turn back the hands of time then allow me to use whatever time is available for me to make up the errors I have done, to heal the wounds I have caused you." He said while he buried his face to her shoulders.
"You have all the time I have…" she said back and embraced him tighter. "I don't want you to let go of me…"
"And I don't want you to let go of me either…" Mamoru said as tears began to flow out of his eyes.
In a small room in the 7th floor of the hospital, a young girl was sitting on her bed patiently waiting for her aunt to come back. On her lap, a small star shaped clock sat and it plays a soft music that lulled two lovers to each other's arms. Her aunt owned it and she lend it to her to give her courage for her operation. Her aunt said to her…
A handsome prince who fell in love with a princess owned once this little clock. But their love was a forbidden one. This clock witnessed all the trials and the pains the two lovers had. Someday, this tune will lead them back together. When you are lonely, just open this clock and let the tune lulled you to sleep. This will give you courage while you help the two lovers find each other.
She smiled and look up at the blue sky. Somehow, she felt that the prince and the princess had found each other. Under the blue sky, near the blue waters…ah! What a wonderful place to meet again; A place where everything is tinted with blue.
Blue…the symbol of peace and clarity…
THE END
Well that's the end of my story. I hope you'll not be disappointed with the ending. I'll try my best to make an epilogue. Please send me your reviews ok? I'll be waiting for them.
Sincerely,
Danielle Winters
