Ok I totally forgot about the disclamers.. I don't own anyone from the OC.. sorry

This is co-written by Ally :)

"So tell me more about your husband Sandy." said Charlotte as they were walking around the garden after one of their group meetings.

"We've had our share of problems this past year but he's supportive. He tries hard." said Kirsten.

"It seems like he really loves you."

"Yeah he does. That love was questioned quite a bit though."

"What happened?"

"Well its a long story really."

"We've got time." said Charlotte as she chuckled.

Kirsten laughed and then became serious as she started to tell Charlotte everything that was wrong with her marriage to Sandy. Starting from when the boys ran away, to the whole thing with her dad, to Rebecca showing up again, Carter, and then ending with her dad's death which sent her here.

"Wow seems you have had your share of hardships." Charlotte said. "Have you called them yet?"

"No. I really don't know what I would say to him."

"What about your boys have you talked to them yet?"

"No. I really hurt them, and as much as I hate to say it, I didn't really think of them through this whole thing." Kirsten paused. "What kind of mother am I."

"I'm sure your a good mom, don't doubt yourself so much."

"Poor Ryan I'm going to have to think of something huge to regain his trust. I promised him when we adopted him that this family wouldn't be anything like his old one. Then I lashed out at him during the intervention and I ended up in rehab. I couldn't even promise him a better start."

"But look at how much he's grown since you adopted him. I'm sure he will forgive you."

"I hope so."

"Well instead of beating yourself up wondering, CALL THEM." Charlotte said getting her point across. "See how their all doing. Your boys and your husband."

"Yeah I probably should call them. I'll call them tonight." said Kirsten trying to get out of the awkwardness of the situation

"No Kirsten go call them now."

"Fine. You sure you don't mind?"

"No. Go."

"Ok, bye Charlotte. I'll see you at dinner." Kirsten said while walking back to her room.

Once there she picked up the phone scared at what was going to happen. She hadn't called home yet so she wasn't sure who would be upset with her and who would just be happy she finally called. She dialed the number and listened as it rang.

Ryan picked up the phone. "Hello?"

"Hi. It's me."

"Kirsten? Hi how are you?"

"I'm ok. It's tough." she paused. "Look Ryan I'm really sorry for everything I said to you at the intervention."

"It's ok Kirsten. I'm just happy that your getting help."

"No it's not ok Ryan. I promised that when you became part of our family things would be different, and I didn't keep that promise."

"Kirsten you were more of a mom then my real mom ever was. Do you want to talk to Seth?"

"Yeah that would be great. Ryan I love you."

Ryan hesitated, not sure what to say back, but finally he said "Love you too Kirsten. Bye."

"Bye." In the background Kirsten could hear Ryan telling Seth that his mom was on the phone. SHe also heard Seth when he said that he doesn't want to talk to her. Finally after Ryan persuading Seth to talk to his mom Seth picked up the phone. "Hey sweetie." she said quietly.

"How's rehab?" asked Seth coldly.

"It's tough. How are you?"

"Well how would you be when everyone at school knows that your mom's a drunk." Seth said bluntly.

Kirsten didn't know what to say to that, Seths words stung her.

"You know mom, your such a hypocrite. How can you tell us over and over to never drink and drive, preach about how bad it is, and then turn around and do it yourself?" Seth yelled at her. "You know I really don't want to talk to you." He said as he hung up the phone.

Kirsten's eyes filled with tears as she looked at the phone listening to the dial tone. Yep it's official her son hated her.