Hi! This is my first longstory in english so so please forgive me for my grammar and spelling. I hope I will get some reviews... I have quite some plans for this story and plenty of time to write it. So, I hope you will enjoy it! I dont own Sailor Moon etc... and so on.

All I Ever Wanted

Chapter 1: The abduction

It was a wasteland, with nothing to offer but despair and hunger. Dried and twisted trees made the landscape look dead. No sun reached this land, and still it was too dry for anyone's good. But there was life. Poisonous creatures and insects made the land alive, even if it got unnoticed by the blind ones that did not look deeper.

In this unfriendly land, a great warrior stood unfazed by it. Her cold and emotionless eye was starring into the horizon, as she was deeply lost in thought. Her impressive glaive glimmered slightly in red, despite the fact that no sun reached its metal. Suddenly, she moved. Gracefully and fast she leapt into the air.

And landed as gracefully. She slowly turned towards the spot she had stood on and starred at it. No emotion could be read from her face. With a quick motion she spun the glaive and held it out before her. She sighed and raised her glaive and held it over the spot. And with a mighty voice she called out into the silent lands.

"The land shall once again be fruitful, the water shall once again return to these lands and the power shall be restored. For I, The messiah of silence, commands it. Rise now, palace of Saturn, Titan!"

The whole planet seemed to shake as a mighty palace rose from the ground. And then, it was still. It had lasted only for a couple of seconds. Saturn gazed up and took it all in. Yes, she did remember it. It had been and still was the opposite to the moon palace, using black, grey and red colours making it look magnificent.

A high wall surrounded the palace, making it impossible for strangers or enemies to enter without permission. The warrior of Saturn walked closer and put her hand on the wall. Images and statues were skilfully carved into it and made seem alive. She gazed at a tree that was carved in the wall, admiring the beauty of it for awhile.

And then she closed her eyes and concentrated on her power, her planet. The wall opened itself up and she stepped inside. It closed up behind her and she smiled. Before her laid the beautiful garden, untouched by the time it had been hidden. A way that went straight to the palace seemed like a long road, for the garden was that huge.

She stepped to the side of the way and bent down to pick a flower from the blue bush. It was a black flower, soft as silk and as beautiful as a rose, despite that it looked more like a tulip. She stood up and put it in her hair. The smell made her feel warm with memories of a long forgotten past, which she could remember glimpses of.

She began to walk the long way that was covered in marble, her mind racing with mixed feelings. She stopped at a pond with water, where a statue of a woman poured water into it from a long shaped vase. She was gazing up at herself from the blank water surface and she studied herself.

A pale seventeen year old looking warrior in a violet eternal suit was all that she could see. She was somewhat surprised that she still looked like she was seventeen years, despite the fact that she had lived more than a thousand years. But she did not look weak; all the daily training had made her look stronger.

A cold shiver ran down her spine and she spun around. Her power reached out, but she could not feel anyone. And then she realised that it was not a warning, it was a call to her. That she should return to earth. But she didn't move. She had left earth on Serenitys order, and all because of Usagis birth. But that was years ago, and now it could only mean one thing. Her best friend was back from the past.

Hurt flashed on her face and she sank down on the marble. The glaive clattered when it fell on the ground. She didn't feel the cold surface, her mind was racing. She had been ordered away, isolated from the others and all because of her best friend. It was truly ironic. For years she had been forced to survive on Saturn, barely surviving the hunger or the stings of the poisonous creatures she had been forced to eat.

Once again she could feel the cold shiver, and yet again she didn't move. And why would she? No one had come, no one had visited her. Only the outers with the help of Pluto had come to visit her as often as they could. But they didn't know how hard she had lived, for she had not told them.

Cause if she had, Haruka would have had Serenitys head. They had been forbidden to visit her, why she didn't know. But they had kept her sane, she hadn't lost her mind completely. Hours of daily training… For years she had explored her power, and searched for the palace. The palace called Titan, her own creation from the past.

Another shiver ran down her spine. Yes, she had searched for so many years and now she had finally found it. She was one step from her memories, and the key to access her absolute power. It was frustrating, she knew that she was close. She closed her fist and hit the ground. She had searched the whole damn planet after the Titan palace….

She could sense a power racing towards her. But she didn't care. All the anger suddenly exploded within her. All anger that she had repressed all those years burst out and she screamed for all that she was worth. Pain, anger, frustration, confusion… By the time her body was lying limp on the marble and her mouth still screaming out in silence, the senshi of time finally moved.

Her heart was aching to se her beloved daughter in such a state, and felt even worse when she thought about was she was going to ask off her. She gently bent down and stroked away some hair out of Hotarus face. Setsuna swallowed hard and stood up. She was near tears now, the pain that filled the girl was overwhelming her.

"I'm sorry Hotaru. I'm so sorry. But I have to bring you back. I'm so sorry."

Her voice cracked and the senshi of destruction looked up into Plutos face. Her eyes were filled with anger and to her fear, hate. Pluto then looked down in shame, and tears fell out of her eyes. She cried for Saturn, herself and her destiny.

"I'm not proud of this, nor will I ever be. I can feel your pain."

Hotaru grabbed her glaive and stroked it slowly. She nodded to herself.

"I now and I are sorry for it. You are after all, one of the most powerful senshi. And I promise you that one day, I will free you."

Setsuna gasped. What was she saying? A cold shiver down her spine made her mind clear and she could not dwell on Hotarus words for now. She took a step back and stretched out her hand towards Saturn.

"Let's do this together and be strong for one and other."

Hotaru nodded and stood up. Determination and anger still emitted from her, but she possessed elegance and strength and truly looked like the queen she was. And when Pluto grabbed her hand, she felt proud over the girl she could call her daughter.

Setsuna raised her staff and in a flash of light they appeared in the hall of the crystal moon palace. The hall was empty and it made the pair feel more comfortable for the moment. Pluto sighed and looked around again to make sure that no one was around.

"I have no idea why, but it seems like she has called every senshi to the throne room…"

Hotaru gazed at the sides of the rooms and gasped when she saw statues of the senshi, standing on each side of the hall. The outers on one side and the inners on the other. She walked to the statue that was supposed to look like her. A smiling child. She grimaced at the statue and raised her glaive.

In a swift movement, the statue was cut in half. She laughed.

"I wonder what Serenity will expect to se when she meets my gaze. The foolishness of the innocent child I once were before she took it away perhaps?"

She laughed again. Pluto shake her head in sadness.

"We must meet up with the others, it could really be something serious…."

Nothing was said as they walked side by side toward the throne room. However, Pluto could feel the anger once again wash over Hotaru and she felt a pang of fear. When the doors to the throne room were in sight, Hotaru stopped Setsuna.

"Wait."

She took some steps forward and violently swung her glaive as she aimed for the door. The doors exploded inwards and the anger that was boiling inside her grew. Screams were heard and she smirked a little.

"Let's go."

They walked inside. Mars was standing in front of Serenity, who was standing in front of Usagi. The rest of them were lying on the floor. Hotaru gritted her teeth and screamed.

"So now it's ok for me to come back? So I can finally sleep on a real bed? So I can eat descent food that doesn't sting and poison you! SO I CAN PROTECT YOUR ROYAL ASS?"

Every senshi in the room was dumbfounded and just starred back at her. Hotaru was to angry to notice Michiru cry and Haruka clenching her fists in anger. She just kept screaming her lungs out.

"I HAVE BEEN LONELY FOR I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG AND NOW I CAN FINALLY COME BACK AND WHAT? EXPECT ME TO BE A GOOD LITTLE GIRL LIKE THAT FUCKING STATUE?"

Serenity stepped forward. She seemed calm on the outside, but inside her feelings was racing. She needed to be cool, and handle this like a queen. She had done the right thing, and she had to make Hotaru understand it.

"Hotaru, you have to understand… This was necessary or the future would have never been. Everything would have changed…"

That was it. Hotaru smashed the bottom of the staff on the floor. All the glass in the room shattered and Serenity took a step back. Her eyes were suddenly filled with fear.

"So, you even let your daughter suffer? You let her become black lady despite that you could have prevented it? We could have stopped it! The future might have been even better but no, you were a coward and let it happened!"

Serenity was taken back by the comment and put a hand over her mouth. Endymion stepped up beside his wife and put an arm around her.

"How can you say such a thing Hotaru? Serenity loves her daughter and you now it."

A warm hand grabbed Hotarus shoulder and a soft energy reached her. She didn't recognise it. Slowly she turned her head and gazed up into a pair of golden eyes. She blinked confused.

"Helios…"

He held her in his arms and she collapsed in his arms, crying violently. Serenity sighed in relief and glanced at her husband, then at the outer senshi. Pluto had joined Haruka and Michiru, and Haruka were gesturing violently in the air. Michiru nodded and seemed to agree on what Haruka was saying. Pluto starred darkly at them and she nodded also.

"Why?"

Every one turned their heads towards Hotaru, who was crying into Helios shoulder.

"Why did you ask me to come back?"

Helios seemed to stiff for a moment, before the queen answered.

"Helios and Usagi will marry soon, and she wanted you to be her…"

"Enough."

Helios voice suddenly held a great power and everybody starred at him. He lifted up Hotaru and used his power to make her go to sleep.

"She has been through enough for now. She must rest. With so much anger inside, I'm afraid that it will take awhile to forgive you. If she forgives you. Haruka, Michiru and Setsuna, would you like to accompany me to Hotarus quarters?"

They all nodded and left the room, all sending angry glances at Serenity. She sank down on the floor and looked down in shame. Endymion felt a sting in his heart as he watched his wife begin to cry.

"What have I done?"

He gently placed her on the bed and starred at her for a moment. She was sleeping peacefully and he could feel no anger from her now, only calm soothing energy. Her eternal sailor fuku was torn and dirty, and some spots on it looked like dried blood. Even her boots were not whole, and there was a long scratch on her left boot.

"She must have been wounded a lot, thank god that she had her healing ability or she wouldn't have survived…"

The outer senshis gazes were on him, and he began to feel slightly uneasy. He glanced to his side and saw straight into Plutos eyes. She seemed to look at him with a new somewhat surprised look. And then it changed. And he didn't like it. Her gaze made him nervous. Helios broke away from her gaze and swallowed.

"She seems to be fine, at least physically."

Haruka began to wander back and forth in the room with a murderous look. Michiru were just gazing out the window and seemed to be in deep thought.

"I have always liked Serenity… But this… I didn't think that she of all people could do that. It's fucking cruel! And to think that she only did it to keep a future we knew would be terrible…"

Michiru suddenly turned from the window and starred at Haruka who stopped talking. Her eyes were red and tears were running down her cheeks and down on her marine colored dress. Haruka felt a sting in her heart at the sight of her beloved in tears.

"No, Haruka… We can't blame Serenity for all of it. She is responsibly for it yes… But we didn't protest. Aren't we the cowards? I'm almost as angry on myself…."

Helios looked down. She was right, but at the same time, what could they have done?

"We are all powerless against Serenity, both in power and will."

They turned to look at him.

"You, the senshi and I have all sworn to protect and follow orders under Serenity. We are all bounded to her. But not Hotaru. Yes, perhaps she swore it in her past life but if she did, it doesn't matter now. She must swear a new oath. But that it's not likely to happen now, is it? And actually I think she deserves it. Freedom."

A gasp from the senshi of time made everyone turn to her. She sank down on a chair and began to cry. A tiny tear fell from her eye.

/… "I now and I are sorry for it. You are after all, one of the most powerful senshi. And I promise you that one day, I will free you." …/

"Oh, my little firefly… That was what you meant."

A hand on her shoulder made her look up. The warm gaze of Helios meet hers and she smiled.

"I'm fine. I just remembered something beautiful…"

He seemed confused but she was glad that he didn't say anything. She rose and walked to Hotaru. Her face was so beautiful and calm when she was sleeping. Setsuna held her staff over Hotaru and concentrated. Her clothes changed and she was now sleeping in a simple but beautiful violet dress.

"I hope she likes the dress, or I guess she will have a fit."

Helios laughed and soon they were all laughing, trying to bring back the happiness to the room. It soon stopped and they looked at each other.

"For now, we can't do a thing. We will discuss it later when Hotaru feels better."

They all nodded and Setsuna turned to Helios.

"Helios?"

He looked up from Hotarus sleeping form and meet Setsunas gaze. Once again it made him feel… Nervous...

"Will you please show me were Usagi is?"

He blinked, confused for a moment and then shaked his head. He had too much on his mind.

"It would be an honor."

They left the room and when the door closed a smiling Michiru meet Harukas gaze. Haruka nodded and grinned.

"The future will be much more interesting now, that's for certain. And if Serenity does one more thing… I'll have her head."

Michiru put her hand over Harukas mouth.

"Hush. Don't talk about it when I'm finally in a good mood. Let's go for a walk now. I think it's best if she wakes up alone."

She nodded and the pair walked out of the room, leaving the messiah of silence in a world of dreams and happiness.

A cold wind swept over the body lying on the bed. Hotaru opened her eyes and blinked. She was feeling weird; this wasn't how she used to feel after she had slept. She sat up on the bed and rubbed her eyes. Then it hit her. She had forgotten how it felt to sleep in a real bed. She grabbed the sheets with her hands and held on so hard she could.

The anger began to pulsate inside of her but not as much as before. Then she remembered. And let go off the sheets. Her mind was empty, she was just a shell. An empty shell. She starred at herself in the golden mirror. She was thinner than before, how long had she slept? On a table near the bed she could se flowers.

Hotaru couldn't help but smile as she recognised them. Usagi had given her pink roses, Haruka stormflowers, Michiru yellow tulips, Setsuna black roses and… Who had given her those? One single white flower, with gold stripes on its leaves stood out beautifully among the flowers. Then it hit her. Helios had given her a flower, and she was sure that he had picked it in Elysion.

There were five people that cared about her, and it made her feel warm inside. They liked her for who she was. She looked back at the mirror and realised that she was not wearing her sailor fuku anymore. The violet silky dress wasn't perhaps her first choice, but she was still happy for it. She hadn't been dressed like this for years. The anger welled up again and she suppressed it quickly.

A knock on the door made her jump into a fighting stance without thinking. Usagi peeked in and a bright smile made Hotaru realise that she still was in a fighting stance. She dropped it and blushed. Usagi laughed and closed the door.

"It's a great day, isn't it?"

Hotaru absently looked out the window. Yes, perhaps the weather was great today…

"I suppose so."

She sat down on the bed. Usagi stroked some pink hair out of her face and sat down next to Hotaru.

"I'm sorry."

Hotaru looked up. Her best friend was looking down, shame radiating from her.

"For what?"

She bit her lip.

"It's my fault that… That mother did what she did. I was so angry at her first that I literally tore down the palace. But then I realised that… It was all because of me. Because of me you have suffered…"

Tears began streaming down her face. Hotaru didn't look at her, but put a hand on her shoulder.

"It's not your fault. You have nothing to be sorry for, let's not talk about it. You are going to be married soon, and I don't want to spoil your wedding or your honeymoon."

Despite her empty voice, she managed a smile for her pink haired friend. Soon they were talking about everything they could think of and Hotaru found herself having a good time. It felt somewhat weird, but she quickly got used to it. And soon, their talk turned into weddingplans…

"Do I have to have a dress?"

Usagi grinned at her.

"Yes, and it must be pink…"

Horrified, Hotaru gasped.

"Oh no, not pink!"

They both laughed.

"Ok, I'm not going to force pink on you, but you at least have to have a dress!"

She stud up and began dancing around.

"I can survive that."

Usagi kept dancing and glided over the floor.

"I'm going to dance with him the whole evening, after I had my share of the cake of course."

She got a dreamy expression.

"It's going to be huge."

Hotaru grinned.

"The cake?"

Noticing the sarcasm from her friend, she stopped dancing.

"No, the whole marriage thing. And I think it's going to be wonderful!"

She laughed and sat down on the bed. There was a knock on the door before a servant appeared in the room. As all the other servants, she was dressed in a plain white dress that went down over her knees. The only difference was the pink ribbon belt that indicated that she was one of Usagis personal servants. She bowed before them.

"My princess, Lady Saturn? Dinner is to be served within a half an hour. Is there anything I could do for you?"

Usagi nodded.

"Thank you, Elima. We are perfectly fine, you can leave us."

She bowed again and left the room. Hotaru sighed.

"I… I don't want to go there."

Usagi hugged Hotaru.

"Let's go into the town! We could do some shopping, since you will need some new clothes. And, we don't have to eat here."

To Usagis relief, Hotaru agreed.

"Do you have anything I can borrow? I don't want to go off in this…"

She grabbed her dress. Usagi shaked her head in amusement.

"I can check, but I don't know… My clothes may be a size to big for you… Hey, why don't you 'make' some clothes with your power? My mom said that it's possible. And this is after all, an emergency. You can't be without clothes! Or, you just have to go out in that dress…"

Hotaru sighed and found her power. After all the training she had done, perhaps she would be able to pull it off. She saw herself in her mind, and tried to form the clothes she imagined on herself. She could se her powers meld into clothes in her mind. Without thinking, she formed clothes suitable for the Saturn surface. Black boots, suitable for a hard terrain and dark grey tight pants, a darkgrey tight shirt that went with the pants and a black belt.

"Hotaru!"

The messiah of silence blinked and looked around. Her pink haired friend looked at her with big eyes.

"You did it!"

She nodded.

"Yes, but I don't think that I could do it again… It really felt… I don't know…"

Usagi smiled.

"Hey, don't think like that! Let's go!"

Thousands of flowers in all colours and shapes made her gasp as she walked along the walk thru the garden. Being away for such a long time, one flower would have been enough but this was… There was no word for it. And she had never been that interested in flowers! Usagi ran past her and stopped when she noticed that Hotaru wasn't walking at all any more.

"Geez, it's just a couple of flowers… Come on Hotaru!"

Hotaru shaked her head and continued thru the garden. Her mind was racing, so many emotions were rumbling inside her. Anger, happiness, joy, pain, confusion… For years she had been forced to handle everything herself, growing up to fast. And now, when she had met Usagi, it was like she was living out her teens despite that she felt like an adult. It was very worrying, despite that she had a good time. How would she react in other situations?

They stopped when they reached the wall. A big bush with blue flowers covered a part of the wall and Usagi pointed at it.

"There's a hidden door in the wall there. Only I and Helios know that it exists. I used to sneak out there when I was younger."

They looked around and then went into the bush. Usagi opened the door, which were now fully visible.

"Come on. We will get out not far from the main street."

After they had slipped thru and gotten out onto the main street, Usagi pointed out a store across the street.

"That's were I bought this blue outfit. I think you would like their dark outfits…"

Hotaru looked around. Crystal Tokyo didn't look that much different than she remembered, but there were many things she did not recognise. The cars hovered a bit from the ground as they drove by, but looked very much like she remembered. Usagi interrupted her thoughts by dragging her towards what looked like a restaurant. They stopped outside as Usagi looked over the mechanical menu which floated in the air.

"Oh, they got "Eat as much as you like" today! I think you would like it… At least I do. Is it okay if we eat here?"

Hotaru nodded and smiled towards her excited friend. As usual, the girl absolutely adored food. They went in and Hotaru stopped. The restaurant was filled with people her age and Usagi beamed at her.

"I'm going to introduce you to some off my friends."

She could se many girls with pink hair, and some with blue or hairstyles like the senshi. And what surprised her was that the restaurant looked like it was expensive…

"I didn't think that teens liked this kind of style?"

Usagi laughed.

"Well, it surprised me at first too, but it's kinda ironic isn't it?"

Hotaru looked around again.

"Seems the princess is a trend?"

She stopped laughing and glared at her.

"Well, it's not fun I tell you. Why can't they just get their own styles?"

"Hey, Rabbit!"

Usagi turned and grinned when she saw who it was. A guy came walking towards them. He was dressed in black clothes, and was wearing a darkblue long coat. His very darkbrown hair matched his dark eyes and made his skin almost look pale. He wasn't gorgeous, but far from being ugly.

"What´s up? And who's the girl? Friend of yours?"

Usagi nodded.

"Yeah, that's Firefly."

She gave Hotaru a quick glance before him and Hotaru shaked hands.

"Call me Duo."

He looked her over before turning to Hotaru. As he escorted them to his table, he whispered to Usagi.

"She´s hot. Where do you dig up your friends?"

Hotaru, who heard the comment, blushed. The feelings began to swirl inside of her again but she regained control. She could handle battle, but not people! An image of Serenity suddenly floated up in her mind but she suppressed the anger. She would not make Usagi sorry. They stopped at a table in the far corner of the room. A girl with red hair and white clothes and a guy with blonde hair and grey clothes stopped talking when they arrived.

"Hey Rabbit! Who's the newcomer?"

She gesticulated towards Hotaru as she spoke.

"This is Firefly. She is my closest and most trusted friend."

The girl smiled towards Hotaru. She looked like an ordinary girl, but there was one thing that made her memorable, her striking eyes.

"I'm Cat. Nice to meet you."

Hotaru nodded her thanks and then turned to the blonde guy. He was well built and something about him made you respect him. She couldn't quite put her finger on it, but there was something else. There seemed to be a special bond between Cat and the guy. He looked at her with calm eyes.

"I'm Evan."

She nodded in respect and he seemed to appreciate it. They were both fighters and immediately got along. But what did he really fight for?

After getting some food, which felt weird because she didn't need to haunt it down, they were all talking and enjoying themselves. Hotaru slowly began to make friends with them which felt great after being so lonely. What puzzled her was that Cat from time to time seemed to send of some kind of power… Sometimes Hotaru could feel that she had some kind of power and sometimes she could almost not feel anything.

After they had finished their meal which lasted for about two hours, they left and headed down the main street to find some clothes. Usagi seemed to be exciting about something.

"So what did you think about him?"

Hotaru blinked and looked at her friend.

"Huh? Who?"

Usagi laughed.

"Duo of course! He's interested in you…"

Hotaru blushed.

"No, he's not."

Usagi shaked her head.

"Didn't you notice? He was looking at you the whole time!"

"I guess not."

Usagi suddenly stopped and put a hand on Hotarus shoulder. She smiled warmly at her friend.

"I told him we would stop by there tomorrow. I think he's okay, so I guess he would make a good boyfriend."

Hotaru blushed and smiled back. They continued and stopped at many stores and bought quite a lot of clothes. After two hours of shopping, Hotaru felt tired but excited. Usagi smiled at her friend as they stopped outside a store. All the bags were quite heavy.

"It's fun and good! You get something plus you get some workout. No wonder my mother could eat so much and still not gain weight when she was my age…"

They both sank down on a sofa that stood outside the store and looked at all the people that went by them, without knowing who they were. And soon they were talking about the restaurant they had eaten in.

"I love that place. It's called The blue leaf by the way."

"Why didn't we use our first names? We could have."

Usagi nodded.

"Yes, but it's more fun. And I don't have to give away my name in case some smartass would put two and two together."

Hotaru nodded and grabbed her bags.

"I guess we should head back now. I'm tired."

As they began to walk off the main street, they both stopped. A rush of power went thru their bodies as they both caught a glint of something golden. Words seemed to seep into their minds as horror and fear began to spread thru their bodies. They exchanged a glance and then began to run.

As they reached the wall, Usagi began to panic. As they ran thru the garden towards the palace she suddenly screamed.

"Oh my god! It's Helios!"

The guards didn't move as they rushed in. Usagi threw her bags in the corner as did Hotaru as they ran thru the main hall. They reached the throne room and found all the senshi there. A horrified Endymion was holding a shocked Serenity. She looked up at her daughter as she and Hotaru came in.

Usagi took a deep breath as Serenity spoke.

"Helios has been kidnapped."

End of Chapter 1

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