A/N: I do not own "Numb" by Linkin Park. Come to think of it, I don't own Holes either. But, I do own Keavy Torrelli and all of my original characters that are in this story.

Broken But Not Shattered

Chapter Twelve: Numb

X-ray walked out of B-Tent with a satisfied smirk on his face. He would finally accomplish his goal of eliminating Keavy from his tent. No one would ever try to take his place again. But what would Squid say? He'd been hurt before by his parents, X-ray had heard the story a thousand times over. He had even heard Squid crying at night. X-ray also had been told from Zigzag, Squid's closest friend, that he would talk about suicide. But no matter, X was doing it for Squid's own good, that girl was trouble. Squid would soon have to learn to get over Mouth.

***

"Keavy Ann!" Pendanski hollered

Keavy opened her eyes to the blinding light of Pendanski's flashlight, "I told you never to call me that. My name's Mouth" She said sleepily.

"Well whoever you are, you're coming with me.

She sat up, "What are you talkin' about?

"Well the boys of B-tent have been complaining. You were a part of their tent and you just left them, and they don't think it's fair that D-Tent has one more digger than they do. So I'm here to take you back." He smiled at the thought of bothering Keavy at 2 o'clock in the morning.

"Well I won't go.

"Correction, you will." He clapped a hand over her mouth and dragged her off of the cot. She tried to fight him, but another figure came quietly into the tent and grabbed her feet, making it harder to move.

"Well now, Mouth I see we've finally pinned ya." Keavy recognized the voice immediately it was Mr. Sir.

She fought and struggled but it didn't work, fighting only made it harder to breathe. Keavy suddenly had a thought. Maybe if she tried to scream despite Pendanski's hand over her mouth she could wake up one of the boys. She tried to scream but no sound came out. Keavy gave up after she couldn't take one last breath. She fell limp, making Sir and Pendanski's job and whole lot easier.

X-ray smiled to himself as he watched Keavy struggle, he loved every minute of it. For only a weeks worth of shower tokens, he had removed Mouth from his tent. He was proud, not many leaders on a tent could pull off something like that. X-ray let out a content sigh, folded his arms behind his head, and slept peacefully for the next two hours.

***

Keavy awoke to some one shaking the living daylights out of her, it was Scar, the leader of B-Tent who always seemed to have it in for her since the moment she came to Green Lake.

"Get your paws offa me!" She yelled.

Scar backed away, "Well I see D-Tent hasn't changed you.

"No one will ever change me." She replied coldly.

He came closer, "I don't believe that, Mouth."

"Yeah, well you'd better start believin', Scar. Cause I'm not changin' for no one. Now let me go, I'm going back to D-Tent." She grabbed his hands, which were starting to go into the wrong places.

"What's the matter, Mouth? Don't like me touchin' you? You let Squid touch you, I even heard you were locking lips with him." He stared at her, his black eyes boring a hole into hers.

"I have nothin' to say to you.

"Isn't that a change? The Mouth has nothin' to say. Where's your hero now? I don't see Squid runnin' off to save his girl. So like I asked before, what's wrong with me touchin' you? Squid doesn't seem to be any different." His last words rang in her mind.

Keavy cast her gaze towards the dirt floor of the tent, "What if he's right?" She thought to herself, "What if Squid was in on it all?" The wake up call disturbed her thoughts.

***

Mouth stood in line with B-Tent at the "Library" to get her shovel. She glanced around for D-Tent, but they were nowhere in sight. Then she caught sight of X-ray walking over to the line, with his "boys" tagging along behind him.

X-ray strolled over to Scar and shook his hand, "Nice doin' business with ya." He looked over at Keavy who was watching Squid.

Scar took notice of Keavy's wandering eyes and looked at X-ray who shrugged. "Watch this," Scar whispered to X-ray. He grabbed Keavy's back end. She screamed and attacked him, but he held her down.

"Squid!" she cried.

Squid heard her, but he kept right on walking. After what X-ray had told him the last thing he wanted to do was help her, she had Scar to care for her now. She was just like every other girl in his life; used him for his kindness, and love and then when he least expected it, threw his love out the door. Keavy, he thought she was special. She'd been through almost the same things that he'd gone through, she was scared and lonely like he'd once been, but she also had a heart he knew that from the first time they really talked. But nothing mattered now, she wanted Scar. Who wouldn't? He was taller, tougher looking, and had a bad reputation; he was everything Squid was not. Scar was more of a choice for Keavy; she seemed to like those types of guys.

"Squid help me!

He looked at her and Scar, then shook his head.

Keavy started to cry angry tears, "You worthless dog, you can't even help me.

Her words cut him like a razor; he had heard them before. Squid grabbed his shovel and followed the boys from D-Tent who started off to their digging destination. Zigzag tried to ask him why he didn't help Mouth, but he didn't answer. Squid sank into deep depression for the rest of the day; bad memories lurked their way into his mind.

~*Flashback*~

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be,

feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me,

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

"Alan! Alan!

"Yeah, Ma?" Alan said gasping for breath, he'd been doing errands for his mother all day to avoid being beat.

"Did you bring it?!

"I-I," he stuttered, every time she was drunk he stuttered.

"Well c'mon spit it out." She raised the glass beer bottle.

Alan flinched, "Ma, I'm a minor, they wouldn't let me buy it.

"You worthless dog!" His mother screamed, making him cringe. She threw the bottle at him, the glass cut open his leg.

"Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

Alan ran to his room and cried, "Why can't she be like other moms? The ones that care for you when you're sick or the ones that you talk to when you're have girl trouble. But no, I had to get stuck with a drunk who can't even take care of herself."

"I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired, so much more aware

I'm becoming this, all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

~*End Of Flashback*~

Squid stopped digging and pulled up his pant leg to see the scar. His stomach churned as he dwelled on the haunting images.

***

Keavy slammed her shovel into the dirt, angry tears started to pool in her eyes as she talked to herself, "He didn't even have the guts to save me from Scar. He just shook his head like the coward he is and ran away." A tear rolled onto the dry dirt, "Scar was right. Squid doesn't care about me.

Scar walked up and put his arms around her, "What's wrong, Sweetheart? Cryin' cause your hero isn't all that you thought he'd be?

"Get offa me, Scar." She said hoarsely.

"No." He tightened his grip around her. She turned to face him; he grabbed her face and forcefully kissed her. She felt like trash. Scar pushed her onto the ground and walked away laughing.

"Can't you see that you're smothering me?

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart, right in front of you""

***

Squid felt the pain of losing some one all over again. It took him awhile to admit it to himself, but he'd lost Keavy. And to what, some punk with an over grown nose piercing and a bad attitude? He shook his head at the thought of Keavy and Scar together.

"Maybe," he thought aloud, "Maybe, I'm wrong. What if she had to go to B-Tent? What if she was forced?" He looked over in the direction where the boys of B-Tent were digging. Squid made up his mind he was going to walk over there.

"Dude, where you goin'?

"I'mÉuh just gonna see how B-Tent's doin'.

"Squid, you can't lie to me, I know you're goin' to see your girl. Don't worry I'll cover for ya.

Squid breathed a sigh of relief, "Thanks, Zig. You don't know how much this means to me.

Zigzag winked at him, "No prob, just watch out for the lizards."

He laughed, "Don't worry, I will.

"Oh and Squid?

"Yeah.

"If you need any backup just holler, okay?

"Sure.

As Squid made his way over there, he caught a glimpse of Keavy. He was just about to call her name when he saw Scar come from up from behind her and give her a hug. Then he watched intently as Scar pulled her into a kiss. She didn't seem to protest, but Squid didn't see the out come. His stomach churned and he felt as though the world was crashing around him. Tears filled his eyes as he ran back towards his hole.

"Every step that I take is another mistake to you

An' every second I waste is more that I can take

I've become so numb

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired, so much more aware

I'm becoming this, all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you.

Little did he know what actually happened to Keavy; little did he know how much she longed for him inside. Squid no longer felt the urge to live; all that he had lived for in these past two months had been broken and defiled.

As Keavy was thrown onto the ground by Scar all she wanted to do was cry, but she didn't. She wished with all her might that Squid would appear out of thin air and save her, for she had no more strength left in her to fight. Keavy stood up and looked back at the boys of D-Tent. She saw a cloud of dust kick up and when it had settled she saw the backside of Squid. Then she knew what had happened, he saw her and Scar kiss but mistook it in the wrong way. What could she do now? Squid would never believe her.

Keavy sighed, picked up her shovel and dug, for that was all she could do.

"And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me

With someone disappointed in you.

A/N: Boy, this chapter was really depressing! Well I hope you liked it. Now please review!

Oh and please forgive the loss of quotation marks and funny symbol thingies, it's all ff.net's fault.