A/N: Squeee! Thanks for the great reviews! This one's for starrynightdreamer for her absurdly long review! Well, the longest one I ever got anyway. If any of you want to see Jesse's POV in any scene, just review THEN tell me. All I'll be happy to! This'll probably be the last chapter I'm ever going to write until the end of my end-years, which'll probably last until mid-october. Book 3, last chapter, hospital scene here I come! –cracks knuckles-
Disclaimer: I do not own the Mediator.
I don't know why I did what I did. I materialized at Susannah's bed in the hospital. I didn't dare face her after what happened at the Point last night. I had been quite harsh with her. Not that I approved of the way she handled the problem last night. But I felt that I could have done better when talking about her. I saw that she was awake, so I dematerialized before she could see me. Or at least tried to. She caught me though.
"Oh no, you don't. You come back here right now." She sat up facing me. What could I do? I was caught. All I could do was give her the best excuse I could think of at that moment. " I thought you were asleep, so I decided to come back later." That didn't work with Susannah though. She didn't buy it for one second. "Baloney. You saw I was awake, so you decided to come back later when you were sure I was asleep." She looked terribly hurt, only amounting to my already humongous guilt. " What, you're only going to visit me when I'm unconscious now? Is that it?" She questioned me. It wasn't that I didn't want to see her. I just felt… uncomfortable being around her at that very moment. It was like, I was caught with my pants down in front of the whole town. Everything she said only made me feel worse and worse, guiltier and guiltier.
I gave her another lame excuse, which of course she did not buy. "You've been through an ordeal. You're mother –back at the house- I heard her tell everyone they weren't to do anything to upset you."
" Seeing you won't upset me." She countered. I could hear sadness and hurt dripping from her every word. How I wanted to hold her in my arms there and then. I wanted to see her, I wanted to be with her every second of the day. But I just felt so GUILTY. Guilty for treating her badly at the Point. Guilty for not being with the Angels when they were at the Point. Guilty for not being able to help my Querida when she was in trouble. Worse of all, guilty for being angry with her, for trying to save her family. But I only got angry because I did not want to see her hurt, lying in hospital like that.
"Susannah, I-" But she cut me off. She started apologizing for everything, even though most of it wasn't her fault. I tried to tell her, but she still rambled on. She told me why she did it, because of her family. I knew that even though sometimes she acted like she didn't want to be here in Carmel with her new family, deep down in her heart, she really loved them. Even though most of the time, her love is shown very physically, in terms of punches, especially to Brad. I understood that. And I did not fail to tell her. I reached out at touched her cheek. Just to emphasize how much she meant to me, and how much I cared for her. Also for her to know, that I wasn't angry with her in any way at all. "Yes, Querida, I understand." I smiled at her.
"The only reason I got so angry, was because I didn't want to see this happen to you." She looked so badly injured, I just couldn't bear to see her like that. She looked like she didn't care very much though. "I'll be alright. I won't even need plastic surgery, they said." What was plastic surgery? Did they mean putting plastic into your body? Won't you look very… fake then? I was confused for awhile, but didn't ask her.
I stayed by her bed, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her and cared for her. I was trying to work up my courage when her friend, Gina, came bursting in through the doors. Another opportunity wasted. I just smiled at her, and dematerialized.
A/N: Whee! I'm done. I don't like it very much though. Not one of my better chapters. Bleah. But if it makes you guys happier to know, I have FINALLY bought twilight! So expect that make out scene next! Read and PLEASE, REVIEW. Love you guys!