CHAPTER 7

"Mmm… This tastes so good. Lily, why don't you try one?" Matt asked, indicating to the plate of mini-sized chocolate chip waffles before them. "Sorry, Matt but I can't possibly try another one because I already have too much on my plate right now." True, Lily's plate was very full of different kinds of breakfast food. Small servings of ham, sausages, bacon, egg, toast and plenty more were scattered around her plate. Matt chuckled and got a little slice of the waffle and tried to feed her with it. "What are you trying to do?" Lily asked, seeing Matt dip the waffle into a bowl of syrup and held it towards her. "Isn't it obvious? I'm trying to feed you." He caught her chin with his free hand and fed her. Two second-years entered the Great Hall and awwed at the two, assuming that Lily and Matt were a couple.

"Mmm… This does taste good. I have to hand it to the house elves. They make wonderful meals." She was shocked by the sudden display of affection, but chose to hide it. She didn't know whether to feel guilty or aroused. What is wrong with me, she thought, I had a great time with James last night and now I'm here, with Matt, and we're acting as if we're in some kind of relationship!

Which you are, the back of her mind countered. Lily didn't understand her feelings. She knows she likes both men, but she knows it's wrong.

There's only one way to do this, she thought.

Lily immediately stood up, surprising Matt in the process.

"Follow me" she said, and then hurried out of the Great Hall. She ran a couple of stairs, down some hallways and into an empty classroom at the fourth floor. When Matt caught up to her, he was panting and gasping for air.

"Lily, what the—"

"No time for that." She interrupted and smashed her lips onto his. There was an urgency in her that aroused and confused Matt at the same time. Lily's tongue protruded into his mouth and Matt felt himself stiffen, an act which his mind greatly objected to. Lily felt him stiffen and removed her mouth from his.

"I'm sorry but I don't understand what we're doing." He tried to explain.

"What's there to explain! We're snogging. Isn't that explanation enough?"

"It's just that, it's usually I who does the initiating. Now it's as if—what in god's name happened?"

"Oh don't worry about what happened. Just live in the moment, will you?" She started to lean back in for another kiss but Matt pulled away. There was a confused look on Lily's face and then a look of embarrassment. A slight tinge of pink settled on her cheeks and she immediately ran out the door.

Matt stood still, thinking about what just happened. Did he or did he not ruin the chance to move forward in their relationship? He did. He ruined his chance and it was all because he was thinking and acting like a girl.

Good god I'm an idiot, he thought. She was there, willing, and all I did was spoil it. I should go hang myself for my stupidity. Unless…

He dashed out of the room and went out to find her.

ooo

Lily managed to avoid Matt all day by staying inside her room. She spent all day thinking about the thing she had done to Matt. She had never felt so embarrassed in her life. Clearly Matt was thinking of going slow in their so-called relationship and what she did either made or destroyed their chances of ever going through with their relationship. But their short kiss gave Lily the same spark she had when she was with James.

Surprisingly, no one ever came to find her, not even Jen. It was until after dinner that Jen came into their dorm carrying a basket filled with food.

"I don't know why you stayed in here all day and I hope you'd tell me soon but I know how famished you are since you were neither at lunch or dinner so here, eat something." Jen opened the basket and took out a large cheeseburger, chips and dip, courtesy of the house elves, and four large cans of butterbeer.

"Butterbeer!" Lily said excitedly. "Where in the world did you get these?"

"Some seventh years came in bringing boxes of them and I asked for some."

"Woah."

"Well. What are you waiting for? Eat up!" Lily nibbled on some fries while Jen rummaged through her clothes. "Besides," Jen continued, "You need the energy for tonight."

Lily stopped halfway towards taking a bite from her burger. "Huh? What do you mean?"

"Don't you remember? You promised to take us out clubbing tonight."

"By us you mean you, me and Paul right?"

"Yep!" Jen stopped and turned around. "Lils, about that—"

"Don't worry about it. I trust Paul as much as I trust you."

"Oh… ok!" Jen proceeded to going through her clothes and took a sexy yet casual halter top dress. "Is it okay to wear this?"

Lily turned and looked at the dress. "I guess so. But I think you can wear anything. The last time I went there I was wearing nothing but my pj's."

"Yeah, well… that's you. I'm me." Lily stuck her tongue at her and Jen stuck her tongue right back at Lily.

"Sure Jen. REAL mature." The two laughed.

ooo

"Are you sure Paul is meeting us here?" Lily asked, pulling her coat closer to her for warmth.

"I'm positive. He and I talked during dinner. We would meet at the quidditch field at ten and together we would fly towards hogsmeade." Jen shivered. Her legs were freezing.

"Well it's ten forty five and he isn't even here yet. Why don't we just go."

"You're right. Besides, my whole body is freezing!" Lily laughed at Jen. "That's what you get for wearing short dresses!"

"This one's not short! It's knee length! The wind is just too cold! Besides, I'm not the only one wearing a short skirt" Lily laughed more.

"Well, at least I'm smart enough to put a warming charm over myself" Jen stiffened and Lily laughed at her.

"Too late! Hahaha…C'mon, let's get going then." They walked toward the broom shed and got one broomstick. Together they mounted the broom and fled. When they were about ten feet from the ground Lily saw a figure running from the ground waving towards them.

"Jen," she tapped on her shoulder. "I think that's Paul down there."

Jen had an annoyed look on her face. "Oh, right. And so he arrives just in time. Perfect." She said sarcastically. She turned the broom around and dived towards the ground. Lily gave a frantic scream and held herself tighter to Jen's waist. Jen slowed as they were nearing the ground and landed gracefully.

"You idiot! We could have died!" Lily exclaimed, dismounting from the broom. Her knees were shaking so badly that she fell on the floor. All Jen did was laugh.

"You should have seen your face! It was priceless! Besides, I'm a master at flying. You don't have to worry about a thing."

Paul ran up to them and Jen's mood immediately changed. "Where the hell have you been? We've been waiting in here for almost an hour!"

"Sorry, but I couldn't find a way to ditch Matt. He never left my side the whole night."

"So how did you ditch him?" Lily asked. Paul smiled sheepishly.

"Well, I didn't." he pointed to the broom shed where a lone figure was standing, his arms crossed. Lily had a look of pure disbelief.

"You brought him!" Lily exclaimed. "Why would you do that?"

"I don't know. But I didn't tell him about you-know-what."

"Uh huh. Well we better get going then. I'm not riding with Jen again and I'm also not riding with Matt. So Paul, why don't we take this broom and Jen, why don't you go ride with him?" Lily ignored Jen's protests and took the broom and handed it to Paul.

"Here. RIDE CAREFULLY." She warned. Paul nodded and mounted the broom, Lily sitting behind him. Jen ran towards Matt and together they left for Hogsmeade.

ooo

"Here we are." Lily indicated to the old building standing before them. The other three looked at her in confusion.

"Lils, are you sure this is the place?" Jen asked, wondering whether her friend had gone mental.

"Yes, I'm sure so c'mon!" Lily went inside and the others followed. They walked down a series of hallways before they reached the entrance to the club. The door was guarded by the same bouncer from the last time Lily came here with James. The bouncer instantly knew Lily and, without word, let them in.

The scene was still the same from when Lily last came in here. Jen found themselves a table and ordered some drinks. She acted as if this wasn't her first time in a club, which technically, is true.

"Wow, this place is great!" Jen shouted over the loud music. "Why don't we start dancing?" Jen left them and Paul followed, leaving Lily and Matt alone. They sat there, deep in their own thoughts.

"Lils, I'm sorry about what happened today" Matt tried to explain.

"Don't worry, Matt. It isn't your fault. I was stupid for ever doing a thing like that."

"Let's just forget about it, shall we?" Matt smiled. "How about we start things over with a dance?"

"Sure." They got up together and went towards the dance floor. Matt was a pretty good dancer, but Lily kept comparing him to James. She realized that dancing with James was better than dancing with him. That night probably was the best time of her life. She had never been so free and so happy.

So cooped up was she in her thoughts that she didn't realize Matt placing both his hands in her face and leaning in to kiss her. The moment Lily realized that he had already placed his lips upon hers. At first she was shocked but then a pleasant feeling came into her and before she knew it, they were making out in the dance floor. Matt's hands were gentle yet firm, roaming around her body while his lips never leaving hers. They broke apart when air was necessary. Matt held her hand and led her towards an empty chair where Matt sat down and Lily sat towards him on his lap and they continued to make out. He rode his hands up her thigh and gently pulled up her skirt. Lily could feel his hardness evidently. Matt lips left hers and moved towards the sides of her neck and sucked expertly.

Lily didn't know what came over her but she opened her eyes and found another pair of eyes staring at them from the other side of the room. She noticed the face of the person and gasped in surprise. Matt took this as a sign of aroused pleasure and sucked even deeper. Lily pulled herself away from him and was gasping for breath.

"We…should…stop." She breathed, her hands in his shoulders. Matt smiled suggestively.

"Of course. We'll save this for later."

"No! I mean," Lily explained, seeing Matt's face fall, "We'll talk about this later. I have to go to the bathroom." She jumped off his lap and walked away from him.

As she was nearing the bathroom, a voice whispered in her ear. "You and that man were getting along very well."

Lily turned and was met with the sight of Sirius Black, the man she met along with James at the party in Spain.

"It's not what you think, I—"

"Oh I think I know what it is. Isn't it obvious? I've had my share of women, so I know what you two were doing, and I have to hand it to you. You know how to break a man's heart." Sirius Black had this cold look in his eyes that frightened Lily, but she didn't want him to tell James about this.

"Listen, erm… Sirius…Black," Lily explained, "Yes, that guy and I fooled around a little bit." Sirius snorted at that, mumbling something like 'fooled around, alright'. "But I only did that because I was confused. Before I found out about James and I, I already had feelings for someone else. Then James and I spent time together and now I don't know what to feel, or who to feel for."

Sirius had a look of disbelief on his face. He then sighed.

"If you ever hurt my best friend I swear to God you'll regret ever crossing him in the first place." He threatened. He saw the frightened look on Lily's face and grimaced. "It sucks to know that this is how we met each other, but I guess that's how life goes. I better be off now." He took his cloak and hat and started towards the door.

"Wait!" Lily called. Sirius stopped in his tracks and looked back at her. "Are you going to tell James about this?"

Sirius just looked at her for a long moment, turned around and left the club. Lily sighed and dropped down into an empty chair standing near her.

ooo

"Hey, what took you so long?" Matt asked when Lily returned to their table. Jen and Paul were also there, clearly having the time of their lives.

"I just had a little problem at the bathroom." Lily explained. The incident with Sirius Black was not the only problem though. When she finally entered the bathroom after the Sirius escapade, she realized she looked like a mess. Looking into the mirror, her hair was all mess up, her lipstick gone, and she had dozens of lovebites scattered around her neck, which was practically visible to anyone since she was wearing a spaghetti strapped top. What was even worse was that Sirius Black had seen her like that.

"Oh, I hope you, err, solved that problem. Uhh…Why don't we have something to, err, drink?" Jen's words were slurred and she looked a bit drunk. Matt and Paul weren't sober themselves. Paul's face was all red and in front of Matt were four empty glasses of some drink he must have ordered while Lily was away.

"How about we stop drinking and start going back to Hogwarts?" She stood up but Matt's hands stopped her.

"You and I still have to talk about what happened earlier." She nodded and he removed his hands from hers. Paul and Matt weren't drunk so they were not much of a problem. However, Jen was wobbling and needed some help. She rode with Paul on the broomstick while Lily and Matt went together.

"Matt, I don't think this is going to work out." Lily said while on their way to Hogwarts. Matt tightened his grip on the broom.

"Why not?" He asked in his most gentle voice he could muster. "We had a moment earlier, remember?"

"I just don't think we're meant to be together." Matt sighed. They reached Hogwarts and instead of going to the quidditch field Matt took a turn and went to Lily's dorm window. Careful not to make any noise, Lily dismounted from the broom and entered through the window.

"Lily," He called, "We are meant to be… Just wait and see." He kissed her lightly on the lips and flew out towards the grounds.

Oh, if only, Lily thought, if James wasn't in my life, I would have the chance to love you and only you.

So that's chapter 7… Not much Lily/James in it, but I promise you there will be some in the next chapter. I hope this is kind of interesting. Oh, and I hope you review. I'm starting to make Chapter 8 so that when I update it wont take as long as my other chapters. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW… The more the reviews, the faster the update. p