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Chapter 11-Catching Up

While having lunch I was unbelievably quiet.

I can't stand it.

It pains me to see them together. I still love him.

"Well, I'm great. But it's really different out there. I really missed you guys. But after what happened around that time, I didn't bother to say goodbye. I'm sorry about that by the way" Chandler said.

Hey we stayed in touch for awhile… how come he didn't say that?

Whatever

"Don't worry about it. That was way in the past. We were young and stupid" Ross said.

Stupid? But I really loved Chandler. I really did. And he was stupid.

"Thanks, Man"

They we started chattering again, reminiscing from our childhood until we grew apart. We caught up about what happened since Chandler left.

I tried to follow what they're talking about. But I always get lost. I just look at him in the eye, and BAM, I'm lost.

I love him. Did it tell you that already?

But he has a fiancée. You know, that Kayla girl, tall blonde sitting next to him.

I'm nothing compared to her.

Chandler looks happy with her.

And Chandler's going back to New York.

Nothing more can happen.

He's with her.

I need a boyfriend. Maybe he'll make me get over Chandler.

I've tried for years. That's not going to happen.

I'm a very fatalistic person. And I believe that Fate will bring us back together.

Monica and Chandler are supposed to be together. It's already set in the stars.

Fate

But now I seem to disagree with myself.

Maybe there's no such thing as Fate?

There is

No there's not

Why am I arguing with my self?

DESTINY. FATE.

I believe in that.

If we're destined to be together, Kayla will be out of the picture. Chandler will move back here and we'll live happily ever after.

That is if it's our destiny.

Do I make sense? I guess not.

"Mon," Chandler said "Can I talk to you for a sec?" he said and we excused ourselves and talked in a corner.

"Yeah?"

"Can I talk to you tomorrow, just the two of us?"

"Uh, yeah, sure, what time?"

"I was thinking in the morning, around 8 or 9, because my flight is at 7pm" See, he's leaving.

"Oh okay, where?"

"Any suggestions"

"At a coffee house" I said and gave him the directions.

Tomorrow, Chandler and I will be talking. Just the two of us? Can I handle this?

"Uh, Mon, one thing"

"What is it?"

"Can you not tell anyone about this?"

"Sure thing"

I'm nervous about this.

We went back to our seats and the others are looking at us.

"I just had to apologize" Chandler said to them. HAH, liar.

Anyways, we started talking again about our lives now. I'm impressed with Chandler, it looks like he's really happy and he loves his life in New York and with Kayla. He's achieved so much. He's an advertising executive in New York. He's probably one of the youngest executives in the company.

"Well, I guess this is goodbye again," Ross said as we all stood up.

"Yeah, well, we'll keep in touch this time" Chandler said.

We said our goodbyes. When it was my turn, Chandler hugged me and whispered in my ear.

"I'll see you tomorrow, Mon"

"I'll see you" I whispered back.

THE NEXT DAY…

I woke up early. My first thought was Chandler.

I don't know if I'm excited or I'm scared.

I have work tonight.

Chandler is leaving tonight.

And honestly, the short time that I saw him, I got attached to him right away.

I'm gonna have to go through everything I went through when Chandler left.

I stepped n the coffee house and scanned around for Chandler. Just as I saw him, he looked up and our eyes met. He smiled at me and I smiled back. He still has that cute smile.

I walk up to him.

"Hey Mon, thanks for meeting with me" he said and hugged me really tight.

"I wouldn't miss it for anything" I said. Cheesy, I know. But it's true.

"So, how've you been since the last time we talked?"

"Alright, I guess. Well, except for the love part"

"How come?" He asked staring in my eyes.

"I don't know. It's just that I think I haven't found the one to get serious with" I actually found him, but I lost him.

"Oh" That's all Chandler could say.

Then there was silence.

"So, what's this about?" I asked him.

"I just want to spend time with you"

"Why are you doing this, Chandler?" I asked. I'm getting frustrated because I don't want to get too attached to him again. Tears were threatening to fall, but I won't let it happen.

I love him, but now, I think I'm mad at him.

This whole meeting and conversation gives me the thought that we'll get back together, even if in reality he'll never be mine again.

"I miss you so much"

I didn't say anything.

"Monica…." He said. I looked up at him.

He leaned in and kissed me. I broke the kiss and pushed him away.

"Why are you doing this, Chandler? Is this your way of hurting me? You're getting married. I'm finally getting over you and suddenly you just go back to my life and I'm back where I started. You're leaving tonight, Chandler. You have no idea how much you've hurt me. You have no idea how hard it is for me to get over you. I've cried myself to sleep for days, months, or even years. I've never loved anyone but you, Chandler. And I've accepted the fact that you're gone, and you're getting married. And now you're here kissing me? Honestly, its giving me this little bit of hope that we're getting back together, but I'm not being realistic. So why don't you just leave, Chandler? I've lost you once, I think I can pull through" I said almost yelling at him. Tears are falling from my eyes. He just sat there looking at me. I can't read the expression in his eyes.

"I had no idea, Monica"

"Damn right"

Then there was silence again. I wanted to walk out so much, I don't know why, but I can't

"I moved on, Monica, you moved on. We have separate lives. We've grown up since high school. Since I saw you again I've had this feeling that I had in high school, the feeling that I know I'll never feel again when I leave you. But Monica, I'm getting married to Kayla, and we care so much about each other and I love her"

"I understand that, Chandler. I'm not asking you to leave her or get back together with me. All I want to know is why are you doing this to me."

"I don't know, Mon. I just had to see you"

I love Chandler so much and this conversation is tearing me into pieces. But I have to get through this. He's happy with Kayla. Maybe this is a closure.

He sat there and dug something from his pocket. Then he pulled out a very familiar ID bracelet.

"Mon, remember this?" he asked, I nodded. Of course I remember it "It means a lot to me, I carry it around every time, and I want you to have this. You may keep it or trash it. I know it's sort of worthless now, but I want you to have it"

(Flashback to 11 years ago)

Chandler came up to me and said he's going to give me something.

"What is it?" I asked him

He pulled out from his pocket an ID bracelet.

He gave it to me and I read it inscription.

It says "MC forever"

"How sure are you that we're going to last forever?" I asked

"Don't you have faith in us?"

"We're still young, Chandler. Give it back to me when you're sure that we're going to be together forever"

I gave the bracelet back to him.

"No hard feelings?" I asked.

"No. You're totally right" Chandler said and kissed me.

(End of flashback)

I looked at it. Memories flashed back to me.

We were supposed to be together forever.

"I told you to give it back to me when you're sure we're going to be together forever" I said quietly.

"I know. I want you to have it even if we're not"

I held it tightly.

"I have to go, Chandler"

I had to get out of there.

"Monica…." He said. "Please don't cry"

"I'm just happy for you."

"Monica…"

"I love you, Chandler. You're my best friend"

"I've always loved you"

I can't take it anymore, I stood up and left.

To be continued

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