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Chapter 19: Decisions

Amy slowly got out of the car and walked up to the front door. Turning the handle slowly trying to sneak in without anyone noticing. She made it to the first step on the stairs before she heard her name. She reluctantly turned and went into the dining room. David and Maxine were drinking coffee at the table.

"Amy, it's not very polite to come in and not say hello."

"Hello, right I'm going to bed." She turned to leave knowing that it was pointless.

"Sit down, I hardly ever get to talk to you any more. Now do you want some coffee?"

"Ma, I want to go to bed. I'm tired."

"Just sit down for a second. Have some coffee." Amy sat down but didn't look at David. "Right I'll get the coffee." She looked up with a pleading look, but Maxine just beamed at her.

'God, she thinks she's so clever!' Amy thought.

"Amy, we need to talk."

"About what?"

"Us, what happened."

"There's nothing to discuss."

"Yes there is."

"No there isn't. I don't want to discuss it David."

"There has to be something to discuss, in order for you not to discuss it!"

"Stop arguing semantics David!"

"Well do you want to discuss what you were doing drinking wine round Bruce's...the same day we.... broke up?"

"I was having some wine with my pizza."

"Big spender huh."

"That's not fair David, and it was what the girls wanted."

"Yeah sure and I suppose it was one of the girls who invited you to stay for food!"

"It was actually. Stop being such a child David. You're acting like a.... like a jealous brat!"

"Amy, why did you leave?"

"You know why I left."

"If I knew, why would I be asking?"

"I don't know. You figure it out."

"Why did you break the necklace?"

"David I don't need this right now." Amy stood up and turned to leave before she lost control of her emotions completly and broke down in front of him.

"When you broke that chain.... you broke my heart." David stepped over ot her. "Did you know that?"

"Dav...." She choked on her emotions. He placed a hand on her shoulder, turning her. She looked up, tears welling in her eyes.

"I love you.... please don't do this." She blinked and looked away. Her mind was clouded over with confusion. She didn't know what she wanted anymore.

"I need time to think." She managed to get out as she stumbled back. "I need to...."

"Amy, promise me you will still speak to me."

"I promise." She turned and ran up the stairs, leaving David standing like a fool by the table.

"Oh dear, what are we going to do with you two?"

"I.... I.... I have to go."

"What about Victor?"

"Can he stay here tonight. He's already asleep."

"Yeah sure. Do you want me to bring him round tomorrow?"

"Yes, thanks." He turned and walked out of the front door. "Thanks."

Amy sat on her bed and put her head in her hands. She had managed to stop crying but she was so confused. When she broke up with David it had hurt her so much, she almost wished she hadn't broken up with him. But then when Lauren had told her about going to sleep round with Rebecca she had gotten so excited about being near Bruce, then when he kissed her. She felt, she felt so warm and fuzzy. Like it was meant to be, then David's call had rattled her, made her come home. Hoping he would be here. He had been so close, so close. She had wanted to kiss him so much. Urgh! What was wrong with her? She threw herself back onto the bed and beat the pillows.

"Amy can I offer you some advice?" Maxine walked into Amy's room.

"Why ask? You will give it anyway."

"Amy, look I don't understand what your problem is."

"That's not advice, that's prying." Amy shoved a pillow over her face.

"Honey, tell me what's wrong. Why did you break up with David? I saw the way you were looking at each other downstairs."

"It's complicated."

"It was something to do with the bracelet, wasn't it?"

"You told me to wear it ma."

"Didn't he accept the explanation?"

"Yes."

"Then what's the problem?"

"It's complicated!"

"Who is he?" Maxine sat on the end of the bed.

"Who is who?" Amy sat up, and removed the pillow from her face.

"Who is the person making you so confused?"

"No-one. No-one is making me confused." Amy looked away, avoiding eye contact with Maxine.

"Amy when you can look at me and say that to my face, then I will believe you. But until then...."

"Ma, you wouldn't understand."

"Try me. Trust me for once Amy. Tell me what is bothering you. Stop bottling it up inside. You'll make yourself ill!"

"I can't tell you."

"You have to speak to someone about it."

"Like who?" Amy threw herself back on the bed. "I can't tell anyone. It is too complicated and can easily spiral out of control."

"It can't be that bad, nothing is that bad."

"Like you'd know ma. Because you know everything don't you!" She couldn't stop herself saying it, but she wished she could. She knew her mom was the only one she could really talk to. But she didn't feel she could without her ridiculing what she going through.

"Amy, you over react over the smallest thing. You expect me to believe this is too big for someone like me to understand, for me to help you?"

"Ma, leave it. Why do you always have to give me a lecture?"

"Because Amy, you never learn!"

"Ahhh! Will you leave me be!"

"If you won't speak to me, speak to someone else."

"Like a shrink?"

"Amy...."

"Cuz that worked for you didn't it ma, it took what 11 years to persuade you to go, and you think that you can persuade me in 5 minutes? Just leave will you."

"Amy, I worry about you. I worry about you so much. It scares me that you bottle everything you have inside of you up. Never letting your emotions come out."

"How would you know ma, you're not with me all the time. You don't know how I release my anger or emotions."

"Oh thats right you go have sex with the first bloke you can find." Amy jumped up, and the anger she had scared her.

"I.... I.... I have to go before I do something I regret." Amy stormed out of the house and got in her car. She started to drive, when she got to where she was heading she knocked on the door.

"Amy, what are you doing here?"