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Chapter 23: Searching

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round


David sat on his bed holding the pendant. He was running the chain through his fingers, tears falling onto his hands as he rolled the pendant over. Reading the inscription again as he had been all night. He reached over to the nightstand and picked up the bracelet that Bruce had given her. He dropped it on the floor with the pendant and laid back on the bed. Closing his eyes he tried to remember holding her, the way she felt in his arms when they danced. The way she looked in that dress and the way she smiled when she was satisfied with the way a case went at work. She was so passionate, so full of energy, so caring and loving. Why did he let himself get involved with her? She was.... so much like Kelly, they way she went about life. Now it felt like he was losing Kelly again. He couldn't deal with that. He wiped his eyes and grabbed his keys, as he got into his car, he knew what he had to do.
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Bath water splashed onto the floor as Amy jumped up to grab her ringing cell. She had forgotten to turn it off, for which she was now cursing.

"Hello?"

"Amy, where are you?"

"I'm.... I can't tell you where I am."

"Please tell me. I need to speak to you."

"I can't.... I need some time alone."

"You're not going to do anything stupid are you?"

"No! Why would you think that?"

"Because you.... this isn't like you."

"I've gotta go."

"No please don't."

"Bye." Amy turned off her cell and threw it in her bag.


Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

David was driving around Hartford, looking for her car. Trying to find out where she was, his first place had been Bruce's, he had to be sure. He had to be sure that she had been truthful. He had noticed though that his car was also not there, and this made him start to think that maybe something had happened to her.
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Bruce was out looking for Amy also. He had been to he house, he had been to David's house and with that he breathed a sigh of relief. But his car wasn't there either. Where was he? Was he also looking for her? Had he misjudged how David felt about her? Did he really love her as much as he did?
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Amy lay in the bath, watching the bubbles burst in front of her. It helped take her mind of everything, and apart from that one phone call, she had been completely relaxed here. She felt safe, like it was some escape. Somewhere where she could survive, where she didn't have to think about how messed up her life was. She felt a slight twinge in her stomach as she got out of the bath. Her back ached and she realised this was the first time that she had relaxed in a long time and her body was exhausted. She dryed off and slipped into bed. As she curled up under the covers she relaxed further and sighed as she drifted off to sleep.
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go