First of all I want to apologize for the very late update, I had some problems to work out but I hope this chapter was worth waiting for.

Thanks for your patience!

HawkAngel XD I can only wish you good luck with your Inuyasha's fic and just let me know when the vampire story would be up! I'm definitely keep trying to do a fabulous work!

oneredneckgoddess did it ever happen to you to write something and when you are about to save to get an error and all your work gone? That's what happen to me, you were absolutely right something was there, but I wanted to update, sorry for making it so confusing!

Mony19 did you see an episode yet? I think the new episode will be on air on the end of May. But when you do make sure to let me know what was your opinion, good or bad. Shayera and John will work out their problems, in my fic at least

Enjoy this one!

TO HAVE AND TO HOLD!

I was back! And the person that was squeezing my hand was John. I couldn't face him right now, my mind was still a bit blurry. I didn't know what to believe, but I was 99 sure that my husband in the future was him, but what if I saw what I so desperately needed to see. I don't want to hurt him, not again

J'onn: You are hurting him by not accepting your feelings!

S: J'onn… how did you get in my mind?

J: Shayera I was always able to get in your mind if I wished, but I respected your private space, but know your thoughts are killing you. I don't want to loose a friend.

S: that' good because I don't want to die either!

J'onn: John I believe Shayera needs her rest. You can come back later.

John got up slowly and went to the door. Something was holding him back, was it me, but he opened the door and went to the gym probably.

J'onn: Now do you wish to talk about it?

S: I don't even know what exactly happen. I saw my future with John and with out.

J: Which one do you pick?

S: That was an obvious choice, the one with him!

J: What is stopping you from having it?

S: I guess I'm scared of getting hurt again…

J: Shayera life isn't a bed of roses and you will always have obstacles in your path but there can be someone to help you past them. Why not take their helping hand?

S: What if he will push me back?

J: I'm a telepath remember? He won't!

S: J'onn did you have anything to do with this?

J. Why Shayera what gave you that crazy idea?

S: You DID have something to do with it?

J: I couldn't stand your cat and mouse game any longer and when this opportunity came I took it! You have Flash to thank too, he was the one who gave you to many pills! I just wanted to help my friends!

S: And those friends are very lucky to have you! Thank you J'onn, I really needed that!

J: You are very welcomed my friend! Should I get John?

S: I think you should! And thank Flash for me will you?

J: I sure will, he was blaming himself for your condition.

( I decided to put a little John POV, hope you wont mind)

I walk to the gym with so many thought in my head. She was okay? But why was I feeling so miserable.

Flash: John? Is Shayera awake. I got her favourite candy!

J: J'onn thinks that she needs rest…

F: Sooo? I'm sure she would appreciate my visit. Why are you so upset?

J: I don't think you could understand?

F: Try me

J: I think I still… care for her, a lot!

F: Sorry to say this mate, but it was pretty obvious even for me!

J: But she betrayed me!

F: Did she? If I recall she said she loved you just before she left... oupss

J: How do you know that?

F: I'm a little nosy and the window was opened! Why are you still standing her go get your girl, here take the candy!

J: You know you are not so bad after all kid!

F: Thanks!

At that exact moment J'onn came threw the wall

J: John, Shayera wishes to see you!

F: That is fate!

J: I'm off… how does my hair look?

F&J'onn: Great! Now GO!

After John past the corner

F: Does he realise that he is bold?

J: Ah… love can make you blind!

F: So he wouldn't mind if we eat the candy he forgot?

J: Flash?

F: They are with brandy. Want one?

J: since you already opened the box yes

F: That's the spirit mate! Told you our little plan will work, we will be hearing wedding belly in no time! Remember I'm the best man and you are the second best man!

J: I really don't understand you humans.

F: Don't try to it makes my life easier. This candy is good!

J: I suggest we celebrate the success of our plan!

F: J'onn my boy that is an EXCELENT idea! I know a great place where we can celebrate…

J: I hope it's better then the last one!

F: Did I ever let you down? On second thought don't answer that!

J: Then I will pick the place!

F: Fine by me! Lea the was big guy

The doors of the infirmary opened and I just lost my breath

There he was the man of my dreams, I know he isn't perfect but neither am I.

J: Shayera, what happened to you? I thought you were…

S: I just took a little time off to… understand me life and to see my future!

J: Your future?

S: I know it sounds crazy, but I saw my self in the future and I was so happy there, I had the perfect husband and the perfect son. You want to know his name?

J: Let me take a wild guess… Rex Stewart?

I couldn't help smile… he knew all this time

S: How do you know that?

J: Let's just say that you aren't the only one who took a sneak peak of the future. I wanted to tell so bad but Batman said that some things are better left unsaid

S: To bad I never listen to Batman!

I moved an inch closer to him

J: That's to bad… wify, if you would've we wouldn't in this mess….

S: That's right husby, we wouldn't be so close to each other or…

J : Kissing?
S: Or that…

When our lips touched I felt like nothing in this world matter. I was asleep all this time, but now when I am with him I fell fully awake… We gasped for air, but that gave the enough amount of time to tell him my little secret

S: I love you John! I never stopped loving you…

J: Me either! I love you Shayera and I want to be with you! A life with out you isn't worth living… I need you like a bird needs it's wings, don't tale them again!

S: I wouldn't dream of it John because when I am in pain you are my shelter, when I am cold you are my warmth , my comfort and I hope I am yours!

J: You definitely are my soul mate!

S: As you are mine!

I wish the kiss will last for an eternity because right now I am in heaven and the angels are singing for us!