Hello my lovely readers! Yes I know I haven't been doing a very good job at updating quickly, like I said, but things came up, and I'm sorta having trouble with my story, not writing it, just putting down whatI feel is important for you to know, but it's just a slow process, and I really beg you guys not to kill me if I take a while in updating. Plus my life has been possessed by a story I've been reading, an amazing story that I hadn't noticed until I started reading it again, but it was an unknown influence to my story, confusing I know, but I'm not complaining. But I recommend it to all of you guys, it's called To Wash It All Away by Crystal Echoes, an incredible writer, but yea check out if you'd like. Alright enough talk, on with the story!
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Italic-Author's notes(me numbing you guys to death with my boring words, lol)
Bold-Change of character or scenery
Chapter 6
"Why is it so dark here? Is anyone here? Hello?" Kagome walked blindly in the dark, hoping she would get an answer. "Where am I? What am I doing here?" Kagome put her hands out in front of her, feeling for anything to lean on. She felt weak and about to collapse, cold tremors ran up and down her spine as she kept walking.
"Kagome." She froze at the sound of her name.
"Who's there?" Kagome waited for a reply, but no one answered. She blinked in the darkness, inching her way towards the voice. "Hello?" An echo was her only reply, as she felt the ground beneath her melt away.
"Kagome! Wake up!" Kagome eye's shot open.
"Where am I? What's going on?" Her mother was standing over her with a face that scared Kagome. "What's wrong?" She looked around to see that she was in her room, and her brother was nearly crying from fright. "Souta, what's the matter?" Kagome's voice had gotten calm once again, for she wasn't yelling or crying out in high-pitched cries.
"You began thrashing about and yelling out, was it a nightmare?" Kagome looked up at her mother.
"I was thrashing and yelling?" Her mother nodded, and Souta mumbled a low yes. "But I don't remember having a nightmare." Her low whispers were barely heard by her mother, but she heard them and didn't understand.
"You don't remember having any sort of nightmare?" Kagome nodded, lowering her head, trying hard to remember if she did or didn't have a nightmare. She had the sudden feeling of falling, and she grabbed on to her bed. "Kagome?" She saw the concern of her mother and smiled to hide her fear.
"Nothing mom, just a little dizzy from thinking to hard I guess." She laughed and put on her most sincerest smile, and just as she had hoped her mother had been satisfied with that.
"Ok honey, how about I bring you up your breakfast, just to make sure you don't get worse?" Kagome smiled and nodded as her mom walked out of the room. She sighed and snug in deeper into her covers.
"Kagome?" She looked up noticing that Souta was still here. She could see the look in his eyes, and outstretched her arms to him. He made his way to her, letting his sister hold him tightly in her arms.
"What is it Souta?" She whispered in his ear, feeling him slowly wrap his arms around her.
"It's just…just that you were saying…things." His whisper made its way to her ears as he shivered. She rubbed his back, her brow furrowing as she began to frown.
"Things? What sort of things Souta?" Kagome waited for him to respond as he began to mumble. "Souta I can't understand you." He sighed and took a couple of breaths.
"I was sleeping, when all of a sudden you started to shake. I tried to get up to try and wake you up, but you kept holding me down." She could feel him trembling, as if he were scared. Kagome hadn't noticed the tears rolling down her face, listening to Souta. "And then, you stopped, and said something."
"What did I say Souta?" She whispered desperately. She was clinging to him now, hanging on to his every word.
"Inuyasha." Souta heard her gasp and take in a raggedy breath. She slowly let go of her grip on him, and her arms fell down by her side. Her head was bent down, and her legs were moving closer to her, and soon they were pressed into her chest. Souta watched as her sister broke down in front of him. Kagome let everything go, and began to yell out in desperation. Souta cried out and began to run out of the room, into the kitchen.
"Mom! Kagome, she's crying, and it's all my fault." His mother dropped the plate she was carrying and ran past Souta and up the stairs. Souta just stood there, wishing he had never said anything. Why did he have to be so stupid? Why!
"Kagome, honey, what's the matter, what's wrong baby?" She ran to her bedside, trying to calm the hysterical Kagome. She grabbed her arms, trying to hold her down; scared she was going to hurt herself. Kagome trembled, lashing out at everything. Finally after holding her down for awhile, Kagome suddenly stopped, and seemed as if she had fainted. She was laying flat on her bed, her mother holding her tightly. Her head was to the side, away from her mother, and her hair was covering her face. "Kagome?" A silence before she responded.
"Why can't I forget him?"
"Honey."
"Why is he haunting me? Why doesn't he leave me alone! Please tell me mom, I need to know why my heart repeats his name to me every second! I don't want to love him anymore! I wish I hadnever met him!" She felt her heart shatter when those words slipped from her lips. Her eyes stung with fresh tears, but she held them back. "NO! No more tears. I'm sick and tired of wasting my tears on him, my thoughts on him! I won't do it anymore…I can't do it anymore." Ms. Higurashi (First time using her actual name I know, but I barely remembered she had a last name! Sorry!) sat there watching her daughter die inside. She hadn't told her what had actually happened in the Feudal Era before she had come back. All she had said was that she couldn't stay in a place that held the memories of another. Another?
"Kagome, why don't you tell me what happened? I'm your mother; I'm worried about you Kagome. I can't stand seeing you cry over him like this. What did he do to you baby?" Ms. Higurashi cradled Kagome up into her arms, hoping she would open up to her finally. They sat there, rocking back and forth for awhile before Kagome spoke up.
"I can't, not yet." Kagome heard her mother choke down her cries, as she began to release her from her embrace. Kagome looked up at her mother with questioning eyes. Ms. Higurashi stood and turned towards the door. "Mom?"
"Kagome, you ask me to help you, and I try to. But what use are my words to you, if you don't tell me what happened. I can't help you, and you won't help me. My heart is breaking seeing you cry every day, hearing you say such words, and I want so badly to take all that pain away. But you must understand, there's only so much I can do, and you're not letting me do what I can. All I can do now is hold you and comfort you, that's all you'll let me do. If you want to keep it to yourself, that's fine with me, I'll respect that, but then also be willing to find your own answers, because this is your life, I'm just your open arms." Kagome stared at her mother, eyes searching for what she couldn't find.
"What if I can't go on with life?" Kagome begged her with her eyes to come back to her. She didn't want to be left like this. She didn't want to feel alone anymore, she wanted to feel loved. "I need you mom! I need someone to tell me what to do; I can't do this by myself! I just can't!" Her mother stood gazing at her with pain in her eyes.
"Kagome, I can't be there to hold your hand forever. I have to be able to let you go, and you have to be able to walk on your own. Don't be mistaken, I'll be there when you fall, but only you can pick yourself back up." Turning to leave Kagome called out to her.
"Mom, please, I need you." Her voice cracked with the pressure of keeping her tears down. Her mother stood in the doorway, not turning she responded.
"I love you Kagome. I love you more than life itself, don't ever forget that." Kagome was left sitting on her bed feeling exhausted and soon she felt herself drift off, not noticing the pair of eyes watching her with concern from her doorway.
Sunlight crept into the dark room, slipping through the heavy curtains and sneaking on to the beautiful bed. The rays shyly crawled on top of Nyoko's face, gracing her gorgeous features. Feeling the warm heat of the sunlight, she began to stir, opening her eyes, only to be forced to shut them again. She yawned and moaned, trying to force herself to get up. Finally, she cautiously opened her eyes, having to blink a few times before she was able to get accustomed to the bright light.
"Hmmmgahhh." She stretched a bit before realizing that her arm was being used as a pillow. The light smile playing across her lips was wiped away ruthlessly as she set her eyes on the small child lying still beside her body. Nyoko gasped as she watched the child's still face, her chest frozen and her mouth closed tight. She reached for Rin's cheek and suddenly drew her hand back as though she had been bitten. It was ice cold, no trace of warmth found. Her eyes were shut, and her face was a pale white color, and she couldn't bring herself to admit that her cheeks had lost their innocent blush. She couldn't bring herself to say that she would no longer see her bright smile in the garden as she picked flowers, no longer see her sparkling eyes every time she awoke, and no longer hear her silly songs that brightened the castle with life. After letting herself have a few moments to herself, she gathered herself up and sighed. Not daring glance back at the bed she left the room, lamenting silently the loss of a life so full of energy and full of love to give, but she had been taken too soon. She closed the door, and prepared herself to tell the tragedy to a certain demon.
Hola again amigos! Ok, sad chapter I know, I was in a sorta depressed mood after this cause I had to draw on personal experiances to make up the whole daughter, mother scene here, nothing so drastic as the situation here, but close enough. I was pretty proud of myself, since I had no idea what I was sayingwhile I was inMs. Higurashi's character, cause I'm not a mother, but I thought a mother should learn how to let her daughter walk on her own, live life without her protective arms, hope it wasn't too cheesy. And I know some of you might hate me for doing what i did to poor Rin, but it was necessary for that to happen and I won't tell you why, just trust me on it, ok? Love ya guys and please review!
Replies( I know I hadn't done it in forever, but I owed it to you guys, and I'm planning on doing it every chapter, but only time will tell! Thanx for all the reviews I really appreciate them all, and they mean a lot to me, thanx you guyz!)
kmkoolj2010- I'm glad to have a new reader, and thanx for reviewing!
demonchik39- lol, thanx for your lovely review, and I'm glad you think my story is awesomely awesome, hope you like this chapter too!
Evil Toilet Paper- aww thanx for the love, sorry for the wait though. Umm, Kagome is gonna meet up with Sesshoumaru soon enough, I just need Kagome to go through some stuff before I can have her meet him, but be patient, it'll come soon enough! Thanx again!
Zanstorm- Yea I kinda missed you, but I'm glad you came back! I'm glad you find it interesting, and I can't wait to see your reaction to the rest, cause this is only the tip of the iceberg! Hint Hint! Oh Inuyasha's little memory loss will be explained later on, but don't worry thankfully others haven't forgooten about the past, another hint hint! Ok enough, before I blab the whole story away...can't...stay..quiet! I'm sorry for letting you down with Rin, but like I said it was absolutely necessary! Hope you understand and thanx for the support and review! Love ya bye!
SesshoumaruSisterFate- Wow Wow Wow! Curious one aren't you? lol, I can't really answer all your questionscompletely right now, but I can say that Rin unfortunetly passes away, and that Kagome and Sesshoumaru are destined to meet when or how I cannot say :), and the other 2 questions, well you'll just have to wait and see! Thanx for the review, and I hope you keep reading and reviewing bye!
The Squabbit- Yes Nyoko plays a very important part in here, but I can't say she would pair up with anyone in the story, and especially not Inuyasha, for he has other plans, which I can't say to you, cause that'll ruin the story! Sorry! And Sessh/ Kag pairings might happen, that's if things don't take an interesting twist...Thanx for the review!