Chapter six: How can this love be a good thing?

Monday morning came and Haley walked through the school doors greeted by the whispers and stares from her fellow students. She walked toward her first class which of course had to be Biology and of course Lucas had to be in it. She sat in the corner of the room focusing on her notes all lesson and soon that torture was over and she could head to the next one.

Lucas watched Haley as he saw her walk toward him in a corridor and he realized that he had gained the ability to see her feelings behind the façade back. There were usually no feelings hidden but now there were, he had to look away as he saw that she was hurt and broken on so many levels. He could not stand to see her so lost and alone.

That night Lucas, Karen and Keith had been eating dinner with Deb and Nathan and were on their way home when they saw the lights on in the café. Walking closer they saw Haley sitting by the piano but Lucas was the only one to notice the child lying beside her on a blanket on the floor. They watched her for a while before Karen walked over and opened the door, Haley was so caught up in her singing that she did not hear the bell. She was in the middle of a song and they listened to the words that to Lucas seemed to describe a lot that had happened between them but mostly it described the feeling he had seen in her eyes earlier that day, guilt. She blamed herself for everything that had happened between them and he hated it.

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so... (low)

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

That's when Haley sensed that she wasn't alone and she stopped playing, her singing stopped as she turned around to find the three standing before her. When she stopped playing Oliver started to cry and Keith and Karen noticed the child for the first time and were taken aback by his resemblance to Lucas. Haley quickly picked him up and carried him as she walked in small circles rocking him. He soon settled down and she picked her stuff up.

"I have to leave." She said and walked out of the café toward her car, they watched her drive off into the night.

"Was that what I think it was? Lucas?" Karen asked closely watching her son.

"It depends on what you think it was mom."

"Was that your kid Luke?" His mother asked.

"I think so but I have no clue since she hasn't told me. I just saw him yesterday when I visited her apartment." Lucas said starting to look upset and Karen hugged him tight.

"It's okay honey, it'll be okay."

"Will it mom? I don't see how it can ever be."

Haley had been dreading this all day, to go to work. Going to work meant going to the café and going to the café meant to meet Karen. She slowly opened the café door and slowly walked in, she couldn't see Karen anywhere she could only see Deb and a few customers. She started working and soon she was to caught up in her work to notice Karen walking through the kitchen door. Karen walked up behind her and said:

"Haley may I speak with you for a moment?" Haley spun around and nodded slowly as she followed the older woman into the back of the café.

"Haley? Was that child…" Haley finished the sentence for her.

"…Lucas'? Yeah he is." Haley started to feel uncomfortable and Karen noticed this.

"I'm not going to yell at you Haley. I just wanted to know."

"Oh." Haley seemed to relax. "Well I just thought since my parents reacted the way they did…" She trailed off.

"Was that the reason they threw you out?" Karen asked concerned.

"Yeah, well no… I mean they never actually threw me out they just said that I couldn't keep Oliver as long as lived there so I moved."

"Oh, Haley I'm so sorry." Karen hugged her. "His name is Oliver?" She then asked.

"Yeah, Oliver Lucas Scott. I thought he should have something to remember his father by and he looks just like him."

"That's so sweet, why aren't you and Lucas talking about this? You should."

"He ignored me for over a week letting me deal with the gossip by myself I'm not just going to forgive him because he found out about us having a kid." Haley said starting to get upset. "I mean who does he think he is? I'm not going to let him treat me like that and then take him back with open arms."

"I know hun, I understand but you need to forgive him at some point. You can't stay mad forever."

"I know Karen but it's hard." Haley said tears spilling over in her eyes. Karen held her close as she cried, just then someone walked into the kitchen calling her.

"Mom?" Lucas yelled and then he saw the scene in front of him, his mother holding a crying Haley. A crying Haley, he hated it when she cried and knowing the situation he was most likely the reason for the tears.

"I'm sorry Karen, I have to go." Haley said as she noticed Lucas. She left without taking a second look at him and Karen walked up to her son and gave him a hug.

"You really hurt her, you know that right?" She said before walking back into the café, as she reached the kitchen door she turned and said. "His name is Oliver Lucas Scott, I just thought you'd like to know." She smiled at her son before leaving him to his own thoughts.

I hope you liked the update, I'll try to update again soon. Please R&R

Love / Malin