Thank you for the reviews, I'm updating again and I'm both sorry and... well, not sorry to say that there's only two chapters and the epilogueleft after this chapter. Ihope you lite it, please R&R. Love /Malin

Chapter eight: This world falls on me

Haley was walking toward her car to drive home; she was hoping that Oliver would let her sleep a few hours in the afternoon so that she would be able to do her homework later in the evening. She sat in the car with the key in her hand and rested her head against the headrest; she would only close her eyes for a minute or two. She soon fell asleep in the car and would have been asleep there all afternoon if somebody hadn't moved her to the passenger seat and drove her home. She woke up a few hours later and found herself on the couch in her apartment and she saw Mrs. Morrison playing with Oliver in the kitchen. She rose and walked over to her son and neighbour.

"Hi, you didn't have to do this Mrs. Morrison. Why didn't you wake me up?"

"I wanted to help out, you needed some sleep dear. Besides that boy who dropped you off asked me to and he seemed so nice."

"What boy?"

"I don't know he never told me his name, though I thought he looked a lot like this little sweetheart." The old lady gestured to the child in her arms.

"Oh-gosh, Lucas? Lucas brought me home?" Haley asked in shock.

"As I said I don't know his name. I'm going to go home hun, are you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine." Haley said still a bit shocked, she picked the little boy up from the lady's arms and carried him into the living room and sat down at the couch. She pulled out her schoolbooks to start doing her homework but as she did so she saw a piece of paper on the table in front of her, she knew it wasn't hers so she picked it up to see what it was. It was a note, a letter, a letter from Lucas.

Dear Haley (and Oliver),

Since you probably won't talk to me I thought this was the only way I could tell you how I feel, so here it goes. Just the other night I couldn't sleep because of all these memories that kept coming into my mind, it was memories of us, us before you left. All those happy moments we shared once but no longer have. I wish it didn't have to be like that, I wish we could go back to the way it was but I know we can't.

The night I came to your apartment and saw Oliver I couldn't help but wish to be there with you, not outside the window but inside holding you like I used to. Do you remember that day in the café when I managed to get you a brake during the afternoon rush just so that we could go to the park? That was a fun day, I was feeling down and you managed to cheer me up. Nothing can cheer me up these days, well you probably could but you're not in my life at the moment. I hate that I'm not a part of your life and it hurts to know that you have to go through each day alone.

It hurt when you left, I won't lie to you, it hurt so bad. Losing you was the worst thing that ever happened to me and I wish it had never happened. Even though losing you hurt, having you back and not being able to talk to you the way we used to hurts even more. It hurts to know that you blame yourself in all this when I'm the one who messed up. I saw it in you eyes, I saw the guilt and I hated myself for letting it go this far.

So the bottom line is that I miss you and that I still love you and this letter was just me begging to be forgiven. I love you Haley James and I love you too Oliver Lucas Scott.

Lucas.

By the end of the letter Haley was crying, she let the letter fall to the floor. She carried Oliver to bed since he was already asleep and she then returned to the couch. Sitting down she hugged a pillow tight as she cried. Half an hour later she fell asleep on the couch still hugging the pillow to her body.

When she woke up the next day she wasn't as tired as usual and soon she realized why, Oliver had slept all night. She walked into the bedroom and noticed that he was awake, giggling and playing with his feet that he found very interesting. She picked him up and carried him as she made breakfast for herself, he sat on her lap as she ate and she then feed him before she heard a knock at the door. It was Mrs. Morrison as always and the women talked for a few minutes before Haley bent down and gave Oliver a kiss and left.

This continued the rest of the week and when the weekend came Haley had gotten used to the stares and the talking behind her back. All the students talked about her and stared at her but only when they thought she did not notice, as if that would make it ok. She had stopped eating lunch in the cafeteria; she ate at the café before her shift started instead.

Friday night Haley sat at home thinking about the letter from Lucas as she had done every night since she found it. She couldn't figure out what to do or how she felt about it but the more she thought about it the more confusing it seemed to become. She couldn't help but feel sorry about leaving him, making him hurt. She never wanted to hurt anyone, especially not him whom she loved. Yes, that much she had realized she still loved him. No matter what happened she would never stop loving him. She knew she would forgive him, if not right now she knew she would eventually. She knew that before speaking to him she had to sort out the confusion inside her and come to terms with what she was actually feeling about this situation. That's what she'd been trying to do for the past few days but so far she hadn't succeeded. After several hours of thinking about this she finally gave up, walking into the bedroom to change. Then it hit her, she suddenly felt like everything made sense and the past nights thought's seemed pointless. Everything she needed to know was already there inside her.

At 2am there was a soft knock at Lucas' bedroom door and he woke up a bit confused. Who would be outside his room in the middle of the night? He rose from the bed and opened the door in his boxers and he had not expected to find a brown haired girl on the other side of it.

"Haley?" He said rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. "What are you doing here?"

"I… um… I… I'm so sorry Lucas." She managed to get out before falling into his arms sobbing uncontrollably.

Sorry about leaving you like this but everything will be explained in the next chapter. Again, please R&R.