My eyes were wide, my heart was beating, faster and faster. At least now I knew who the guy in black was... Athrun...
"What's the matter?" He asked. I stared at him. So many thoughts were going through my head. He even sounded like him. I stared deep into his dark green eyes. His long blue hair held back in a ponytail. I wanted to cry...then I stoppped. Why wasn't he happy,or at least gald I'm alright? I missed him so much, I've cried over and over yet, here he was looking as if nothing happened.
Athrun looked at me as if he was wondering why I was just staring at him. "What's wrong? I'm sorry, am I late? Miss. Lacus asked if I could bring this to room, 1320. Is this right? Maybe I was mistaken...Are you alright? You look pale. If you really don't want me here, you could just say so and I'd leave. Yeah maybe I was wrong, I-" He was silently cut off by my small tears that fell frommy face.He looked at me, confused.
"Athrun...reameber, it's me, Cagalli..." What's wrong, Athrun. Why are you acting so different? You seem nervous.
As I sat there, starring at nothing really, I herd my answer. "I'm sorry, Miss Cagalli, but I do not recall your name. Miss. Lacus explained to me that I have lost my memory and that I might never get them back... But, I would really like to know how I knew you. If it dosen't bother you that is..." I stood there, my eyes burning with the newly made tears. I sat down and motioned for him to sit down next to me. What was I going to say? I already knew what I wanted to say, "I loved you and you loved me..."
What he said next made my heart miss a beat. "As friends, right? That's wonderful! I've found my first friend! Thank-you, Miss Cagalli, I'm so happy I've found you! What was I like the last time that you saw me?"
"You were different. You were patient, soft, calm, confident, and very romantic." You've changed, Athrun. You aren't my Athurn anymore. You don't even remember me. Why, Athrun, why have you left me? Why don't you evenremember me. Why have I beenstupidenough to think you'd ever come back?
"You don't like the way I've become? I'm sorry...I'll try to be what you said I was. Give me time, I promise you, I'll remember. Will you be patient enough as to wait for that time? Maybe when I remember, you'll be happy. I don't like the way I am now. You have no idea how it feels not to have a single memory to guide you through times you don't understand." Athrun paused and took out a napkin. He took held of my face with his soft and gentle fingers, wiping off the tears. "Don't be sad. I'm here. I will definately remember. So far, the memory I'd find the most interesting, is you."
I smiled weakly and nodded. Athrun stood and put the napkin away. "Untill then, will you help me make new memories? Maybe then I'll become the confident person you want me to be." I cried. Cried for him. I didn't want to be a burden to him anymore. I've already done enlough of that. Maybe his losing his memories was for a good reason. Maybe forgetting that he's killed at least one-hundred people, lost many friends and his father as well was more like a blessing than a curse. Maybe his forgetting me was better as well. He needed a friend more than a selfish girlfriend right now. Maybe his new self was for someone else to fall in love with someone that would be there to comfort him, make him happy.
I will make him happy. Even if it hurts me, even if it kills me. I love him enough to make that sacrifice. Did you hear that, my Athrun, I love you... I wrapped my arms around him softly. Holding him for a long time. A friend's hug. Yes, I was his firend. I was going to be his friend, forever. As long as I could still make him happy. That was all that mattered to me. "Don't worry. I'm just happy I had the chance to see you again. I'll help you make memories. Happy memories. Is that ok? Can I make you memories? Are you sure you want memories with me?"
Athrun smiled and sat down next to me again. "Then,I will remember who I am and you will have happy memories with me as well. At least I'll be able to make you new memories with me." I smiled. I actually smiled. This was one of the last places I could find myself smiling. But thruth be told, I had a tiny shimmmer of hope that my Athrun would come back to me. And I was going to help him.
I stood up and took Athrun's hands. Pulling him up. I walked ahead of him and onto the balcony. It was nighttime and the stars were shining brightly."I have a story to tell you. And it's not fake, it actually happened to me. Do you want to hear it?" Athrun smiled and shook his head in dissapointment.
"Why are you asking, go on with it. Wait a minute. Is this story going to be one of my long lost memories that I'm supposed to find?" he asked, his hands on his hips. I frowned with a smile. I waited till he finished his glare and started...
(Flash Back)Continuing...
When I was just about to reach, the soldier's eyes shot open. I grabbed the gun and slid off to the other side of the wall. Here I was, in teh middle of a huge island, sitting with only my underwear in the freezing cold, holding a gun to the enemy. That's how it was supposed to be. But it was nothing like that. I felt different than I was supposed to feel. I didn't want to shoot, I really didn't.
The soldier lookd ready for anything, he had his knife held out in front of him again, no big surprise. "I don't want to shoot you, but that thing, that mobile suit will killl lots of earth people if I let you go!"
"Fine then shoot me. Because I'd be the one pulling the trigger. I'm a Zaft pilot till he bitter end.I will not let you take my machine. And if you try to shoot me, I'm going to have to kill you!" I sat there, the gun in my hands. there were tears in my eyes. I looked at the boy's eyes. They were the eyes of a soldier in his last battle. He was ready for anything...including death.
Finally I made up my mind. I couldn't shoot him, he's been too kind. I closed my eyes and yelled, "To hell with you!" the gun flew right out of my hands. He jumped up right away and threw the gun to the side. Crash! The gun shot flew somewhere I had no idea where. The soldier had fallen down and landed on me. He lifted up his head, frowing.
"What, are you crazy! Throwing a loaded gun!"HE shouted,thefire reflecting off his eyes.I lay there on teh ground, shaking.
"S-sorry." I was scared. that really scared me. I didn't expect that to happen.
"Unbelievable." He sighed, sitting down next to me. I guess I scared him as well.I was still breathing heavily as I sat up.
"Well...you see...I uh..." I paused. Starring at a darker red area on his Zaft uniform, as if the uniform wasn't dark enough already. There was a cut in his uniform. And the red part was blood. "Did...did I just do that?" I asked, sitting up.
"It's nothing." he answered, standing up and walked over to his pack.
"We should take care of that." I said, turning over to look at him again.
"Don' worry about it." he asid, lifting the bag.
"Here, let me help you." I protested. Pulling the bag into my arms, with his other hand still holding the other part.
"I can do it." he said, pulling the bag back to himself.
"Let me." I said, pulling the bag even closer. "C'mon."
"Forget it." he answered, a little more forceful.
"Let me do it, " I said, looking down. "I really want to repay you for everything you've done to help me." I pulled the bag back. "Agh, it's the least I can do for you." His eyes turned soft with understanding. then they suddenly widened and he turned around.
"Before that, can you please get dressed?" He was right, I was standing right in front of him with my underwear. I guess I'd have forgotten about it because I was so shocked.
I gasped, falling to my knees. Using the bag as coverage. I swear, my face must've been bright red with embaressment.
Still turned around, he said, "Your clothes must be dry by now."
After I got changed I went over and started bandaging him. We didn't say much after that.
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I stopped leaving dream world and saw that Athrun was still looking at me, blushing. "Wow...that happened to you?"
I smiled playfully and answered, "Your face is bright red. And yes, it did. He quickly turned around and said,
"You're the one who sould be blushing. It happened to you, not me." I paused. then smiled again. "Who was that guy? the whole story you've just been saying, 'guy' or 'soldier' or 'enemy' and never his name."
What was I going to say? I sighed and said, "I'll finish off the story tomorrow then. Don't be late. I hate waiting." Athrun nodded with a smile and left the room. "Wait Athrun!" He paused. Please, there is one thing that you could do." He smiled
"Hmm, I don't like the soundof this." I walked over to him.
"Do you like pony tails?" He frowned and asked,
"I don't know. Why, you don't like it?"
"Never mind. I'll see you tomorrow then." He nodded and walked out, leaving me with my thoughts. Was this going to be another peddle? I decided to wait and see what happens next until I answered that one. I closed my eyes, falling into the best sleep I'd had in months.
The next morning. I woke up to find that my window was open and my breakfast was waiting for me. This is strange. I thought. What was a maid doing in my room? "Excuse me, um-"
"Good-morning, Miss Cagalli. It's nice to you you're up." she said in a chearful voice. I sat up and wiped off my morning eyes. "If you're wondering why I'm here, there's a letter for you on your bedside table."
I reached over weakly for the letter. I read the front of it, it said, 'Miss. Cagalli.'
"What?" I opened the top. Inside there was a little rose similar to the one I'd made. There was one peddle on it as well. This rose was different. It was blue. What was this all about?
I opened up the letter and read it. Dear Cagalli, I found your little yellow rose on my way out last night. I thought that I'd make one of my own as well. For everytime that I remember something, I'll draw a yellow peddle on your flower. Then everytime you feal better you can draw a blue peddle on my flower. Once you're finish your flower, give it to me. I'll do the same with my flower. I hope this makes you feel a little better. I'm going to try on getting you to finish my flower. That's another promise I'm going to make. Right now I have two promises I'm going to keep. I hope that at least then you'll be happy. And if you're wondering what the blue peddle was, that was one that you owe me.I want to see that you're happy tonight when I come by. Yesturday was a bad start. I can't wait to see you tonight. Your friend, Athrun.
"Have you found out why?" the maid asked, having waited until she finished reading. Cagalli nodded and left the maid smilling. "Good then, so we'll get started then?" I paused.
"What do you mean, exactly?" I didn't know what to expect, but after what happened last night, I was ready for anything.
"Getting ready for the date, of course." I wasn't ready. this wasn't on my 'be aware of 'list. That was completely out of the blue, alright.
"WHAT! I thought that-" She stopped me by putting her hand over my face.
"I'm sorry, I thought it was a date. You are going out with a really good looking guy and the last I saw you two, you were laughing along with him while telling hi something that happened to you in your past." Smiled, looking at my face. "You're blushing, princess."
I quickly took a deap breath and looked at her again. "No, I'm not going out with him. I'm just being a very good friend. By the way, does Kira know he's here?" The maid shook her head, confused. "I'm going to go down and get him." I shotup and was just about to run out of the room when the miad stopped me.
"My, my, princess, are you goingin that?"I nodded,
"Is there something wrong withit?" I looked down inspecting it."I wore it in front of both Athrun and Kira.They didn't say anything."
"That's because they were being polite. If you're going to be a proper princess, you'll have to act like one. And dress like one as well."
Cagalli sighed. "Will, you stop with the whole, 'princess' thing. Get on with it and show me how I have to look like to be a princess."
The maid nodded. "Very well then. Give me a minute, I have to get you the proper out fit." That sounded rather nice. Maybe getting out of these old bags would do me some good anyway. the maid walkedd off into the wall. I looked at her for a while. Was she a ghost? I thought to myself. I was wrong. She hadn't just walked into a wall, it was a giant room filled was clothes. She walked out with something in her arms. "Here you go, a prorper princess dress."
She held out a long, dark green gown. The neck was in a V shpe and the sleeves went out the farther down the arm. "No! I hate dresses!"
The maid looked disapointed. "Don't you want to look your best? I'm sure he'd love to see you in a dress, all the men do. And-"
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, haven't you noticed? All those young men keep on coming up to me to ask what things you like. I always tell them that I'm not even your maid. Which I wasn't. Now I am. I think I'm going to have a great deal of more trouble now that I am." I turned around, grabbing the dress.
"Fine, I'll wear the stupid dress. At least then I won't ahve to keep arguing with you." I said, looking away.
After I finished twisting through the annoying dress, I walked out to show the maid. I looked up to see the maid's eyes wide open. "What, does it look that bad? Jeez, you don't have to stare at me like that." The maid shook her head and ran up to me. Motioning for me to spin while her smile grew. Finally she told me to stop and put a hand on her mouth. "I guess not. What do we do now?"
She sighed and pulled out a table full of make up and jewelery. "You, be quiet. I'll do the rest."
We spent almost all day trying to get my hair to look right. I couldn't believe how long it was. I hadn't looked in the mirror for quite a while now. I guess it was about all the way down my shoulders to the middle of my back. i was beginning to get worried, what was I going to look like in the end?
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I hope you like the story so far! What willCagali say to Athrun about the ever mysteries,'Zaft Soldier' inher story? Will she tellhim and reveal her feelings to him, or will she turn him down?To find out what happens on the little 'meating' with cagalli and Athrun, please Review! I need to know if this is worth it and if I should continue! Xoxo, Daisygirly.
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