I was beginning to get worried, what was I going to look like in the end?

Well, I found out soon enough. "There you go, a real princess." She turned my chair around slowly. I closed my eyes. I hated dresses. What was it going to look like? Just when I opened my eyes, I saw the maid smile. "Do you like it?" Truth was, anything would've done after wearing that other pair of clothes for a year.

My hair hung all down, with two locks made out in the front. She also made me put on make-up. Yes, make-up. I hate details. let's just let the maid explain it... "Wow, I've never seen anything like it! That boy is going to love it!"

I frowned, giving her a glare. "For the thousand's time, It's not a date!" I think she was teasing me. Truth was, I wanted it to be a date. The perfect date with Athrun and me. I never had the chance to have that. I was going to have to end my story tonight. What was I going to say? I decided to leave it until it actually was nighttime. The maid looked at me, I saw her eyes looked to be of pity.

"You like him, don't you?" It was more like an answer than a question. I didn't answer and felt a little tear go out of my eye. I decided that if I stayed here any longer I would cry, and the make-up would run down my face. For the first time in a long time, I wanted to look good. I wanted Athrun to see that I hadn't given up and that I can move on, without him. He needed to have the freedom to make the decision.

I stood up, my hands crossed and the dress swaying behind me. As I was just about to leave the room the maid made me pause, "I hope things will turn out alright. You're a very bright person, I think he likes you." I wanted to smile and believe what she said was true...but no. I just walked on and into the never-ending hallway.

After ten painful minutes, with walking down the longs stairs with high heels, and waiting to see Athrun's face again, I stood face to face with Athrun. His eyes were wide. I swear, I think his mouth would've hung open if he'd allow it. I blushed, his hair was short...did he really care all that much? After about a few seconds of starring, he waved his hand over to someone sitting in one of the dining tables. I looked over, was it Kira?

He pulled her toward us, both of them holding hands. "Miss. Cagalli, I'd like you to meat my new girl friend, Flay Alistair." I froze, trying to keep the smile on my face. This wasn't happening, this wasn't happening. It wasn't true, it couldn't be...why, Athrun? I thought back to what I told myself earlier. I was his friend; I wanted him to be happy. But why, why Flay Alistair? There have been so many bad things happening to me, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry more than ever right now. I couldn't. I was frozen solid.

Instead, I turned around. I turned around and walked away. Athrun waited for a few seconds then realized where I was going. I heard footsteps behind me. They were coming closer. "Miss. Cagalli, Miss. Cagalli! Wait!" Finally he reached me and grabbed my arm.

"Let go of me!" I cried. I actually cried. The tears flew from my eyes as I yelled at him. Yelled at him for nothing. Yes, he did do something. He left me. "Why! Why are you doing this to me! Athrun, Athrun it hurts. My heart hurts. I don't know what to do. I...I..." I love you, Athrun. I couldn't tell him. I wanted to tell him and then things would go back the way they were...but that was selfish. How was he going to feel if I told him? He might feel guilty. I didn't want to be a burden, no. Not ever. I wish I never met you Athrun...then I would've been happy. Was that true? Did I really want that?

I slowly walked forward, wrapping my arms around his waist. He quickly put his arms around me too. "It's ok, I'm your friend, remember? You'll be fine. I told you I wasn't going to be late. Do you want me to tell Flay to come another night? I'm sure she'll understand." I held onto him tighter.

"I'm scared, I don't know what to do. I'm getting married to a thirty-year-old man. I don't love him." Athrun smiled and said,

"You're a brave girl, you know that? I'm sure you'll be fine. Lacus told me about all the things you've done and survived. I'm sure I've never done all that. You know, you took too many chances. I mean, you even left the whole Archangel waiting for you." Athrun was wrong; he was stronger than I was. If he knew how much he did then he wouldn't even have brought it up? I finally gathered up some courage and let go of him. I forced a little smile and took his hand, walking him onto the balcony. He was silent. Observing his surroundings.

I walked onto the balcony and sat down. It was strangely cold. It was warm holding Athrun. I wished I hadn't let go. "Are we going to finish the story then?" I asked him, smiling. He nodded and sat down next to me. I sighed and started the ending...

(Flash back) Ending...

After I got changed I went over and started bandaging him. We didn't say much after that...

He walked up to his gundam and jumped into the seat. I sat on the ground, looking up at it. The giant machine actually amazed me with how many people it killed. It was just horrible. What's going through the minds of those people? What does this war prove, anyway? Who's the strongest? It looks more like, 'who can kill the most people.' I wish this war would end. But if fighting won't end it, what will? If I even tried to walk into the plants they'd probably shoot me before I even stepped on ground. I smiled. I wonder what it's like to live without war. Not having to see all those people die everyday. Next being scared so much at your every minute of the day. To live in peace, that would be wonderful.

I waited for a while, until finally he jumped out of the suit, looking beat up. "I guess they're coming. There also seems to be your group coming with as well. You're very brave, soldier."

I frowned. "I already told you, I'm not a soldier! So am I going to have to go back to my plane now?" He smiled,

"Yeah, we don't want a battle to start up right now." Finally, he turned around and started walking, I called out to him, "Wait! I forgot to ask your name!"

"It's Nigal!"

"Mine's Cagalli!" With that, he turned around and left. I turned around as well and ran off to see Kira.

"The End." I had look away at the part of saying 'Nigal'. It burned inside of me to say 'Athrun'. I wanted to tell him right then. Instead, I just blew it off again. I had only seen him for a day since the accident; I shouldn't push it on him. Besides, I saw Flay. Things were different now. It gave me less of a chance to be with him anyway. Athrun sat back in his chair. I liked his hair short. It made it feel like old times. It also brought out his eyes more, the way his hair outlined his face.

It felt like he was slowly becoming himself again. I guess I shouldn't rush it so much. It's only been one day. I couldn't expect that he'll remember anyway. Athrun blushed. "Um, I think I have to go. I've wasted enough of your time already. Well then, can I see you again tomorrow? This time I'll meet you here instead. And I won't bring Flay. I think she's going to break up with me anyway. She just met me and told me she wanted to be my girlfriend for a day. I felt guilty, so I said yes."

I gave him a little punch on the shoulder. "You Jerk! You had me worried there for a second. That girl isn't exactly your type." Athrun smiled, and sighed, his head leaned back.

"Who are you to chose who I'd like? Don't I at least have a choice?" He was playing with me. I didn't like that; the old Athrun knew that as well.

"Well, yes I do. I know you better than you do, don't I?" He smiled and stood.

"Well, I already told you! I'm going to remember! Don't judge me so quickly, I'm a coordinator, aren't I?" He teased, pulling his coat back on.

"Huh, very funny Athrun. See you tomorrow. Don't be late." Athrun waved back on the way out and left me, once again to think. Agh! The days are getting so confusing! I can never know now if it's a pedal or not. Well, talking with Athrun in the end deserves a pedal. I guess I can draw another one... I got up and gathered up all my coulors. His flower was blue, so I had to make another blue peddle. I liked shading it in. It made me think of Athrun. As soft as a flower. After that, I put it away and finally went to bed; I had a hard day today. I needed the rest to be all happy tomorrow when Athrun comes over.

The next morning, I woke up to a soft little breeze coming from the balcony. Oh no, I left the balcony open last night. I better go close it then. I took off the covers and sat up for a while, trying to get my eyes to lighten up a bit. Stretching my arms, I stood up and walked over. Then I paused. "Good Morning, Miss. Cagalli." Came a nice soft voice. It was Athrun. I guess I didn't leave the door open. He motioned for me to sit down next to him.

"Hey. What are you doing here?" I asked, in a cheerful tone. Trying my best not to sound grumpy. I wasn't exactly a morning person.

"I've come to great you. After last night, I wanted to see you again and talk. It's so exciting talking to you, you never know what's going to happen next." He walked over and joined my by one of the tables. No one was out on the balcony in the morning. They were all tired from doing work until midnight. "Besides, Lacus also wanted me to tell you when I come that she wanted to see you again. Her schedule is so busy, you should see her more often. She likes company. And I'm sure you'd give her all the company she needs."

I smiled and stood next to him, leaning over the railing a bit, letting my hair fall over my shoulders. Athrun smiled and stood next to me. "Why is your hair long?" He asked. What did he mean?

"Why? Don't you like it?" I frowned at him, confused. He smiled and nodded.

"I was just thinking of the way you'd look in short hair. It would suit your personality more." He was right; I did feel different with my hair like this.

"Yeah, I hadn't really thought of cutting it for a while. But Maybe I should. After all, you cut your hair when I said so." Athrun smiled,

"You were right, the pony tail makes me look like an old depressed artist. Even though I don't have any of my old memories, my new memories won't accept them. As in memories, I mean you." I smiled.

"Hey, it's not my fault you listen to me. Besides, you just said you liked it." He looked over,

"Yeah, I do. And, just encase you forgot, you need a hair cut." I punched him on the shoulder.

"We'll see when I want to go back to being myself. At this point, I have to be like a princess. I'm getting married to the brat, remember?" Athrun looked away and sighed.

"Yeah, that brat. It must be hard, giving your life over to help others. It must take a great deal of courage." I sighed and put my hands over my face. Looking out onto the far off land.

"No, I'm just being selfish complaining so much in the process. I'm sorry." I looked over to see Athrun's face. He was looking at me not with pity, but his face was worry. I looked at him and smiled, "I'm alright. There's no need to worry." Athrun looked away and asked,

"Will I...be able to see you again, Miss. Cagalli?" I could barely hear what he said, but I nodded.

"Of course you would. You're my closest friend. You're the first one I'd invite." he smiled and reached over to hug me.

"I'll make sure you're happy, even though you're going to be his wife, I'll be able to be your friend and make you happy while you're there. Don't worry; I'm going to go through this with you. You won't be alone. You don't have to be sorry, you have a reason to be scared." I hugged him back and backed away.

"I'm going over to Lacus. I haven't seen her in a while, is that ok?" he nodded with a yes and so I left the room and onto the hallway again. My hair was getting long; it kept going into my face. The stairs were once again filled with people. All greeting me with 'hello's and salutes. There were more this time because they recognized me as the princess with my dress. This time I greeted them all back with a smile. Finally, when I got to the bottom, I walked out the front door. Lacus was just a short walk away. Her orphanage was quite big, especially because the war had only just ended.

I looked at the birds flying around me. It was nice seeing something outside of my room and not on the balcony. From way up on the balcony it wasn't as nice as actually walking through the grass. I took my shoes off for a bit. Enjoying the soft feel of the soft ground. The sun was shining its first sparks of the day to come. It was nice waking up to find Athrun standing on the balcony. He's matured a bit. I don't know how, I think it was because now he had a chance to grow in a different way. Oh Athrun...

I stopped in front of the door. The place was big. I quickly put my shoes on and rang the doorbell. Cagalli came to the door. "Cagalli! How nice it is to see you again." She made room for me, so I walked in.

"Lacus...you cut your hair!" She smiled and spun around for me so I could see it. She had cut it up to shoulder length. I never knew Lacus could look so could if she cut it. "It's almost all gone! You look wonderful!" Lacus smiled and pushed the button to close the door.

"Kira told me I should try something new. You should've seen the look on his face when he saw me. Are you sure it looks good? I like it. I haven't had my hair cut in a while; it feels very light when I move around. I think your hair looks wonderful as well, Cagalli." I smiled, still trying to get the picture in my head. I couldn't believe how different she looked with her hair like that. She looks older. I'm sure I looked older as well, though.

I walked farther in. Lacus opened the door to the main room, where all the kids kept themselves busy. There were from ages four to eleven in there. Poor children, all who have lost their parents. One of the little girls walked up to me, holding out a little flower. "Wecome! My name is Sawah." She was about four, still trying to get her words right I smiled at her and took the flower.

"I'm sorry, but I'm going to be staying for long." I told her. She smiled and said,

"But you don't have your mommy and daddy eithew! You need a flowew!" Lacus walked over and picked her up.

"Sarah also didn't want to stay here when she first came. She's just insisting you stay for a while." I nodded and put the flower behind my ear.

"While I'm here, I'll wear your little flower, ok? As a reminder to stay a little longer." She smiled and struggled out of Lacus's hands to run off to joins her friends. Lacus put her down and pulled out a chair for me. I sat down as she pulled a chair for herself.

"I'm so happy you and Athrun are friends now. You need a friend. Has he remembered anything yet?" I sighed.

"He's trying his best, the poor guy has to listen to all my boring complaints. I don't want to make things worse for him." Lacus smiled and said,

"Well, I'm happy things are going well. Before he went to see you, he was acting nervous about if he was saying the right thing or if he wasn't forgetting something. You've helped him. Everyday, he can't wait to come see you again. But Cagalli, be careful." I wasn't expecting that, what did she mean? "Don't rush him into his memories just yet, it could hurt him to suddenly remember the war again. Worse, it could kill him. He loves you so much; he's bound to remember you someday. But if it's too soon, he will die. If' it's not, he will still hurt terribly. You'll have to be there for him when it happens. Promise me, you'll take it slowly?"

I nodded. That was a lot of pressure to put on a person, as much as I wanted Athrun to remember. I didn't want it to I hurt him. This just made tings a little more difficult. "Lacus, can I ask you something?" She nodded cheerily. "Can you cut my hair the way it was before? I miss my old hair." She smiled,

"Are you sure? Your hair looks really nice like that." I nodded and said,

"I miss being myself. It would be nice to have it back the way it was." Lacus walked off and went to get the supplies she needed.

When she was finished with my hair, I was happy to see it look back to the way it was. I kept the dress though. Athrun liked that. I walked up to the door, saying bye to all the thousands of haros Lacus had. Lacus waved my off and left me to walk back.

When I finally got back to the door of my room I found that Athrun was still waiting on the balcony. "Oh, I'm sorry Athrun! I didn't know you were waiting for me!" He smiled and turned around. His smile dropped to an amazed look.

"Cagalli, your hair...you actually cut your hair..." I smiled and walked up to him.

"You actually thought I was going to keep my hair long for ever? No, I like my hair like this. Did you see Lacus's hair? It really suits her." Athrun smiled and nodded. We were silent for a while. He was about to say something else, when he froze.

"Athrun? Are you ok?" He wasn't answering; I saw a frightened look on his face. He threw up his arm ands grabbed his head. Slowly kneeling to the ground. He was crying, how much it hurt. He held onto his head, yelling harder and harder. I was scared what was I going to do? He was yelling in agony. I couldn't do anything. Then I heard him start yelling something to himself.

"No! In don't want to forget! I don't! Come back! Come back to me! Ahh!" I ran over to hold him. Lacus had told me about this, she told me to be careful. How could I have been so stupid? Athrun was crying, there were tears in his eyes. "No, I can't! I can't forget! Please! Don't leave me! No! Please, come back!"

I held onto him, crying out his name, he didn't answer, it hurt too much. "Athrun! Listen to me! Forget! Forget it all! I don't want you to remember! I want you to be happy Athrun! Please, forget it all!" I cried on his shoulder. Then I softly spoke right by his ear. I had made up his made, I loved him too much to make him hurt like this. "Forget me, and live on, Athrun." There was silence. Then Athrun stopped.

"What happened? Who are you?" It was so hard not to cry. I wiped off the tear from his face.

"It's alright, I'm your friend, Megan..."

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;; I'm sorry I had to end this Chap like this, but I don't want this story to end so fast! I've only been on it for three days. Thank-you for the reviews! You guys made me really want to write. Sorry about all the mistakes, I'll try to make less. I guess it's cause I'm typing too fast. If any of you have ideas that you think will help me on my story, I'd love for you to send them to me! I don't want to suddenly run out! Thank-you again for reading! Xoxo, Daisygirly.