I'm so sorry guys! I think I should've finished it before. I make mistakes a lot! Don't worry, I'll make the ending extra special! I hope im not pissing you guys off or anything! -.- .sigh. if only this were easier. I hope you forgive me for all my mistakes! After all, maybe you should thank me, hmm? I'm nt going to publish my new story in a while. so I decided just to end this one.I'll try not to do that again! But, if you really knew me, you knew I would do it again. Yes, yes I know. Sad, isn't it? Hope you guys like Ze end : )!
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All I thought right then in my head was 'please Athrun, remember...'
He didn't remember. Here I was, standing in front of the big doors, waiting for the flower girl to throw her last bunch of petals onto the ground. My heart was beating, faster and faster every time she dropped a couple more petals. Then more. I was wearing the very coulor I promised myself I wouldn't wear on my wedding. White. Finally when she threw her last petal, I walked forward.I closed my eyes, imagining what my wedding with Athrun would've been like, if I ever had one. People along the sides, me walking down the isle, waiting to reach him. My green dress swaying behind me, all I have my eye caught on is Athrun. I would walk forward, slowly and gently, taking my time.
Finally when I was about to reach him in my mind, my eyes opened. I would never be able to take that last step. He was the one who had to take that step, and he had failed. He was never able to take that step. Opening my eyes brought me back to reality. The light-blue haired beast looked down at my with a foolish grin. I didn't do anything, I just stood there. Starring at him. Biting my lip so I wouldn't cry. The priest spoke. I felt dizzy standing there. He smiled his evil smile. I hated it, I hated him. For once, why didn't someone else have the suffer? For the thousands time, why me! I knew why. Because of me. It was all my own fault. Two years ago...if I hadn't let him self distruct his gundam. If I hadn't let him go. IfI had held onto his hand and told him I'd go instead,I would've died. He would've been able to move on. He was strong. he would've been able to forget me. It all would've made more sence. But, in the end, we both have to suffer.
"You may now kiss the bride." I hated that part. It hurt. He actually hurt me. I never thought that kissing a guy could hurt so much. When he finally let go, I knew it was over. I didn't even noticed I had said, 'I do'. When the priest had asked. He held out his hand. I took it.. He gave me a ring. A gold ring. I hated gold. Athrun alson knew that. This guy might have known as well. I took the ring I had bought for him. It was silver. The proper coulor for a wending ring. I wished I hadn't. But I didn't really care. I put it on his finger and took my hand anyway, not wanting to look him in the eye.
After the wedding, Yuuna had to go to a meating. He left a maid to lead me to my room. Luckily we weren't going to share a room. That was about the only good part in it. I ran over and onto my bed. Crying. I know, it was getting old. My eyes were burning like crazy. this is the end...it's all over for me. I don't know how I'm going to survive with Yuuna, but I'll have to live. When I finally cried my throat out, I lied down and closed my eyes. Just when I was about to fall asleep, I heard a knock on my door. What now? "Come in." I groaned.
Athrun walked in through the doorway. He was drenched. "Miss. Cagalli. I've found you." He said, then fell over to the ground.
"Athrun!" I yelled running down to see what happened.
He opened his eyes and smiled. "Please, tell me you're ok? I'm sorry. I told you I was coming to your wedding. I'm sorry that you couldn't trust me with that. The other night, when you cut your hair. I tried to remember you, I really did. Please, once I remember, will you come back to me? Please, I need you. I can't believe I was so stupid. that night, you told me you loved me. I'm sorry I called you just a 'friend'. I didn't mean to make you cry though. Please, when I remember, will you come back to me?" Tears ran down his face. I held onto him.
"Oh Athrun..." He held onto me and cried. I was so happy. I cried on his shoulder. These tears felt different. They made the rip in my heart heal a bit. "Until then, I'll be waiting...I always have. What could another few years hurt?" Athrun shook his head and sat up.
"No. I'm not gonig to take that long. Cagalli, until then, I'm not going to allow myslef see you again. I don't want you to see me and know that I still haven't remembered." I shook my head, sad tears falling out of my face again. I hated these tears.
"No, Athrun! Please, stay? Be my friend?" Athrun gently held my face and gave me a kiss. I never knew a kiss could be so wonderful. After that kiss I had with Yuuna, I never knew it could be even close to being as good as this. Finally we seperated and Athrun looked me in the eye. His hand still holding my face. He smiled and got up.
"I look forward to having another one of those with you. Please, show me you can be patient and wait for me?" After I said nothing for a while, and just smiled. He nodded and walked away, out of the room. Leaving me to calm down. I didn't expect that to happan. Not at all. I was so happy, Athrun loved me! He really did love me. I couldn't believe it. But then...he still wasn't with me, I was still married to the idiot and we still weren't together. Things bad never end very fast for me. They always seem to enjoy their stay while they're here. The war was still going on in the minds of the people who survived. I hope it isn't going to get carried away and start again...it already wasted enough of my life.
I walked over to my new bed. Once Athrun remembers me, he's going to free me from this cage. Yes, that would be wonderful.
The next morning, I checked to see if the whole thing was just a nightmare. Then I remembered Athrun kissing me. I guess it was true. I wonder if I should go over to Lacus to see what's happened. She hasn't come to visit me after the wedding. I got dressed and walked out of my room. I had put on the dress that I wore on the day that I was with Kira and we met the 'tiger'. I liked that dress. It actually made me look like a girl. Now I wouldn't have to worry about some random guy asking if I was a girl. I hated that.
I was happy, now I wouldn't have to worry about anything. I did miss Athrun though. He was coming back, but that would take a while. As I walked down the path to Lacus's house. I thought about what I'd tell her about Athrun. Was I going to tell her right away or wait until Athrun actually came back? I didn't know. When I finally came to the door, I rang the bell. The usual. Lacus came and answered the door. her hand was on her mouth. She was upset about something. "What is it?" I asked, worried.
Lacus motioned for me to come in so I followed her. "Kira...Kira is, um...Kira went off to stop that battle that's just started in America. It's quite far from here. So it took a day or two. I...I haven't heard anything from him since. I don't know what to do. I told him to send messages while he was there. Every hour. So I know he's still alive. But, it's been five hours since I've heard from him. I-" She was cut off by the phone. She pressed one of the buttons. "Good-Morning, this is Lacus Clyne here. Yeah, um...no...I...yes. What! No! This, this can't be! Kira! I-" I held her hand and told her to calm down. She looked at me, her eyes were watering. She hung up the phone and held onto my shoulders, her head hung low. "Kira, he...oh my...Cagalli!"
I gave her a hug and she continued. "I can't...! I can't say it! It's too unbearable! Please, Cagalli, I can't! Your brother he..." I held her in my arms. What could be so horrible as to make Lacus act like this?
"Lacus, it's ok. I'm here, it's ok. What about Kira?" She tried wiping her tears off, more came.
"Kira, I love him! I wanted to be able to tell him that! Kira, he...! Kira's gone MIA! Cagalli, do you know what this means? They say he's dead! I wasn't able to tell him I love him! I was planning on telling him when he got back! I love Kira! Cagalli, what am I gonig to do!" I listened to what Lacus said. She kept going on and on about how much she loved him. I just stood there, trying to understand what was happening. then when I finally realized what it was. I felt a familiar tingle go down my cheak.
"No...not Kira. It can't be. Not him, no one can defeat Kira! It's impossible! He's the ultimate coordinator!" Lacus nodded, not daring to show me her princess eyes. I backed away to the wall. Until I stopped, falling down to my knees. "My brother...my big brother! Why...why? Why is it always me?" I cried. yes I know, it must be getting borning reading about my selfish tears. but this time, I cried harder than I ever cried. because of all that had happened t me. I even cried harder than Lacus. Which seemed impossible because Lacus didn't even let herself breathe. This was a horrible moment for us both. And...the door bell rang. We went to go answer it. We opened the door to find...Kira. Of all people. Lacus ran over and into Kira's arms. He was injured. Right behind him was Athrun. Trying to keep him steady.
"Oh Kira! I love you!" Kira didn't blush, he just held her tighter and answered.
"Finally! I love you too, Lacus!" While the two of them enjoyed their fulfill ment. Me and Athrun starred at eachother. He walked up to me and said.
"Tonight. Will you come with me? I need you to help me remember. I guess I wasn't thinking when I said I'd leave you." I asnwered with a smile and ran into his arms.
"No." Athrun flinched.
"What do you mean? You don't want to be with me?"
"I don't want to hurt you, Athrun. I love you the way you are. Even if you forget the old me, we can still be together, right?" Athrun paused for a moment.
"But then, why?" I nodded, taking a breath.
"Because...because...! I love you Athun! I love you for who you are! I've always loved you! It doesn't matter about me! Please, I want you to be happy. I don't want to hurt you."
Athrun smiled, "I love you too Cagalli..."
It was all over now, Athrun never did remember. But I was happy. So many things happened over the years. Worst of all, the war spread. I'm going to go into battle now. I'm sitting in my soldier's outfit, writing down my thoughts. Being nineteen is great. Well, I'll have to end this now. I hope that if I die in this battle, or the next. I hope someone will remember me by this. I don't know what the fututre is going to be like. But I don't plan on living long enough to see the end of this new war. Our world is so dark. No one understands why we are here or what we're going to do next. I guess that may be the reason why this war started. Truth is, I have no idea. Good-bye then. I love you Athrun. I promise you, I'll never forget about your memories. And if I were in your posistion. I would've remembered the old you as well. Xoxo, Cagalli Yulla Autha.
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