The Waters of My Heart
disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed, Gundam Seed Destiny, or any of the characters. I also do not know how the war turns out because I haven't seen all the episodes to destiny.
Chapter 4
(10:23am. Orb High)
Shinn looked out the window and starred at the clouds. He was so deep in thought that his lab partner had to practically punch him to make him notice he added to much vinegar to the baking soda, causing an overflow of bubbling liquid. "Sorry," he mumbled as they cleaned it off the desk. "No prob dude. I got your back!" Craig said as he threw the used paper towels into the trash bin. "Yeah,…Whatever." Shinn replied blankly, resuming staring out the window. Stellar, what are you doing right now? he asked himself curiously. Luna looked up from her work and looked out the window of the math room. She smiled when she saw Shinn looking at the clouds on the other side of the courtyard. I bet he's thinking about me… Luna thought happily, awaiting lunch.
(10:37am. La Fllaga Kitchen)
Stellar sat at the table eating a late breakfast of bacon and eggs as she stared out the window to the darkening sky. "Rain…" she whispered to herself out loud as she took another bite. Last night had a negative affect on her. She had been awake for three hours, just staring at the white walls in her room, blinking every few seconds. She felt numb, unfeeling. The girl had tried to push Shinn out of her head, but her nightmares wouldn't let her. Every time her head fell on the pillow, she would wake within a few moments screaming. She felt tired, and awake at the same time, she felt like a zombie, if anything. She walked to her room and sat on the bed, before falling over on her side, her head near the bottom of the bed, and her feet near her pillow. Her magenta eyes were blank, void of any emotion. Almost dead like.
(11:34am. Orb High Cafeteria)
Shinn sat at the table and looked down at his food sleepily. He felt exhausted now that his mind didn't have to focus on studying, and he would've fell into his 'mashed potatoes, had Meyrin let him fall into his food. "That's it Shinn, you are falling asleep in lunch! That is so unlike you." the red head stated. "He was probably out partying with his friends last night!" a voice said from behind them. Shinn widened his eyes as he recalled everything from last night, and he felt refreshed as if by his anger. He turned around and saw Audrey standing with Lunamaria, his armed around her waist. "Hey Shinn. Is there something you want to say to me?" Lunamaria smiled slyly, and locked her hard gaze on Shinn's bored eyes. "Yeah, you're in my light." he replied blandly. She scrunched her face and tapped Audrey on his shoulder. The boy with green hair recognized the signal and pulled her towards him and planted his lips on hers and kissed her mouth to mouth. Shinn looked on in a bored state. "Are you done yet? I still have to eat lunch." Luna looked at Shinn bewilderedly. Audrey noticed and pulled her away. "Too late for you buddy! She's mine now!" he shouted over his shoulder.
When they got out of the cafeteria, Lunamaria turned to him. "Okay, since that didn't work, me and you. We're over." Audrey felt crushed. "What? B-but I thought, we-" She pushed him away. "You though wrong. Bye!" Luna walked away. Audrey leaned against the wall, and pushed a hand through his hair. "Stupid women…" he mumbled under his breath as he walked away.
Fukai fukai mori no oku ni ima mo kitto
Okizari ni shita kokoro kakushiteru yo
(4:30pm. La Fllaga Residence. Living Room)
Stellar walked into the room and noticed that the TV was on. She walked over to turn it off, when the four thirty news went on. "Huh?" she asked when she read the words "Special News Bulletin." The girl left it on as it began to relay the information. "This just in. Orb Central News Station (OCN) has a live report on an explosion near a lake beyond the forest on the outskirts of Orb. Apparently, the Earth Alliance Forces had set off a bomb 'accidentally', causing an explosion the size of Orb Cherry blossom Park, engulfing the home of seventeen year old Stacey Keller. Her home was a small battle field hospital for both sides to bring the sick and wounded. Ten patients, three nurses, and Ms. Keller were in the cottage when the explosion engulfed the premises-" Stellar widened her eyes as she sat on her knees in front of the TV. "Stacey? NO!" she whispered. "We have a field reporter on the scene. To you Karen." "Thank you, John. The fire fighters have started to come out of the burning home." The reporter walked to the fire fighters carrying the bodies out of the ashen and burning house. "We have found seven of the patients, two nurses. Unfortunately, two of the seven patients are dead, one nurse is suffering from severe internal injuries and the other woman is unconscious from minor burn marks. But most unfortunately, Ms. Keller's body was not found, but we assume that she is not among us anymore. The severe burns on the nurse have caused damage to-" Stellar widened her eyes and stared at the carpet. Stacey, because of her, Stellar was still alive. But now, the fiery red head with the large brown eyes would never see a blue sky again. Stellar hugged her self and bit her lip so hard that she could taste her blood in her mouth. "Stacey,…NOO!" the blonde chocked on her tears as she fell to the floor. After a few minutes, she struggled to the back door. She banged through it and walked out to the street. The dark grey clouds overhead rumbled loudly and dropped curtains of icy cold rain water to the earth.
Sagasu hodo no chikara mo naku tsukarehateta
Hitobito wa eien no yami ni kieru
Chisai mama nara kitto ima demo mieta kana
(4:30pm. Shinn's Apartment)
Shinn had stopped by his apartment before he went to see Stellar. He had turned the TV on for no reason in particular. He heard the OCN broadcast and thought about that morning in the graveyard. "Well, Stacey-" "Stellar must have meant that Keller girl!" Shinn thought. "Oh no, if she knows that that girl is dead, CRUD!" he shouted as he grabbed his car keys and ran out of the apartment.
He sprinted through the rain to his car in the parking lot. He pressed the unlock button and opened the door. He closed the door, started the ignition, and floored it to the road. Since it was raining, not many cars were on the road. He turned on the windshield wipers and stared angrily at the road ahead of him. "Stellar…"
Bokutachi wa ikiru hodo ni
Nakushiteku sukoshi zutsu
Itsu wariya uso o motoi
Tachisukumu koe mo naku
Aoi aoi sora no iro mo kizukanai mama
Sugiteyuku mainichi ga kawatteyuku
(4:40pm. Orb Streets)
Luna watched as Shinn stepped into his black corvette and speed off in some direction. She decided to follow him. "Shinn. Why are you playing so hard to get?" she asked cockily.
Tsukurareta wakugumi o koe ima o ikite
Sabitsuita kokoro mata ugokidasu yo
(4:57pm. Orb Bridge)
Stellar stood by the railing, looking at the black water below, being turned icy by the grey rain. Thoughts of Stacey and Shinn flashing in her mind. "I'll miss you Shinn…" she said sadly. She pushed herself onto the ledge, and swung her right leg over the railing.
Toki no "rizumu" o shireba mo ichido toberu darou
Shinn drove up near the bridge, and would've passed by if he hadn't seen the girl by the ledge sit on it. He put the brakes on and jumped out of the car and ran through the rain to the girl on the ledge. "Hey! What do you think you are doing-Stellar?" As he pulled the girl from the ledge, his surprised face showed that he had no idea earlier that it was her. "Shinn, leave me alone!" she shouted angrily at him, her eyes showing nothing but pain and anger in her magenta orbs. He frowned and furrowed his brow. "Stellar, what are you talking about?" The blonde became infuriated. "Your girlfriend! Go back to her! Stellar doesn't need you, or anyone else," she added softly. "Stellar, Luna, she isn't my girlfriend anymore! I broke up with her when you ran this morning. Please, you have to believe me."
Bokutachi wa samayoinagara
Ikiteyuku doko made mo
Shinjiteru hikari motome
Arukidasu kimi to ima
Stellar hugged herself again and turned away from him, her wet hair sticking to her cheeks. "I can, but I won't. I thought that you loved me. I told you I loved you, but I never heard your answer. So leave me alone now!" Stellar ran from him and slipped in the middle of the street. She got up slowly to make sure she didn't scrape anything, when two head light shined in her face as a car came whizzing down the road. Shinn ran towards Stellar and wrapped his arms around her waist before pulling her with him away from the road.
Bokutachi wa ikiru hodo ni
Nakushiteku sukoshi zutsu
Itsu wariya uso motoi
Tachisukumu koe mo naku
The car whizzed by the two teens lying on the ground close to the bridge ledge. Shinn lay on top of Stellar, his face close to hers. "Stellar, I'm sorry, please forgive me?" She smiled a small grin and lifted her lips to his, and he returned the kiss as he moved his hand up to her head and stroked her blonde hair away from her face. They parted after a few moments, and each took a deep breath. They no longer felt cold from the rain, but warm. They stared into each other's eyes so deeply, that they didn't notice a third person approach from behind them. "Shinn! What on earth are you doing with that natural?" shrieked a female voice from behind them. Shinn widened his eyes in anger and helped Stellar up as he turned around. "Lunamaria, you mean nothing to me! Got it? The only woman in my life is this girl right here." Shinn replied coldly, pulling Stellar close to him.
Bokutachi wa samayoinagara
Ikiteyuku doko made mo
Furikaeru
Michi o tozashi
Aruiteku eien ni
Luna stared angrily at her. "You have been with me for nearly a year! Then she appears and you feel you need to drop me and flock to her? Ugh! I am sick of her!" Stellar noticed that Shinn wasn't paying attention to her anymore, but starring angrily at Lunamaria. I'm sorry Shinn, but I must do this. she thought as she stepped away from him and towards the bridge ledge. She pulled herself onto the ledge and stood up. She turned around to Shinn, and smiled sadly. Shinn turned towards her and saw her on the ledge again. "Stellar, what do you think you're doing?" he cried out brokenly. Stellar looked at Luna, then at her hands. "Shinn, I have caused too much pain, to much suffering. If me being with you will hurt others, then I can't stay. I love you Shinn," she said as she spread her arms and let go of the support beam she had been holding onto. Shinn's red eyes widened in shock and he stood frozen in place. "Stellar, please," he whimpered to her. She smiled and waved slightly, and then tipped backwards, her arms staying spread, her wet hair flailing around her face in the sudden wind. Shinn jumped forward and tried to grab her but missed. "STELLAR!" he shouted, rain slipping off his outstretched fingers after the girls limp body, falling, flying, slipping away from pain, misery, sorrow, and love.
Tachisukumu koe mo naku ikiteyuku eien ni
Okay, now, I am so gonna get flames for this chapter, hehe. Okay, before you take out your torches, pitchforks, and guns, listen! I don't like how I ended this story, so I will write an alternate ending if you people review and tell me. The song was Fukai Mori by Do As Infinity, also on Inuyasha (Yay!) Well, thank you readers and reviewers! Thank you for reviewing and hopefully asking for the alternate ending.