Desire & Deceit

Chapter 1: I Said No

" Ron, I said no. Not now, not tonight", she sighed. They had been through this before. Every night they went further. Every night he asked. Every night she said no. Every night he let it go at that. But for some reason, he just wouldn't drop it tonight.

" Why? You've said no every night since the beginning of August yet every night here you are in my bed. Every night we get further into it. I love you Mione and I don't want to rush you, but you aren't making this easy for me. Why are you holding back when you know you want to?"

" I'm sorry. It's not that I don't want I just don't want to do this…."

" It's just that you don't want to do it with me, right? Is that what you're trying to say? If that's the case all you have to do is say the word and I won't bother you anymore."

" Wha……….. Ron that's not it! I just don't want to have sex right now! Can you please not make a big deal out of this?"

" Why not now? You said you wanted to wait until you were in love to have sex. Are you trying to say that you don't love me?"

" No………I….. uh…………I just……..uugggh! Listen to me I just don't want to be like Harry and Ginny where all their relationship right now is sex! I feel that if we make love now we won't have anything else going for us except that. I want more than that."

" Well, if you had just told me that in the first place we wouldn't be having this proble…………. Wait a minute! What did you say about Harry and Ginny?"

" Who me? I didn't say anything."

" Don't lie to me Hermione! Are they sleeping together?"

" Ron please don't get mad. This is why they didn't say anything to you in the first place."

" WWHHAAATT! I'm gonna kill him!" He ran out of the room with a murderous look on his face.

" Ron wait", Hermione called after him. Oh well, she thought, at least Ginny and Harry can handle themselves. They were going to be pissed at her in the morning, but right then, she didn't give a damn. All she wanted to do was go to bed. She quickly put her pajamas back on and slipped out of Ron's room. She fell backwards onto her bed and sighed. Ron was right she didn't love him and she didn't want to sleep with him. It didn't make any sense, she had had feelings for him since she was eleven. Why was it different know? Why was Ron so unsatisfactory? She had wanted him ever since they first met? Why didn't she want him any more? If not him then who did she want?

She fell asleep thinking about Ron, but she didn't stay asleep long. She had been awoken by her dream. It wasn't a nightmare. As a matter of fact it was a really, really good dream. She had had before too, about every night for the past year. But she never saw the face of the guy she was making love to, she always woke up before she saw his face and it was starting to get aggravating. She wanted to know who he was. She wanted him.

Hermione woke up the next morning to smell of food and to bright sunshine streaming in through the bedroom window. She got up, dressed, and went down stairs to find Mrs. Weasley in an empty kitchen.

" Good morning Mrs. Weasley", she said cheerfully.

" Oh, good morning Hermione dear. You're the first one up. Actually I'm surprised you're up so early, it's only 6:30."

" I didn't realize it was so early. Well since I'm down here, is there anything I can do to help?"

Hermione helped Mrs. Weasley finish up the breakfast then went to wake everybody else up. As she predicted, Ginny and Harry were both furious with her, but she knew they'd get over it by dinner so she ignored it. Then she went to wake up Ron.

" Good morning Ron."

He returned her greeting with a playful peck on the cheek. As she turned to leave he grabbed her arm and pulled her onto the bed with him. He let his weight push into her, making her fall backwards. She let his kisses travel from her mouth, down her neck, to her breasts, then back up again. She closed her eyes and pretended it was the man from her dreams. She let a soft moan escape her lips as she embraced the memory of his touch. Ron took it as a sign to go further. He slowly undid her pants, then pulled them and her panties off with one swift motion. Then he pulled his boxers down and proceeded to take her. The feeling of his erect cock against her thigh made her forget reality, she believed she was in the dream. She opened her legs to receive him and he entered her. He came quickly so it was over soon. She slowly opened her eyes, and before reality could hit her, she saw a pair of piercing gray eyes looking into hers. Then the turned into Ron's dull brown eyes and she realized what she had let happen.