Entry 7- No more Belinda Carter

Dear Diary,

THAT DOES IT! Remember when I said that I think there's something going on between Landon and Jamie? Well, I don't think I could be more right! It's officially official now! Landon is having an affair with Jamie Sullivan! Damnn, I'm so crushed. All this time I thought I could make something of Landon and me. But now it's clear. He dumped me for the Virgin Mary! Who would ever think that he would take a complete reject over ME?

Well, here's how I know that Landon and Jamie are together.

I was just simply driving to my own house after school, right? And to get to my house, you have to pass through Jamie's neighborhood. So I was passing through, when I saw Eric's car in front of Jamie's house. So I was like, what the hell is Eric doing at HER house? But then I remembered that Landon has been borrowing his car ever since his Camaro got wrecked the night of the initiation.

Curiously, I looked out of my window and saw Landon ringing Jamie's doorbell. I slowed down my car for a little while to see what was going on, and then Jamie opened the door and flashed a smile at Landon. Then Landon went inside!

After that, I was so puzzled, I completely forgot I was driving, so I almost crashed into a mailman's truck. I got back on track in no time, though. When I got home, I couldn't stop thinking about Landon and Jamie. So, that night, I decided to go over to Landon's and get everything straight.

I drove myself to his house and saw him sitting on the porch by himself reading from a little blue paper book. He put it down when he saw me though. He said, "Hey." But I didn't even greet him back.

I decided to go on easy on him at first. So I simply asked Landon where he was after school. He told me he was at home all day since school let out. Ha! There goes Lie #1. Then I asked him if was anywhere near Livingston Hill Road (the road where Jamie lives) any time today. He said he hadn't gone near there. Lie #2. Next I asked if he had gone to visit someone at his or her house today. He denied. Lie #3. And then I spilled.

I shouted, "What the fuck were you doing at Jamie Sullivan's house?" At first he looked shocked, but then he gave a shaky little laugh and said, "Uh, what makes you think I was THERE?" He disgusted me. I told him he's a terrible liar. He continued to tell me that he was never at Jamie's. I was so mad at him for betraying me for that girl, and now lying, that I gave him a shove. Then he exclaimed, "Belinda, what the hell is your problem!"

And I retorted, "What 's my problem? WHAT'S MY PROBLEM? My problem is that after almost a year you're gonna suddenly turn your back on me to take some reject like Jamie!" He just looked at me puzzled and said, "What makes you think I would even go out with Jamie Sullivan?"

He was so stupid. He didn't know I'd seen him with Jamie all this time. So I said to him, "You just don't get it do you? I've SEEN you, Landon. I've seen you with Jamie on the bus, in her car, AND going into her house!" The fool didn't even respond, he was in such a state of shock.

He opened his mouth to say something but I interrupted, "What happened to us, Landon? What happened to growing up together? You told me you loved me!" That got his attention. He chuckled to himself and uttered, "Do you think I actually meant that?" He shook his head slightly and chuckled again. And that did it.

I gave him another shove and said, "That's for choosing the Virgin Mary over ME! Thanks a lot, Carter." Then I got into my car, slammed the door and sped away, purposely driving out of control. And that brings me here. I'm too depressed to go out tonight.

I'm so crushed. I for sure thought Landon and I would have a lifetime together. But it's all being taken away by one measly little girl. Before it used to always be 'Landon and Belinda'. But now it's 'Landon and Jamie'. That doesn't even sound right. I definitely thought the name I would go by years from now would be Belinda Carter. But Jamie Carter? That doesn't fit. Damn, I'm so torn. I wish Jamie would stop ruining my life and go to hell.

Belinda

---Authors Note---

Officially official – haha! I love that. Please read and review. Thanks for all that reviewed. Olivia