Entry 9- Eyes of Anger

Dear Diary,

GAWD! This is NOT happening! I can't believe this! I must be the unluckiest person in the whole fuckin world! And it's all because of the pathetic excuse for a girl! I HATE JAMIE SULLIVAN! What the fcuk is wrong with her? WHY does she have to go around in her little quiet way, and then all of a sudden steal my man? Tonight is probably the worst night of my entire life! Here's what happened:

Tonight was the opening night of that play Landon's been so busy with. So everything was pretty normal by the time it started. The whole gang went, to see Landon act. I had to sit between these two old people, 'cause it was already packed when I got there. So when the play started it wasn't that bad. Nothing unusual happened—yet.

More to the end of the play, Eric started snoring—LOUD. Really loud. Practically the whole audience could hear him. I guess that sort of pissed me off already. Anyway, I was just taking a whole lot of pictures of the scenes. Then Jamie came out. When she pulled of her cloak, I noticed the audience had become completely silent. Even Eric had woken up. I mean, I was even surprised by the way Jamie looked. I always thought she would never have the guts to wear a low neck sleeveless in front of the entire audience. Well, she did. And it blew everybody away. Especially Landon.

His face, it was so obvious. He apparently looked surprised to see Jamie like that. He was even stuttering! Clearly, he was real nervous around her. And from watching a few of his rehearsals, I could easily tell he forgot some of his lines. So when he said to her, "You're beautiful.", I knew that was real. That line didn't appear anywhere in the script unless they changed it at last second. I know he actually MEANT it. I wouldn't be surprised if someone caught me breathing hard like a dragon.

And just when, I thought I'd seen the worst, Jamie sings her song and sends Landon into some kind of . . . trance. Like he wouldn't take his eyes off of her nearer to the end of the song. The look on his face was just so clear that he likes her. And while he was giving that face, I couldn't help but wonder, 'Why didn't he ever use that face on ME?'. The more I thought about this things the more I got mad.

But here's the worst part. Just as Jamie finished her song and sat back down at the table, Landon . . . he . . . shitt! It hurts so much I can't even write it! Ok, here goes. Landon leaned across the table and KISSED HER! He really, truly, actually freakin kissed her in front of the entire audience! Sorry if my handwriting's getting a little shaky, but it just hurts so much, I can't control myself! I feel like pulling all of my hair out, throwing it all Jamie , saying, "HERE! HERE'S WHAT YOU EFFIN' DID TO ME!"

When Landon and Jamie finished up their . . . K-I-S-S, the curtain went down. That nearly drove me insane. I mean, who knew what was going on behind that curtain? I didn't want to think about it so I ran down the steps, with tears streaming down my face and flew out of the community center as fast as I could—before Eric caught me by the shoulders and stopped me. He said, "Belinda, what's wrong?" And all I could say was, "It hurts, it hurts so much . . ." then while he still held my shoulders, he questioned, "What hurts?" as I struggled, I replied, "The kiss, it . . . it was real, Eric." And then he let me go, knowing. Then I ran away to my car and sped home, with anger in my eyes.

Belinda

---Authors Note---

O0o0o0…Belinda's MAD. Tell me what you guys think about this one. Thanks, Olivia