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Pairing: Harry and Draco

Rating: R

Summary: It's just another plot to turn Harry into a girl. He's possessive and depressive.

Disclaimer: It's not mine, trust me, I'm telling the truth. It's own by JK Rowling.

Warning: Depressing but not dark, slash

Chapter Four

Harry was enjoying her free Potions day. She woke up late and took a leisure bath. After decided that she looked pathetic in her extremely large shirt, Harry change to her old school robe. It fitted her better, but she still had to be careful when walking or the hem would trip her.

When she arrived at the dining room, Minty had her lunch served. She had learnt to enjoy Severus quiet company during her staying here and now she missed him.

She spent her day in the library again. Time passed faster when she did a little of her summer assignments, took a little nap on the comfy big couch, and woke up to read another recipes from Severus' mother's collections.

It was now the time for dinner, but there were no signs that Severus was home. And since Harry didn't feel hungry at all, she planned to skip her dinner. She hated eating alone.

Minty was walking back and forth outside the library. Her hands were approaching the handle but stopped mid air. It happened several times before she finally braved herself to see her little miss.

"Little Miss, your dinner is served."

"I'll wait for Severus." Harry answered without breaking her eyes from the recipe that caught her intention.

"Master doesn't eat dinner at home tonight, Little Miss."

"What?!" Harry's head turned to the trembling house elf.

"Master will come back really late, Little Miss." The house elf look frightened.

"Oh, OK." Harry stood up slowly and followed the house elf to the dining room where her favourite foods were served.

Later that night, Severus found Harry fell a sleep on the living room. A book laid on the carpet, apparently it fell from Harry's tired hands.

Severus felt the sudden warm feeling surged back. He never had someone who was waiting for him when he comeback home. 'Maybe Albus was right after all. This is all for the best.'

He lifted Harry's light body and took her to her room. He tugged her on before he left her.

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The next day, Harry woke up with a strange feeling. She didn't remember sleeping on her bed. She didn't remember went back to her room, either.

"Severus is back." Harry ran to the bathroom to prepare herself for breakfast.

She ran to the dining room and found Severus Snape sipping his coffee and reading his paper.

"Good morning," Severus greeted her without put the paper down.

"You went home late." Harry took her seat composedly.

"I did." Severus finally put away his paper and looked at Harry in her eyes. "We will have guests this evening and I have to go. I will be home with our guests so you can have your free morning."

Harry looked at him with obvious doubt in her eyes.

"I won't be late today." Severus assured her. He had never left her since her staying at his manor. He thought it was ridiculous to feel guilty for leaving her today, even when he did it for her own good.

They had their breakfast in silent. And when Severus left, again, Harry decided to do something useful.

She decided to make dessert. Happily she walked to the library to get the recipe. 'Maybe if he like my cooking, he would let me stay with him after I'm graduate from Hogwarts. It was better then living with the Dursleys.' Harry had decided that she couldn't live with the Weasleys as well. 

She realised that she missed the big bright old kitchen. No muggle's electronic inventions. And she loved to do things in traditional ways.

The house elves were panic when Harry arrived at the kitchen. They were fear for infuriating their Little Miss. Harry hadn't come to the kitchen since she started with the Potions again.

"Little Miss," Minty hurriedly walked to Harry, "Little Miss need me?"

"No," Harry felt uncomfortable with the eyes that watching her every moves. She failed to make the house elves call her Harry since the first time she spoke to them.

"Little Miss should not be here. Master wants Minty to serve Little Miss. Minty will do what Little Miss wants."

"I just want to use the kitchen."

"But Little Miss…"

"Only if Little Miss let Colly help." A house elf cut her. Colly, the house elf was one of the older and he liked Harry a lot. Only because he thought Harry made his Master happy.

"Tweeny want to help, too." Said a young house elf. The house elves, one by one, followed her.

"But Little Miss…" Minty still tried to stop her.

"Wait here. I need to get something from my room." Harry ran back to get something that might chance Minty's mind.

~Ô~

Much to her surprise, Severus did come back with their guests two hours before dinner. She was summoned to the living room to find a fuming Lucius Malfoy, a serene Narcissa Malfoy, and Draco Malfoy. She regretted herself to ever enter the room.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to…"

"Come sit here, Harry." Severus nod to the empty seat next to Draco.

She looked doubtful but decided to do as she was told. If they were talking about her, she would have to find out.

"Potter?" Lucius eyed her carefully.

Nodded, Harry cautiously avoiding his eyes. 

"You look better without your glasses." Draco smiled at her. Harry took the potion on the incident day, right after dinner when Severus said it was OK.

"Harry, Mr. Malfoy had refused to let Draco engaged to you unless he saw with his own eyes that you are now a girl." Severus explained to her in a hush voice, "He doesn't want the Malfoy's line to end."

"Please, it's Lucius." Lucius studied Harry carefully.

"So?" There was unmistakeably challenge in the Potions Master's eyes.

"What?"

"She is a girl now. Your son has to take the responsibility."

"I'm not sure he is a girl. Could you guarantee that she could bear a grandson for me?" Lucius lifted one eyebrow at Harry.

"Like I've told you before, the engagement could be called off if Harry changed back. And Draco will help me find the cure."

The arguments went on and on and Harry was tired with all of it. She felt so unwanted and it scared her.

"Do you want me to leave that bad?" Harry said softly with her eyes stick to the floor.

The room grew silent.

"What do you mean, Harry?" Severus knew very well what Harry meant.

"I've told you that he doesn't have to do it. Why do you have to force him? If my staying here bother you I could leave."

"You didn't bother me. And who said you have to leave if you were engaged to him."

"I don't?" Again, Harry gave him the doubtful look.

"No. I'm happy to have you here." Severus said it before he could stop it.

"If I don't have to leave, he…" Harry nodded to Draco, "Doesn't have to be my fiancé." Harry decided with a smug smile.

"Please, we just engaged not married. You don't have to live with me if you don't want to." Draco looked offended with Harry's refusal. He was a Malfoy. He was the one born with the right to refuse.

Harry thought about if for a moment before she turned to Draco and said in a satisfied voice, "I really don't have to do it."

"Come on, Harry," Severus was frustrated now, "What do you think Black will say if he wasn't dead already."

"Sirius is still alive," After her sudden burst, Harry stood up to run out from the room, jolted everybody in the room. But Severus was fast to catch her wrist and pulled her back to her seat.

"Yes, he is."

Harry looked at Severus with her big eyes.

"Really? Do you mean it?"

"Yes. We haven't found his dead body and he is too stubborn to be dead."

"Will you help me find him?"

"NO."

"Why?"

"I don't need him to kill me."

"No, he won't."

"Oh, he would. Trust me." Lucius taunted her.

"Why would he?"

"He will think that I purposely use you to test my potion." Severus smiled at her. "Unless, of course if you let me do the right thing." He nodded his head to Draco.

"And you will help me find Sirius?" Harry was thinking hard.

"Yes."

"OK."

Lucius shook his head while Draco just kept silent. He was confused by his feelings. He was mad when Harry refused him and now he was mad because the reason Harry accepted him was the promise that Severus would help her find her godfather if she agreed to the engagement.

"Good." Narcissa spoke for the first since Harry came in to the room. "I'll take care of the party." She had preferred the quiet Harry that the witches her son dated.

"What party?" Lucius asked her suspiciously.

"For the engagement of course." Narcissa smiled at her husband, "Oh, and Harry, you need better clothes." At Harry's terrified look, she added, "It will be fun shopping together."

Draco just smiled at his mother's antics. No body could stop her if she had decided something. Even his father had given up trying.

"Since all is settled, let's have dinner." Severus looked at Lucius, "You might find something that would change your mind, Luc." From the house elf he asked to summon Harry, he was told that Harry went to the kitchen again.

True to his words, Lucius objection was weakened when Minty served the dessert Harry made.

"Little Miss makes this, Master." Minty proudly told her Master. Her dress caught his eyes.

"What is this, Harry?" Severus looked at her, amused.

"It's chocolate flake orange mousse." Harry smiled at him.

"I mean what Minty was wearing."

Looking guilty, Harry answered him in a fast pace, "She won't let me use the kitchen. But Colly and Tweeny, and Rotee, and all the other let me. They even helped me. Only she won't let me."

"So you gave her your shirt as exchange?" Severus pretended to agree with her logic.

"It was too big for me."

"I see."

"Are you angry? She agreed to let me used the kitchen and even help me. I just want to thank her."

The other three Malfoys just ignored them. Lucius held no objection after he tasted what Harry had made. And when Narcissa had it, she finally understood why Draco came to Severus' place that often and didn't protest the whole responsibility crap.

~Ô~

24 March 2003, 3:41 am