Stray Dog
Chapter Five – "Climax"
By Dejiko Mew Mew
How pathetic must I have looked then? My back against the wall and my knees shaking… My eyes constantly fluttering in a futile attempt to hold back my tears…
Taisa approached me so smoothly—so fearlessly. But then, what could he fear? Everything was succumbing to his will, and it seemed I was the next victim.
His hand reached out and touched my face, and that was all it took to extract a tear from my eye. My eyes followed his steps unblinkingly and waited for him to make his move… I could do nothing else.
Taisa narrowed his eyes at me… I cringed a bit, afraid of his thoughts and his intentions. He suddenly slammed his other hand against the wall beside me, causing me to jump. The hand upon my face traced the pace of my tear downward until it reached my chin. From there, it held my position as Taisa leaned closer.
I shut my eyes and tried to turn away. No! Stop! Don't… touch me! I wanted to say then… but I… couldn't… I shut my eyes tighter. Why was he doing this? Couldn't he feel me trembling? Couldn't he see the fear in my eyes?
My entire body went numb as his lips locked onto mine, and a chill ran down my spine as he inserted his tongue. The sensation was maddening, and I began to feel very dizzy.
My gaze—though blurry—remained focused on the door. I kept somehow wishing that it would burst open, and Ha—I mean… someone… would save me…
That hope diminished more and more as Taisa threw off my jacket and began unbuttoning my shirt. When all were undone, he discarded my shirt as well, and started… roaming with his very warm hands. I cried as his mouth attached itself to my body and began to drain life from me.
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((AN: This scene is third-person dialect.))
Hawkeye and Havoc sat at a nearby café. Hawkeye had taken another sip of her tea, but sighed as she gazed upon her company.
"You look very pale, Shoui," she frowned. "You really should have some tea. It'll calm your nerves."
"I can't help it, Chuui," he sighed heavily. A part of him couldn't believe he was having this conversation with her. "He must have realized my feelings for him, and got scared…"
"You're just overanalyzing," she assured him, taking another tiny sip. "It was just coincidence that Taisa needed him for something."
Havoc—who had finally gotten to taking a sip—now nearly choked on it. His eyes were wide as he looked back at her. "T… Taisa needed him?"
"Y-Yes…" Hawkeye replied slowly, unsure of what Havoc was getting so worked up over. "He said that he needed Fuery for a bit after work today, and to let you know he was sorry, as Fuery's always one to apologize."
Havoc stood up immediately, his head hung low as his outstretched hands clutched the tablecloth.
"Is something the matter?" Hawkeye questioned quite innocently… She honestly hadn't realized what she had done, for she trusted the Colonel wholeheartedly. Knowing this, Havoc hadn't the heart to inform her that she had made a mistake, and he forced a smile onto his face as he looked back up at her.
"Nothing at all… I just… remembered somewhere I've got to be, myself," he smiled as best as he could. "Thank you for this… I really… really appreciate it."
Hawkeye opened her mouth to reply, but Havoc dashed out the door before any words spilled out.
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I cried out sharply as Taisa threw me upon the table and continued, his hands going lower. Stop… Stop…! I was able to mouth the words now, but no sound could yet be produced.
I felt the button on my pants undo and I bit down hard on my lip. I hated myself… I hated myself so much at that moment for not being able to stand up for myself. I whimpered as the zipper went down…
Fortunately, it was enough to stall Taisa for a bit longer. He raised his head and moved his hands upwards to my face, wiping away my tears.
"Shh…" he soothed, or thought he soothed, as he brought his lips upon mine once again, stifling any other cries that I could possibly utter. I felt a hand leave my face and find its way lower once again.
I shut my eyes tighter still, tears still escaping. Taisa's hands had, by now, both returned to their previous task and grasped my pants… I thought it was all over then…
But suddenly, the door swung open, just as I had wished it. I was in such shock at the fact that I thought maybe I was imagining it, but surely enough, the hands stopped and Taisa and I both faced the man at the door… Havoc-shoui…
He stood there, hand still gripped on the doorknob, looking as though he wanted to rip it right out of its socket.
"I heard that you had some business with Fuery here, and I was just… curious to know what it could be…" Havoc-shoui said sternly. I was so relieved to see him, and yet, a little embarrassed… I wished that I had something to hide behind.
I don't know how he did it, but Taisa managed to keep his cool exterior. "I was simply debriefing Fuery-souchou here," he smirked maliciously. I almost fell off the table…
"Cute," Havoc-shoui grumbled, releasing the doorknob and stepping forward. My heart raced, faster and faster with each step he took.
"How did you get in here?" Taisa asked next, perhaps trying to change the subject… Although, for the first time, I sensed a bit of apprehension in his voice…
"You should know," he replied, "that I'm the one in charge of the maintenance of the break room… It's only natural I should have a key to it." I saw his hand clench into a fist, and I started to worry…
"How unfortunate," Taisa smiled, a bit of a laugh under his breath. He walked past Havoc and stopped. Without looking at him, he said, "It's my loss, then, I suppose," and continued out the door.
It all happened so fast… I was… stunned… paralyzed. I absolutely… couldn't…
And Havoc wouldn't look at me… wouldn't say anything.
I wanted nothing more than to erase all memories of everything… If I hadn't have gotten involved—I shouldn't have gotten involved…! I thought such selfish things like that then…
But Havoc-shoui… He took off his jacket and tossed it to me.
"Are you…?" he started. He looked at me then, and just seeing that look—that look that breaks my heart and rips my soul—I couldn't bear it any longer and I screamed, holding my head within my hands and letting the tears fall as easily as they wished to fall.
And he wrapped his arms around me…
I was quieted in an instant, like a child when in their mother's embrace. I felt his warm, loving hand running through my hair and he said, "Shh…" But it was so different from when Taisa said it… He continued, "I'm sorry…"
"I-It was my fault…" I whispered with the little voice I had left… and then I felt him push away from me. I looked up to see those very serious eyes that always scared me a little, but were still full of care.
"Don't… say that… Not now, not in this situation…" he ordered. "Understand?" he reinforced harshly. My eyes were wide with awe as I nodded. With that, his seriousness melted into the soft expression I adored the most. "Good," he smiled a bit and hugged me once more. "I'm so sorry I didn't realize sooner…"
I smiled now through my tears and embraced him back, tightly. It didn't matter anymore, suddenly. I didn't care what I had gone through… I thought for sure that Havoc-shoui would hate me, and he doesn't. I couldn't have asked for anything more then.
"I'm s—" I started, but stopped myself… I was told not to apologize… but if I couldn't apologize… What was I to say? The silence was killing me…
I felt cold as Havoc's arms left me… I looked up at him, but his face was turned away from me. I could only half-see it, but it was that look again—that painful look. I lowered my head and noticed his hands were shaking, too.
"F-Fuery…" he said kind of quietly. He looked to be hurting, and I wanted to help him so badly…! But for now, I could only wait for him to say what he wanted to say… perhaps what he was hurting over…
"Y-Yes, Shoui?" I asked him, taking his trembling hands into my own, which weren't much steadier.
"I… I…" he stammered for a bit. "I've got… something to tell you… It's rotten timing I know, but… I've… I have to tell you, or I'll…!"
My slight smile grew more faint as I watched him stumble over words… I was sure then that he wanted to tell me everything… about his love for Taisa, and how it hurt to see me with him… I wasn't sure if I was ready for this confrontation.
Finally, Havoc-shoui shook his head out and looked me directly in the eye… No, through the eye, through to the very window of my soul. With determination, he took a deep breath and stated, "I… love you."
With those words, the ground beneath me crumbled, and I was left floating, weightless, on an infinite cloud of bliss. I couldn't believe it—I was so happy! Although… my face must not have shown it. I think I was too shocked at the words to bring the joy to my expression, and Havoc shied away.
"I-I'm sorry. I knew I shouldn't have—" he started, but I pulled him towards me and kissed him deeply. I don't know what came over me that I did something so bold, but I regretted nothing as we shared this moment.
"I love you, too," I whispered softly as our lips parted. He placed a hand on my cheek and stroked it gently as he smiled upon me… the warmest, most beautiful smile I'd ever seen anyone wear. It was in that smile that our future lay, and I would always remember it at any time to remove any doubts or worries from my mind.
Taisa apologized to me the next day… I couldn't quite tell how sincere it was— although I believe it was— but it didn't matter anyway. I was forever thankful to him for giving me this fated meeting with Havoc-shoui. Whatever the circumstances, I'm glad the past events led to the present that I have now.
THE END
Afterthoughts:
I'M SORRY! (ahem) For taking 9 months to update this… I want to thank Spades-san and all of my other readers. Honestly, the reviews I've gotten… I don't think I ever would have finished this without them. I hope this ending is to all of your likings. Thank you thank you thank you all so very much for your support!