Can Love Find Me Now
Chapter 4
The start to a great week
Harry was just getting ready for bed when he heard the flapping of wings out side of his bedroom window. He had never seen this owl before. At first, he thought it might have been his OWL's (Ordinary Wizarding Level) results. He slowly and carefully took the parchment off the owl's leg. As soon as the parchment was off; the owl took flight into the night. To his surprise, it was a letter from Hermione. Hermione must be on vacation somewhere that it took her so long to write him back or maybe she is just having a hard time dealing with everything they went through at the Department of Mysteries. Everyone had gotten close to Sirius while staying in his home. Ron and Hermione had been with Harry when he had found out Sirius was his Godfather back in third year. They worried about him during their fourth year as much as he did. Then last year Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Neville, and Luna went with him to the Department of Mysteries.
Therefore, it could be safe to say that maybe she was having a hard time dealing with all the stress. That curse that hit her must have scared her real bad.
"I know it about killed me to think I had lost her. In the end, she was ok physically but how was she dealing with it all; mentally was a different matter. All of us that were there need to set down and talk to each other as soon as we are all together. It will be hard for me but to help everyone I have to do this (god help me; help my friends get over all this madness). Ok now Potter, get it together and just read her letter. She was on vacation with her parents; don't read more into it then that." He thought
Harry,
I was glad to get your letter. How are you doing? No, really how are you doing? I know how I am doing and that isn't to well. My parents think I am unstable because I keep waking up with nightmares. I keep seeing that stupid deatheater with the baby head point his wand at me. That is when I wake up. I know that you must be doing the same thing about Sirius. It isn't your fault Harry and you really have to believe that. Sirius would not want you to be blaming yourself for his death. Not one of us blames you for what happened. You were doing what you felt was right. I know I told you that you had a "saving people thing" but Harry I am saying this sincerely, I don't blame you for anything that happened. I don't really believe that you have a saving people thing. Everything is happening to you for a reason. We don't know what it is. I hope that one day soon we will all know why Voldemort is after you. You know that Ron and I will be by your side through all of this (even if you don't want us to).
You have Ron and me for your friend for life. No matter what you think or what you say, we will always be there for you and beside you. I am glad that in our first year that you and Ron saved me from that troll. I hope that one day you are able to open up to us and tell us what goes on in the head of Harry Potter. Harry I am glad that you are writing to everyone that was with us. It will help you through these rough times. We all want to help no matter what you think.
My parents and I have been on vacation since we got off the train at the end of term. We have been to Egypt for our holiday. It was so nice there in the wizarding part. My parents were so excited about our world. After talking to Mrs. Weasley my parents decided to visit some of the places, the Weasley's did when they went. Ron missed out on so much learning while he was there. I just wish Ron would try to study more. He would have so many more choices in life if he did. He just makes me so mad sometimes I want to kill him. Well not really kill him but you know what I mean Harry. I don't know why we fight so much all the time. It is as if he wants to fight with me. He has written me a few times so far this summer. He starts nice enough but then it is as if he goes into prat mode. I just don't know what to do about him anymore. I have begun to think maybe those brains that got a hold of him did some damage to his brain. What do you think Harry?
Well I will be at #12 in a week and a half until September 1. I just hope Ron will be on his best behavior. I also hope that Dumbledore will let you come too. It won't be the same if you are not aloud to be there with us. Has anyone written you back yet? If so, what did they have to say? You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I just hope that you have learned to deal with your anger and won't be taking it out on everyone again. I know that with all that you have been through all your life, you have a right to be angry but it is time to let it all go. Please Harry if you don't do that; you may end up worse the Voldemort him self. I know you have a kind heart and I know you will be mad at me for writing you this but I had to. Anger can turn the kindest man evil. That isn't what I want to see happen to you Mr. Potter. You are too good of a friend to see you turn bad and I am not saying you will. Just be careful Harry that is all I am asking. Keep being you and don't get lost in the hate and hurt that you are feeling.
We all love you Harry, all of us Dumbledore, Ron, me, Ginny, Luna, Neville, Professor McGonagall, all the teachers at Hogwarts (maybe not Snape), Most of the students minus the evil Slytherin house, all the D.A. students, all of the Weasley's (minus maybe Percy) , and Remus Lupin.
Please don't shut us out this year or this summer if you are aloud to come. I have only said what I felt was needed to say because you are like family to me. You are the brother I never had Harry; I love you Harry Potter my loving brother. Well mum just called me and it is time for me to go eat dinner. I hope this owl gets my letter to you fast. I know you are going crazy living with those awful relatives of yours. Be sweet oh brother of mine and write me back as soon as you can.
Your Loving sister,
Hermione
P.S. I hope you don't mind me considering you as my brother.
"I never expected a letter like that from Hermione. She really let me have it hard about everything she has been thinking about since our first year probably. I know I hurt her feelings last year with the way I acted. I am trying to get myself together so I won't do that again. Well I guess I should write her back now before I go to sleep (If I get any sleep to night nightmare or love fantasy, I pick love). " though Harry
Dear Sis,
I just got your letter at 11:30 p.m. July 18, 1996. How is that for exactly when I got your letter? Sorry, I just was trying to make my little sister smile. I like that you consider me your brother as I consider you as a sister. I love you too little sister, always and forever. No, I am not mad at you for speaking your mind with me, not enough people do that with me. Most of the time things that are important are being kept from me and in the end; I end up very mad about that. Please Promise me that you won't keep anything from me. If you and Ron talk about what I am going through, or how I am acting come to me please. I don't want to treat you or Ron as I did last year. I am sorry and I hope that you will forgive me for being such a prat. Our group of friends has grown. I would like to add Ginny, Neville, and Luna to our little group. That doesn't include the D.A. ok, Call it our adventure team (Just kidding) you know what I mean right. They were all there with us and I feel the need to keep them in the loop so to speak.
This part of your letter is kind of, like what I told Ron in his letter. This is what I told Ron; "I know you and Hermione are talking about me between yourselves and I am ok with that. Just please when I get there don't try to hide it from me. You two are my best friends and we have been through so much together that I could not bear that you too would tip toe around me, as you did last year. I am not trying to chew you out; I am just trying to be honest with you. When Hermione writes I will tell her the same thing. I will also try my best to be more open, honest with you about some things I found out from Dumbledore at the end of term, but please give me the time, and space and I will tell you. In addition, when I get there I will do my best to tell you everything from the Triwizard Tournament. Just let me do it in my own time ok, but I will tell you all ok". I also told Ron to get his homework done so we can at least have some fun if we don't have to clean this time.
I wrote to Ginny because she was with us at the Department of Mysteries last term and I don't know why sis but when she wrote me back her letter made me feel somewhat better about everything. I know that she and I share some things about Voldemort since we both have had him in our mind (I will explain later ok). It was so easy to talk to her in a letter. I hope we can sit and talk like that too. I really want to get to know the real her. All these years she has been Ron's little sister or little Ginny. I can say that at one time I saw her that way, not anymore; not after the Department Of Mysteries. She is either fifteen or almost fifteen by what you said once and I know I didn't like being treated like a child last year. I'm sure Ron or yourself wouldn't like that either. I will talk to everyone when I see all of you about that one thing. I don't want to go through that in a letter with Ron; I want to make sure he understands when I say this. I also wrote to Neville and Luna since they were with us.
Well I will close for now this is the second longest letter I have written in my lifetime. Just remember that Ron will be ok and no, he didn't get brain damage when the brain got him. I think you really know why he is the way he is. I also know why you are the way you are with Ron. I may give you some hints in other letters sis. I have to get some sleep now. I love you sis.
You're Brother,
Harry
I would love to see her face when she reads that last part of my letter.
"What is Harry talking about? I don't know why Ron acts the way he does."
"What does he know about why I treat Ron the way I do?"
"She is going to give me an ear full when she writes again or when she sees me which ever comes first. Who ever is watching over me please help me get a peaceful nights sleep tonight."
Harry went over to his bed and just sat for a few minutes; just thinking.
"What am I going to do to make Ron and Hermione see that they like each other? I think that they may even love each other."
"Night Hedwig I have left the window open for you tonight if you want to get out of here." Harry said to Hedwig.
With one last look at his owl, Harry Potter fell into a deep dreamless sleep for the first time in months.
Thanks again for reading my fic. Please be kind and review even if it isn't a good review. I like to know what people think of my story. Chapter 5 will be up in a few days. Enjoy