Hello everyone, I am sorry for the long delay on my story. I had a lot to deal with the passing of my ex brother-in-law. A lot of old wounds and all that and helping my sister help their sons through this. I have finely been able to get my brain to work again and am trying to continue this story for those of you who read my story. I thank you for your patience, with waiting for new chapters. I hope all my readers check out the first chapter where I have explained what I have fixed in this story. I also played a little, added, and deleted some things. They do not change the story line at all just make it a little better. Enjoy and please remember review and let me know what you think. Lots of love to you all, and on with the story.

Can Love Find Me Now

Chapter 9

Harry and Ginny's talk

There was a silence hanging over Harry and Ginny as climbed the stairs. Still hand in hand, they went to Harry's room. Once inside they sat on a love seat that was under the one window in the room. With neither of them knowing how to start their talk, they sat in quiet for a while, not moving, still holding each other's hand. After what seamed like a lifetime Harry looked over to Ginny with a smile on his face

 "Ginny where do you want to start, you can ask me anything you want to know with in reason," Harry said.

Ginny Looked over to Harry and smiled and said;

 "How has your summer been Harry, ours has been boring but ok".

 Harry couldn't help but laugh at her icebreaker question ("I am so glad to see him laugh," Ginny thought).

"Well Ginny, my summer so far has been hard but I got my homework done at least. I hate being back here but I am glad I am here with my friends. How has your summer been so far?"

Ginny acted like she was thinking real hard and then Looked over to Harry with the most radiant smile he had ever seen and said,

"So far it has been boring with just Ron here and like you I really don't like being back here either but at least we are safe and have our family here with us".

Harry smiled at her answer, thought for a little bit, and then asked her;

 "Well Ginny why don't you just start telling me about you. What subjects you like in school, did you enjoy playing Quidditch last year, and are you going to try out this year for a position on the team, favorite color, favorite food, and things like that. Then I can answer the same things for you ok."

Ginny sat there thinking for a few minutes then looked over to Harry and started talking with out any hesitation.

"I really like everything at school except potions. If Professor Snape was civil to other houses besides Slytherin then I might like it more. Yes, I loved playing Quidditch last year and would love to try out for the team this year, but as a chaser not the seeker, that is your job and I am sure Dumbledore has already lifted that life long ban that Umbridge put on you. Let me see favorite food is a hard one. It depends on who cooks it I guess. Mums food is all so good; at school, the house-elves always make everything good, but I would have to say dad gave us some muggle candy once when we were young and I love it. I believe they are called Caramello; I think that is what it was called I'm not sure. It was chocolate with caramel in the middle. It was so divine with out having magic in it like wizard candy (just thinking of it made her smile). My favorite color; well I have two, my first favorite is green and has been since I was one, my second favorite color is baby blue since I was six. It is weird how your eyes are the same color I have liked since I was one with out even knowing who you were yet. All my brothers think they are my favorite but I don't have a favorite. I am closest to Ron since we spent most of our time together as the others left for school. School has been hard since my first year. People in my dorm don't know what happened about the whole Chamber thing but since Tom took me down there they stay clear of me most of the time. Colin and Luna have always been the ones that paid no mind to any of it and have stayed my true friends. Right at this moment I can't think of any thing else to say. Unless you have some questions you would like to ask me straight out". Ginny said to Harry,

"Your turn to tell me anything I might not know about you".

Harry just looked at her for a few minutes to let everything sink in. He shot up off the seat letting go of her hand; which he had not let go of since they entered the room. The warmth that left his body when he let go was so over whelming he felt like he was missing part of himself. Running his hand through his hair (out of habit), he stopped pacing and faced a nervous looking Ginny.

 "Where to start is a little hard because I am not sure what all you know about me other then what you have read as you grew up, or what others have told you. I like you; like everything I take at school with two exceptions Professor Trelawney and Professor Snape's classes. Potions would be easier to do if Snape was decent and Deviation would be ok if she would just quit telling me I was going to die every other hour. If I was to die every time she said; then I would have more lives then twenty cats. My favorite food is one of your mum's meat pies. My favorite colors are black and red. Sometimes I wish I had a brother or sister. Hermione and I have adopted each other. I have been calling her sis in my letters to her and she has been calling me her brother. I was so glad when she asked if she could call me her brother. I have to say that I wish you hadn't been so shy around me all these years, because if you hadn't been then you could have added me to your friend list sooner. I have to say; I hope to all the gods that Dumbledore can lift that lifetime ban off me so I can play Quidditch again. I missed being able to play, at least when I came here I got my Firebolt back. Dumbledore gave it to Remus to return to me so I could get here. That about covers that I guess; like I said I'm not sure what you know." Harry said as he sat back down beside Ginny.

"Is there anything you would like to ask me Gin?"

Ginny thought for a few minutes (Is there any thing she wanted to know about him that she didn't know?) With being a little bit scared she asked;

 "Is what Ron says true that those muggles made you sleep in a cupboard under the stairs for the first ten years of your life?"

"Did you and He really save Hermione in your first year from a troll?"

" What made you come after me in the chamber when Tom took me there?"

"Was it only because I was Ron's sister?"

"Why is it that Voldemort wants you dead?"

"Hold on Gin let me answer some of those questions of yours first before you ask any more ok" Harry said.

"Yes Gin it is true that I live in a cupboard under the stairs for ten years. Yes, Ron and I saved Hermione from a troll in our first year after we locked her in the bathroom with it. I am sure Ron has told you of all our adventures in school. He may have played with how it went but most of what he has told you is true I am sure. With going to the Department of Mysteries with us, you know that things can get a bit out of hand sometimes. Ginny, how can you ask me why I came after you in the Chamber?"

"1. I cared for you as a person Gin and I wouldn't change what I did. I don't know why but something inside of me told me that I had to save you for not only Ron's sake but mine too."

"2. It was the right thing to do even if it had been Malfoy or his goons."

"3. No, it was not just, because you were Ron's sister. I couldn't let anything happen to you. If it had been anyone, else I would have done the same thing. "

"The reason that Voldemort wants me dead is a long story that we will talk about when every one is here. I only want to say it once and then not talk about it again. I am not trying to be mean, but I want to tell everyone together. I am not even sure once everyone is here I will be able talk about it, but I will try very hard. I hope you are you ok with that?"

 He looked over to Ginny to see what look she had on her face. Her face was unreadable but her eyes told him everything he needed to know. It was as if they were the window to her soul. In just that instant, he saw regret, loneliness, hope, understanding, fear, pain, and most of all love.

"Fair enough Harry" Ginny said.

"I understand more then you know about needing time to be able to talk to people about what happens to you. It took me months to be able to talk to my mum that year. It is still hard for me to talk to my dad and let's not go there about talking to my brothers. I still haven't really talked to them about it. Mum and dad told them what they needed to know. Ron knows the most out of all of my brothers since he was with you when you came after me in the chamber. Do you want to ask me some questions now?" She asked.

"I know you said in your letter that your crush was because of what you learned growing up. I guess I understand that but, is the real reason you gave up on your crush, (on me, he thought) was it that I was mean to you, ignored you or teased you; because I feel like that sometimes."

With the shocked look on her face, Harry added very quick, "You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."

"I guess what I really want to know is, was it because of your crush on me that you turned to the diary in your first year."

For some reason, he couldn't place the emotion he saw on her face in his mind, he reached (he thought he had upset her) to take a hold of Ginny's hand, but when he tried to hold her hand, and she pulled it away and stood up quickly. She started pacing back and forth trying to figure out how to answer this question.

She knew she had to be honest with him but was afraid of how he might react to what she said. He had a bad habit to blame himself for everything and Ginny didn't want him to blame himself for this. With much trepidation, she stopped in front of him and tried to talk. She opened her mouth but nothing seemed to come out. She sat back down next to him and took both his hands in hers.

"Harry, first let me say no matter what I say; don't for any reason blame yourself for anything is that clear. No, don't say anything just listen. It was many different things that made me write in that book. Being the only girl in a family with six brothers who not only pick on you but also try to protect you; all at the same time can be over whelming. Then add in the mix that the youngest male of your family comes home; tells everyone that his best friend is the boy-who-lived and goes on and on about you and all the things you have done at school. I being his closest friend for many years; all of a sudden he has no time for me because of this boy that I have had a crush on since I first heard his story. Yes, one of the reasons was because of how I felt for you not because of anything you had done. I was eleven Harry and felt like you should feel the same way I did. In my mind, that is how it should have been. I was young and stupid; Yes, I was stupid and most of all I was stupid for not listening to what my dad always said about trusting something that has a brain of its own that isn't a person. It was my fault for writing in that diary but it was Tom's fault for what happened after I started writing in it. Harry, how can I say this with out you taking it wrong?"

"No, you never teased me, or you were never mean to me, and yes, I felt that you ignored me, but don't feel bad. I gave up on my crush because I grew up and no other reason. I hope that I have answered your questions and that you don't feel guilty."

Harry sat there taking in everything that Ginny had just said. Yes, what she said made since to him but he also felt guilty for making her feel like he had ignored her. He was going to change that if it was the last thing he did. Ginny was a nice person and deserved to not have people ignore her. For some reason he felt a connection to her. Maybe it was because what happened in the chamber or in the Department Of Mysteries. It could be because of Ron being her brother or him being around her family but he knew for one thing that he was going to try and not leave her out any more. He would talk to Ron and Hermione and make sure that she was included in things they did or would do. Going to visit Hagrid, or going with him to visit Grawp (Oh the thought of that was not a good one but he had made a promise to Hagrid), snowball fights in the winter, or just sitting out by the lake studying he would include her. Harry sat there in his own little world thinking of all the things he could do to include Ginny and forgot for a moment that she was sitting there and holding his hand. Ginny squeezed his hand thinking that she had upset him in some way. When she squeezed his hand he started to think of his dream and him dancing with her and kissing her (all right Potter don't start to think about that) in his dream. He sat there with the biggest smile on his face not even thinking that Ginny could see his face.

 "HEM, HEM" came from Ginny and Harry jumped up so fast and drew his wand. Ginny flinched back afraid he might hex her. Harry turned around the room making sure that Umbridge was not there and let out a sigh of relief. Stopping his gaze on her with a frown on his face; this made Ginny wince.

 "Sorry about that Harry I didn't think before I did that and I know you thought of that big cow Umbridge. I didn't mean to startle you that way. You were just sitting there in a daze and I didn't want to scare you so I just did the first thing that came to mind, clearing my throat," Ginny said with a sheepish grin on her face.

"It is all right Gin; I didn't even know I would react that way from hearing some one clear their throat like that. I am glad we are talking and learning about each other. I know you said not to feel guilty for what you felt but I do, and it isn't because of what you said. I have been feeling guilty for a bit about leaving you out and ignoring you. I have been feeling guilty about many things and probably will keep doing so for a long while. I am trying to get batter at it but it is going to take time. As I told you in my letter, I am new to all this sharing feelings and having people care about me. I want you to know that I have enjoyed talking to you like this and I hope that we can do this again. That is if you don't mind doing this again. I know Ron is probably in his room going crazy wondering what we are talking about and what we are doing. I just hope he can deal with all this. OK, now we can move on to Ron and Hermione. What do you think about how they act and do you have any Ideas on how we can get them to admit to each other that they like each other," Harry said to Ginny.

Ginny started giggling at the thought of them admitting that they like each other.

"Well Harry I am not sure, that is something we will have to think on but I am with you, it is about time that those two admitted that they like each other. In my opinion, it is more like LOVE then like but time will tell on that matter. I will try to think up some things to try and you think of some; we will write them down on parchment and pass them to each other or have another private talk like this. Then we can agree on one or two to try and then put it into play. We could even get Luna and Neville involved; that way we have extra help. I think they would make a good couple too; we could even get them together if you are up to it."

"We will see about the other couple but I think it would be fun to have their help in this if they want to help," he said to her.

They both looked at each other and started laughing about what they were fixing to do to Ron and Hermione. They were laughing so hard they didn't hear the knock on Harry's door. When they both finely got the laughter under control Harry could fell some one looking at them. When he looked up Ron was standing at the door with a look of disbelief on his face. Neither teen could figure out why he looked that way. Ron looked from Harry to Ginny and then said;

 "Mum said that it's time to come eat dinner so if you are through with your laughing fit and care to join the rest of us at dinner then come on. Oh, and I think you might not want to go down holding hands mum might get the wrong Idea (wiggling his eyebrows at them)."

They both looked down at the same time to see that Ginny was still holding Harry's hands in hers, with a snap of her head she looked at him in his eyes and she let go of his hands. Though neither knew what the other was thinking they both felt a loss when they let go of each other's hands. Harry just gave her a small smile and a quick wink and they followed Ron out of the room. Ginny went ahead of Ron and Harry to stop by her room to get a book to read after dinner; before going down to dinner. Ron pulled Harry to the side after she went into her room and asked him:

 "Why were you and my sister holding hands mate? I know you said you wanted to talk to her and get to know her but how well were you trying (eyes wiggling his eyebrows at his friend) to get to know her?"

He just looked at his best friend with complete disgust.

 "Ron we were just talking and I guess when we thought it was too much to talk about we held each others hands. Nothing more ok. I am getting to know Ginny not trying to snogg her ok. I want you to know that I respect her and wouldn't be like that. Please don't get the wrong Idea and don't tease her. Come on I'm hungry and I want to eat so can we just drop this. After dinner we can play a game of chess ok, you and I time. You, Ginny, and I can do the dishes for your mom tonight too so she can have a rest ok."

 "Ok mate we can do that; so if dad is home they can just relax together; they don't get to do that much."

Stopping by Ginny's door and getting her; they made their way down to dinner. Once in the kitchen they noticed that there were a few members of the order there for dinner.

"Hey Tonks" said Ginny as she sat down.

"How is it going tonight kids?"

"Everything is going ok "all three teens responded.

"Good to hear, good to hear"

With that, out of the way Molly Weasley put dishes of her wonderful cooking on the table and told every one to start eating.

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