Titles: Why I was the one worth leaving
Rating: M
Author: Liz
Disclaimer: Characters owned by Fox and Josh Schwartz!
Summary: Starts like 1 month after the break up, Marissa decided to keep Alex's apartment because it reminded her of Alex, Alex comes back. The fic then skips ahead to like 10 years into the future where Marissa has a 7 year old child but no husband, she works as a fashion designer in LA and Alex is a pro surfer, they meet again.
Author's note: My first A/M fic, so here it is.
Chapter 1(Gaudy apartment complex)
Smeared black ink
Your palms are sweaty and
I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering
What's buried underneath
Where I am
Alex Kelly sings the postal service's song the district sleeps alone tonight while walking in the rain down the beach. She had just got back into Newport last night to get her heart necklace that she had left in her apartment. She was planning to go in, grab her necklace and leave but the beach had captivated her so she had been just walking down the beach all night. She continues to sing to herself.
I'll wear my badge:
A vinyl sticker with big block letters
Adhered to my chest
Tells your new friends
I am a visitor here, I am not permanent
And the only thing keeping me dry is
Alex walks up to the door of her old apartment which she still had the key to. The landlord had given her permission to get her necklace out. She slowly puts the keys into the door and unlocks it.
Sitting on a small chair in the middle of the empty room is a lanky brunette. Alex continues singing not seeing the girl.
You seem so out of context
In this gaudy apartment complex,
A stranger with your door key
Explaining that I'm just visiting
And I'm finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Marissa turns around at the sound of Alex's voice at first thinking she was day dreaming which she happened to be doing a lot since the blonde girl left. Alex leaving was the worst thing that had happened to her. At first she tried to play it off by dating Ryan and pretending she was happy but she was drowning herself in alcohol trying to forget about the girl that now stood right in front of her. Still not seeing the lanky brunette at the other side of the room, Alex flicks on the light switch and is taken aback by the sight of Marissa. She was definitely not expecting Marissa to be sitting in the middle of her old apartment in the dark with an alcohol flask in her hand.
"Umm…. I just came to get something" Alex says feeling the need to explain herself. Marissa just looks at the soaking wet blonde girl in complete awe. "So, I'll just get it and leave" Alex says. Alex was still deeply in love with Marissa but she knew that she wasn't what Marissa needed right now or ever, Marissa needed some one to not only love her but to also support her, support her financially more than anything else and all Alex could really offer was her love.
"Alex, I'm sor-" Marissa starts but it interrupted by Alex.
"Please, just, let's not do this." Alex says, she really wasn't in the mood for heart-filled apologies and confession right now.
"Okay." Marissa says a little hurt but gives a saddened smile which almost breaks Alex's heart.
"I'll just go and get that thing" Alex says going into the bedroom. Alex walks into the bedroom which is also remotely empty. The only thing left in the room is a bedside table, on top of the bedside table is Alex's heart necklace. She picks it up and puts it into her pocket. She walks back into the living room where Marissa is still standing up watching her.
"So…umm… I'll see you around I guess" Alex says turning to leave.
"Alex, wait…!" Marissa says her voice almost pleading. Alex stops but does not turn around. Marissa unfastens her heart necklace that Alex had given her right before they started really 'dating'. Alex turns around seeing tears streaming down Marissa's face; she fights to choke back tears that she feels forming.
Marissa puts the necklace into Alex's palm.
"Keep it" Alex says trying to give the necklace back. Marissa just shakes her head and wipes her tears away as more start to fall freely.
"No, you should give that to someone who truly deserves your heart!" Marissa says, swallowing hard to clear a lump that had formed in her throat. She truly didn't want Alex to leave again. She wanted to kiss Alex and make everything okay, she wanted Alex to stay with her forever.
"So bye again, I guess" Alex says giving Marissa an awkward hug. Marissa weeps even more, there was nothing she wanted more right now than for Alex to stay and hold her through the night.
TBC...
Author's note: Next chapter I skip to the future.