(You) Keep Me Guessing

Second part of beyond words, series of drabbles im writing for S/J shippers scenes.Sam POV

Scene from "Affinity", season 8

"What about you?"

I can't believe i asked. Am i that desperate?

I know Pete is good and loves me…

But he's not Jack O'Neill and I don't know if I can settle for less.

"If things had been different…"

'different how?' screams a little voice in my head

I guess im only thinking if we had a chance

But we know there are many variables

And when "we" have been together…Earth has suffered.

"I wouldn't be here"

Typical O'Neill answer

What is that supposed to mean?

Where would he be?

Dead? Retired? Some other job? O at home with kids?.. our kids maybe

What kind of different is he thinking?

Any ideas, suggestion, criticism, any feedback is welcomed

First one to guess where the title comes from suggest a scene for the next drabble.

Have in mind last episode I saw was "sacrifices" from season 8.