Disclaimer: if I owned digimon... if I could fire the writers from season 02...if Tai and Sora were an official couple...oh, sorry, just wishing that I owned digimon... but as you can see I don't own digimon or the characters... just my own characters and the plot...now leave me alone so I can keep dreaming...if I owned...
Author Note: this is my first fic and I am dedicating it to a writer who got me into fanfiction... a very talented author who is well known for his deep and heartwarming Taiora fics. He has inspired me to write here and I am proud to do so... LOGAN, Please take a bow! (If you don't know of him for some strange reason... check his stories out in my favorite author section)
The Heart's deepest longing.
Chapter 1: Pain and complications of the heart
Life is painful, anyone could tell you that. Only a fool says otherwise. Rich, poor, men women, children all experience it at one point or another. Still as much pain is in the world, hope springs more abundantly, without pain we do not know hope, without hope we do not know love and without love, life ceases to have meaning.
Love, many definitions have been given for this most cherished of emotions. A man will take a bullet for his loved ones, another will stand hours in the rain for a chance to see that special someone, yet another will hold the world hostage to prove his love. More to the point love isn't one dimensional, it has life and energy. Love isn't necessarily the big things but the small too. A smile, a hug, heart to heart conversation, it all is a part of the bigger picture that is love. Waking up next to that person, the sharing of a bed, even the slightest touch invokes our deepest longing... and our deepest fears, yet it has been said that "Perfect Love casts out all fear". Why then do people have fear? Because the love in us hasn't been perfected. It is through time and experience that love grows, not through the infatuation of the moment or the heat of passion. Like with all emotions, Love is supposed to enrich our lives, not rule it. Yet it remains to be seen whether or not humans in general can handle the commitment or the patience required to make their love reach it's perfection.
Tai Kamiya wasn't sure what love was anymore. True there were many definitions for love and if love was a multiple choice test then he would pick "C" all of the above. Yet lately he began to feel depressed and the conviction is his heart began to waver.
"She is going out with my friend!" for the millionth time the thought pounded in his head.
The girl he was referring to, of course, was Sora Takenouchi. Since as long as he could remember, they had been best friends, soccer buddies, confidants. In the digital world, she was his biggest supporter (arguably so when Kari was brought into the picture). However, somehow, at some point, the love for her as a friend has blossomed into more. Tai was more than surprised to find himself in this predicament as he always just thought of them as best friends. Yet more and more he had fallen for her. Not just her looks but every little mannerism that made her her. The way her smile could brighten a room, how a few strands of her hair dangled gracefully in front of her face. Her scent of vanilla and strawberries that made him delirious. Then of course there was her soccer talent. True she had given it up in lieu of tennis but the time spent with him on the field proved the chemistry that lay dormant in them.
The friend of whom he was thinking of was Matt Ishida. Like it or not, Matt had been vital in the saving of the digital world. Throughout their adventures, Matt's friendship had been key. As convicted and strong in his own right, Matt made a core element of their team. With him by his side, Tai felt that no one could challenge the digidestined. Try as he might, Tai couldn't help but be happy for his friend, but heartache is a cold drink to take.