A/N- Aren't you all so lucky? I happen to have nothing to do right now so I'm writing another chapter! Yay me! I thought that was pretty awesome of me considering it took me two years to post chapter 8, and now you get chapter 9 the following day! Anyways, here's chapter 9!

Chapter 9 – Doubt

Alex's POV

"Maybe I don't need to tell him anything yet…" I pondered to myself. I sat down on the edge of my bed. I was all of a sudden very tired. 'If I am actually pregnant, it's not like it's going to show for a while.' My thoughts rolled around in my head. I didn't want or need to say anything to Dallas. At least not yet. Not until I was sure. I mulled this over for a while. The house was very still and I was quite sure that I was all alone. I rose slowly and headed downstairs to make myself a cup of tea. I really wanted something much stronger, but considering the fact that I might be harbouring another living being inside me, I thought it was best to stick to beverages of the non-alcoholic variety. I put the kettle on the stove and sat down at the kitchen table. I rested my head in my hands. The truth was, although I didn't want to say anything to Dallas yet, I wasn't all that sure that I could keep this to myself. I was worried of course. Would he want to leave me? If not, would he want to marry me? Where would we live? What would my brothers say? I desperately wanted my mother. To tell me everything would be okay, to support me no matter what happened. Unfortunately the one person I knew I could tell without any repercussions was the one person I could not talk to. The kettle whistled and I removed it from the hot element. I knew what my first step had to be.

I walked to the living room and picked up the phone book from next to the phone and sat on the couch. I flipped it open to 'G' and there, in my mother's neat handwriting were the words 'Gynaecologist – Dr. Mary Trenton'. I followed the name across with my finger to the phone number. With shaking hands I reached for the phone and dialled the number.

"Alex?" came a voice from the front porch. "Are you home?"

"I'm in the kitchen Soda." I stood over the stove stirring the sauce for the spaghetti I was making. Today was Friday and that meant that pretty much the whole gang ended up at the Curtis household. I always made extra food on Fridays. Lots of extra food. The gang usually would come over for dinner and the hang around watching TV or go out and play football or to a movie or something of the like. Normally I like Fridays. With the house full of friendly faces it seemed cozy and warm. It's nice. Today, however, I hoped that the house would be emptier than normal. I really just wanted to be alone. I had called the gynaecologist this morning and made and appointment for next Friday. She had been booked up pretty solid, but a cancellation got me the Friday appointment, which was two weeks earlier than the receptionist had originally told me I could get in.

I hadn't said anything to Dallas yet. I still really wasn't sure what my course of action was going to be. Part of me didn't want to tell him until I was completely sure that I was in fact pregnant, while the other half want to tell him about the possibility right away. Although I had no idea how he would react, inside I felt that I'd rather tell him, than try to keep it a secret, even if it was just for a week. I still had a little while to make my decision because Dally had told me yesterday that he wouldn't be able to make it to dinner today because of work, but that he would come over after. I glanced up at the clock. 'I guess that gives me about two hours to make a life-altering decision.' I thought bitterly to myself. I heard the screen door slam shut as Soda Pop entered the house. I continued to tend to my sauce as I heard Soda enter the kitchen. All of a sudden I felt a hand slide gently across my stomach as an arm wrapped around me from behind. Then soft kisses were planted along my neck, as the offending had slide upwards to cup my breast.

"Soda! Gross!" I yelped, dropping the spoon I was holding. I spun around, but it was not the sight of my younger brother with which my eyes were greeted. It was Dallas. Soda was leaning against the kitchen wall eating an apple, which he had grabbed off the kitchen table.

"You thought that was me?" Soda questioned, looking slightly disturbed. "Gross."

"Exactly," I retorted. "Its not like you told me that someone was with you though" I said. "What was I supposed to think?" Soda laughed softly and left the kitchen, walking out into the living room and flopping on the couch. I turned to Dally, "I though you said you couldn't come 'til later."

"I got off early," he replied simply. "Don't I get a kiss hello?"

"Of course," I said and planted a soft kiss on his lips. "Sorry."

"It's okay," he laughed gently. I felt very nervous all of a sudden. I knew that I had to tell him. I just couldn't keep it a secret. We didn't hide things from each other, we told each other everything, which for Dallas, had been a very difficult thing to adjust to. He was used to keeping everything locked up inside, and I had known this when I got into a relationship with him. That's why I knew how big a deal it was for him to be able to tell me everything, what a big step that had been for him. I also knew that it only happened because of his love for me, and because of that, I knew that I couldn't keep something this big from him. It wasn't fair. I gave a small sigh and lifted my eyes to meet his.

"Dallas, there's something I need to tell you." His eyes grew dark, and the playful grin on his face disappeared. He looked worried. "Not here though," I added. He nodded and I took his hand and led him towards the staircase. "Soda, can you finish dinner?" I called over my shoulder to him.

"Why? Wait- never mind," he snickered to himself. "I don't want to know." I shook my head, dirty boy.

Sorry to leave it hanging there guys, but I wanted to get this up, while I still have time to write. It was my first day of school today and I already have homework, so I don't know when the next time I'll get to update will be. Anyways hopefully I'll be able to get chapter 10 up soon also, but as for now, R/R!