Everlasting Love Part 2
Characters: Anakin Skywalker, Padme Amidala, Obi- Wan Kenobi and other star wars character.
Time: Post- Revenge of the Sith; republican civil wars
Summary: Padme has been successful in bringing Anakin back to the good side of the Force . Now Anakin tries to be the Man he use to be while trying to face the greed and temptations of the Empire. In regret of all he has done to the Rebellion and the one he loves, Anakin sets out on a mission that will change his and Padme's life forever.
Scenario: So four years after Padme and Anakin/Darth Vader parted their ways, Padme was determined to find Anakin again. Now that she has found Anakin and has turned him back to the good side, he feels determined to correct all his wrong doing especially to the one he loves, Padme. As Anakin struggles to be the man he once was, Padme is there to help guide him.
Disclaimer: I do not own star wars. All belong to the wonderful George Lucas
Chapter 17 Blood and Memories
"Im not going ask again…what has happened, why is it that my body seems untouched from wounds and scars? Why does it seem like I've never seen the sun?" Anakin asked yelling.
He looked at Padme and Obi-Wan for answeres. His lower jaw began to tremble as if he were about to cry…"Who Am I? he asked
"Anakin maybe we should sit down and…" Padme began to say. "No…just spit it out, I know you know…Don't give me that crap… that I will find out on your own, cause I can't wait anymore." He said in a angry voice.
"Anakin, you see..you.." "No Obi, I'll tell him what he needs to hear." Padme interrupted Obi-Wan.
Padme took Anakin's hand hoping he will understand. He let her. "The reason you don't remember what happened over the last 4 years is because something happened to you…we think you died." She began to say.
"You think? What? You don't know?" He asked searching for answers in her eyes.
"No… I knew, Obi knew, we sensed it…I couldn't feel your presence anymore." She said sadly remembering her encounter with Anakin/Vader.
"Why don't I remember fighting, or dying in a battle?" He asked again.
"Anakin…I don't know what happened to you, the whole Jedi order falling apart, troopers killing Jedi's, I suppose somehow you were caught in the middle of it all." She said.
Anakin realized she did not want to continue seeing the hurt in her eyes.
"You were…are, a very powerful Jedi, more powerful then most Masters." Obi-Wan began to say. "Palpatine saw this in you and him being a Sith Lord, he saw this to his advantage."
"Palpatine…" Anakin said remembering who he is. "The Chancellor… he is a Sith Lord?" He asked not believing what he was hearing
"Yes, he is." Padme said
Anakin looked back at Padme. "It wasn't until our mission last month that we discovered his ultimate plan." She said
"What plan?." Anakin asked calmly and gently squeezing Padme's hand. She bit her lip hesitating to say it.
"To use you…as a weapon." She said as her eyes watered.
Anakin began to realize what happened to him. "He cloned me." He said in a sad low voice.
He let go of Padme's hands and turned around to take in all of this in.
"H..he must of got a sample of your blood somehow." She said trembling.
"How did you find me, retrieve me?" He asked. "Information I received on a rescue mission." Padme said.
"I don't know what happened to me" He said turning around confused and shocked.
"You will, eventually…Anakin, are you going to be alright." Obi asked putting a hand on his shoulder. He looked shocked and numb.
"Yes and no...I don't know" he said shaking his head. "I need time to take this in." He turned his head to look at both of them. "I'd rather be alone right now." He said in a toneless voice.
Padme didn't want to leave but she and Obi-Wan did as he requested. "You know where to find us…if you need us." Padme said softly
Anakin nodded his head, looking away.
Padme and Obi walked out of the training room. Padme headed to her quarters. "Are you going to be alright?" Obi asked "Yaa, im fine..I just…?" She said "Just give him some time Padme." Obi said. She nodded agreeing to be patient.
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Anakin stayed in the training room. He sat on the floor trying to stay calm and understand everything.
"A clone" he thought to himself. "I'm not real…I'm just some Sith Lord's experiment. But how do I have all these memories and feelings, they have to be real…no…No, my thoughts and memories it could have been downloaded from a computer, but feelings…feelings can't be downloaded."
"By the Force…how could Padme even love me? Was she just acting?...of course not? Do I love her? Or is it just a memory? No no…I do love her. She does care for me, why else would she had come for me in the first place." Anakin shook his head. "But still, she probably looks at me and knows I'm not the real Anakin. She probably tells herself to pretend it's me." Anakin thought to himself sadly.
"No, I can't think that way. They do really care for me…other wise they would not bother to fuss over me. I can see why now they didn't want to tell me, but still it's unfair that they kept it from me." He continued to think.
Anakin's blood was boiling underneath his skin, he didn't know whether to be angry or calm. He kept on thinking how could he be mad, But he had every right. He now felt empty and cold, like he did not have a soul.
Anakin felt like there was more to all this and he felt that Padme and Obi-Wan were hiding something more. He had to know what it was, it was just a matter of if and when they would.
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Anakin walked out of the training room and headed to Padme's room, assuming she would be there.
He opened the door.
Padme turned around to see Anakin standing in the door way, his face was motionless, he looked cold and numb. For a moment there Padme was afraid that he might lash out in rage because that look looked so familiar.
Anakin looked at Padme. He noticed her face was blotchy and her eyes a bit red. She had been crying. He began to feel sorry for her. With all the battles she has been in and all the missions she had run, he forgot how fragile she can be. She definitely masked her emotions well taking charge in the Republic rebellion.
Anakin had millions questions to ask her but at the moment he wanted to comfort her, like he use to, "Like I use too? Or my real self? I have all these memories and feeling with Padme, so real that I feel real…I just don't understand it." Anakin thought to himself.
Padme just stared at him not sure what to do. She felt that Anakin hated her for lying to him and it hurt her even more that there was more secrets she couldn't dare tell. She turned away, and just looked blankly at the wall afraid of what Anakin thought of her.
Anakin sensed her sadness and pain, he only did what he thought was right. He walked over to her sat down beside and slowly rubbed her back.
"Padme are you alright? What has happened to you all these years?" Anakin asked in a soft voice.
Padme was a bit surprised. She turned and looked at him. "Please…tell me." Anakin said again. She looked into his eyes seeing that he really cared and wanted to know.
"Vader, is what happened to me." She began to say slowly. "Did he hurt Padme." Anakin asked concerned.
Padme bit her lower lip, just thinking to herself what Anakin as Vader did to her. "He did." She said quietly not really wanting to discuss it.
"What did he do to you Padme?" Anakin asked holding her closer. Padme inched away slightly not wanting to say. Anakin held her shoulders gently and turned her to face him, "Please tell me, what did he do?"
"Anakin, he tried to kill me…he almost did." She said finally
"Well he must of done more to you then that, Obi-Wan said that you were hurt not only physically but emotionally and he trained you to help you to be yourself again, what else did he…" Anakin was cut off.
"Anakin it's complicated, I…I don't want to talk about it." She said raising her voice and standing up to move away from him. "Please Anakin don't ask me." Padme said almost begging.
Anakin clearly saw that she did not want to discuss the issue, but it bothered him that she wouldn't tell him.
"Why won't you tell me?...Is it because … I'm not the real Anakin…just a clone." He said getting mad.
Padme turned around. She almost had this look of horror on her face. She walked towards Anakin.
"Anakin… you are not 'just' a clone." Padme said clearly "You are flesh and blood and you are human."
"Yaa, a copy of someone else." Anakin spat out. "No, you are Anakin Skywalker." Padme said raising her voice.
"Keep telling yourself that, cause underneath it all you probably just see me as some stranger." Anakin yelled back
"Is that what you believe I think?...Anakin, do you honestly think that is what I think?" she asked.
Anakin looked at her for a moment, inside he knew Padme cared for him for who he was but he couldn't help but feel like he was just something else.
"I know you and Obi-Wan care for me, but I still can't help but feel…I feel like I have lost a part of me Padme. I feel empty inside. Padme I…" Anakin trailed off and turned away.
Padme walked towards him and put her hand on his shoulders, she brought her hands down to his arm s and turned him around. "Tell me how feel." She asked him.
He looked down at her, " I feel like…I feel empty, cold, like a no one… and with you and Obi-Wan I only feel like you are just taking care because you feel you need too." He said
"Anakin we help you because we want to, not because we need to. You are very important to me and Obi-Wan, we both love you very much.." She said
Anakin looked at her directly when she said love. "Love!" He said loudly. "How can you love me, I'm not the Anakin you fell in love with, I'm not the Anakin you married or fought with during the clone wars…I'm not the Anakin you met so long ago on Tattoinee, I'm just nothing to you, I'm nothing but an object to love." He said with eyes starting to water.
"Anakin, I don't see you as an object or a thing to love…I see you as my soul mate, I see you as a part of me, my equal, my balance in this universe." Padme said truly.
"How can you love me, knowing I'm not real?" Anakin asked moving away from her.
"Don't you get it? You are the real Anakin. There are things you do, things only Obi-Wan and I would recognize, your training, you've have been so successful in regaining to use the Force and you are remembering more than you should." Padme said
"All but downloaded into my mind…" he said disgustingly.
"No, memories can be transmitted but not feelings Anakin. Anakin you are real, and I knew it the second I looked at you. I can't explain it but in so many ways you are Anakin. His soul, your soul is within you, you know how I know? Because, I can see it in you." She said to him again.
"Then why do I feel like I am missing something." He said.
"Anakin your memories will return to you, you have actually accomplished more than Obi-Wan and I thought you would." She began to say.
"Why do you say that?" He asked trying to understand.
"Because, you are remembering things that were not downloaded into your mind, don't you see Anakin, you are regaining your true memories which, makes you real and true enough. The same memories, the feelings the same blood flowing through your veins. You are the real Anakin Skywalker." Padme said honestly and clearly.
Hearing that made Anakin happy. He smiled. "So you don't see me as a clone?" He asked quietly.
"No Anakin. Yes you are a genetic replication of yourself, I know that is a fact, but truly and spiritually, you are my Anakin and I have not looked at you any differently." Padme said.
"Your Anakin." He repeated. Anakin turned and faced her. He looked into her concerned eyes. He saw and he felt that she cared so much for him. He knew Padme meant what she said, but it still hurt him that he was not the original.
"I love you Anakin, I hope you know that and believe that." She said
He walked towards her. He held her by the waste. "I know you do."
"I know I my not have been showing you affectionately, it's just I wanted to give you your space and time." She continued to say.
"I have always known how you felt, I sensed it the moment you looked at me in the Techno Lab." He said "My first memory was of you and us and when I looked at you a felt that bond between us."
At that point Anakin did not care whether he seemed real or not because to Padme he was real and that is all that mattered to him.
"I want to be a part of you Anakin, I want to feel your love again. I want you to see and feel that I love you for who you are." Padme said passionately.
They held each other tightly, not wanting to let go.
Anakin felt better and comforted by Padme but still deep down inside he felt like there was a part of him missing.
As Anakin held Padme he thought to him self who this Darth Vader was. He had a strange feeling that he was connected to him some how.
To Be Continued.
Hehee, I'm getting excited myself just writing this :D I will update the next chapter as soon as possible. Expect a familiar character to show up in the next chapter :P Hope you are enjoying the story. Thanks a lot for the reviews, it really keeps me motivated. TrinityDawn