Disclaimer: Even though I have to work o my Fushigi Yugi fanfic I just had to do a Hellsing one as well... so I own nothing...but I want to be Integra when I grow up...if only my uncle would try to kill me...

Alucard walked up to the Hellsing manor haughtily. He had been gone several months, nearly a

year, and was finally returning. He had been on business of his own which Integra had accepted probably

not knowing how long it really took him. Still he was happy to be returning not only to his true home, but

his master as well. As he strutted in he called out in a devious voice "Oh Dear Master I have returned!' it

echoed off the walls. Hearing this Walter came forward. Alucard's grin somewhat faded noticing the

morose expression on the butler's face. "Did you miss me?" the vampire asked his usual demeanor

returning. Walter seemed to take little notice "I'm afraid there is some bad news..." as he said these words

his head drooped a bit and Alucard's expression became one of curiosity. "What of it?" he said pushing up

his orange tinted glasses. "...Sir Integra..." he paused and took a deep audible breath as if it was very hard

for him to say this, "she has...passed on..." he cringed and put a hand to his face. Alucard raised an

eyebrow "I never took you as one to pull a prank Angel of Death..." he said almost proud. He then noticed

Seras coming into the room, she hadn't seen Alucard, but when she did she gasped and ran from the room.

The No Life King stared at Walter in a light confusion "What is going on...I know I was gone a while, but

this is just bizarre..." Walter looked up finally his eyes shone with tears not yet fallen. "Your master

Integra Hellsing is dead Alucard...she has died" a tremor of fury was noticeable in the old man's voice,

Alucard knew he wasn't joking, but he had to be. "Integra dead? I hardly believe that...I wish to see her,

however, is she in her office as usual?" he questioned. "No! She has died like her father before her!" Walter

repeated "But she was in perfect health when I left her...I don't think it is funny about you joking of her

demise!" the vampire stalked forward. =Integra dead?! No...it can't be...she can't die no! She can't!=

whether he wanted to believe Walter or not it was impossible for him to think of his dear beloved master a

corpse like so many he had seen. He sunk through the floor before the butler could respond, and reappeared

in her office grinning "I'm—"he began to talk but stopped realizing that the room was empty. =But so

intermittently is she not in here...= he thought. He began searching for her presence, not detecting it he was

struck by a feeling he hadn't felt in century's...anxiety. He hurried down to the balcony overlooking the

main entrance where Walter still stood. "Where is she!/" Alucard growled the rage that was building up

inside him surprised even himself. "Take me to her!" he said again his voice rising, his hackles rose in

absolute fury. Walter started to walk down a hallway underneath the staircase. Alucard followed resisting a

strange urge to throttle the man in front of him. They arrived at a well- lit area where flowers, wreaths, and

many tokens of bereavement were stashed in the middle a glass casket stood. There were a few people in

the room, ones who worked for Hellsing mostly, scattered around the area, crying or more accurately

sobbing. "I never thought I would miss her...you know" a solider said to his buddy as he leaned on his

shoulder glancing at the casket momentarily before looking away. Alucard stomped up a few of the

Hellsing members recognizing him. He peered down frowning intensely "Well?!" he shouted to the face

inside. Sure enough it was Integra's, her hair glistened gently in the light, her brilliant blue eyes closed and

her glasses gone from her face, she was dressed in her usual suit but around her was a black cloth with the

Hellsing coat of arms on it. Her face was pallid and her expression blank as ever. Alucard grinned nastily.

"Get up! You can't sleep all day! I thought you said you would never rest until you rid the world of all

these disgusting beasts!...Well!?!" his infuriated voice reverberated throughout the room silencing

everyone. He raised fist and smashed the glass. He glared down at her =Get up! You lazy Hellsing! I told

you! GET UP!!!= anger coursed through every part of his face his eyes aflame, his mouth creased

downwards his fangs poking out. Her eyes gently fluttered open. "Alucard?" she questioned her voice a

whisper, "Yes?" he said a little grin showing he relief =I told you she didn't die...= "I missed you...so

much..." there was a light tremor in her voice and she coughed roughly. He stroked her cheek "It's all

right..." he reassured her. "I don't feel so good" she answered, "I hope you hurry back...I die from

loneliness without you here" she smiled softly and he was struck with absolute horror. =That...she said that

when I...left...= he blinked and he was leaning over Integra's smashed casket glass everywhere, his hand

bleeding, she was still, and cold. "...no..." he said his face, his whole being displaying his shock and utter

repulsion. "She...can't...be..." he fell to his knees making him eye level with the casket's shattered

opening. "Integra..." something liquid hot feel across his cheek. Another one followed and when he tasted

it, it was salty. "My...master..." he quivered his glasses slid off his nose and onto the ground making

another echo. He felt as though his world had collapsed around him. "She died unexpectedly 3 nights

ago...the doctor said it was sever pneumonia..." Walter said coming up behind him. "But she...never

got...sick..." he answered in disbelief. "I know...somehow she caught it...he also said that her immune

system was weak from lack of sleep and nutrition, she worked those long hours barely doing either and..."

Walter couldn't say anymore. Alucard stayed there kneeling beside his former master tears trickling down

his cheek without his notice. =I...can't...stay her without you...= he said silently to himself,

=Integra...come back...to me...= his thoughts burned inside him a pain like no other swelled and burrowed

into his very being he couldn't handle it he couldn't take it, this couldn't be happening!...but he no longer

could deny the fact that it was.

(okay this is what I thought Alucard would feel, I truly have never tried to depict him before especially not in incredibly emotional scenes. This is my first Hellsing fic remember so please don't flame me to harshly...)